Kevin suddenly stiffened, and in the darkness, he gazed incredulously at the woman in front of him.
“What did you say?”
Bella looked down, gripped the bedding beneath her hard, and repeated word for word, “I say let’s divorce.”
He pressed a hand to her shoulder and yelled out of control, “Why?”
Bella’s tears fell and she said shakily, “There’s no reason. I am just a little tired and I don’t want to be living this kind of life.”
“What kind of life is this?”
She was silent, and even in such a desperate situation. She still couldn’t say it.
Kevin picked up the scattered clothes on the ground and put them on one by one. He went to the landing window, lit a cigarette and listened to the roaring sound of the sea in the distance.
They were silent for a long time. He turned his back to her, and she had been standing in the dark, silently shedding tears.
With a click, the closed chandelier was turned on, and the house was instantly bright, a little too dazzling.
“Is it because you can’t have children?”
What Kevin said causally stunned Bella. She couldn’t believe what she heard. Kevin couldn’t believe that she would file for divorce on such a beautiful night.
“How did you know that?”
After another long period of silence, Bella asked shakily.
Kevin inhaled sharply, but no smoke came out. He swallowed the bitter smoke.
“I knew a long time ago, on the night you left for America.”
Bella’s tears suddenly looked like broken pearls, unable to stop falling. She desperately covered her lips, but still couldn’t suppress her shocked cries.
“That night, you were not by my side. I missed you so much. I went to your little secret room, laying on your bed. I accidentally saw the medical checklist you pressed under the pillow. At that moment, my heart was like being torn apart. It hurt. Thinking of the abnormalities before you left, I just suddenly realized that underneath your smiling surface, there was such a heavy ineffable difficulty hidden …”
Bella cried even harder and finally understood why Kevin had called her in the middle of the night on that day in America, and why she thought he was weird.
“So you said to me that you don’t like the baby because you’ve already read the medical checklist. You just comforted me, right?”
Kevin smoked hard and nodded to acknowledge, “Yes.”
Bella couldn’t control it anymore. She cried out, “Why? Why didn’t you ask me when you already knew? Why do you hide your desire to be a father when you love children because you’re concerned about my feelings?”
Her heart ached so much, and her body trembled violently. Her mind was blank. The only thing she felt was heartache for the man who had always loved her.
Kevin extinguished the cigarette in his hand, slowly walked towards her, stretched out his strong arms, tightly hugged Bella from behind, “Because I love you. Everything I do is because I love you. Children are important, but you are more important than children. I’m okay without children, but I absolutely can’t live without you …”
He said he couldn’t live without her, making Bella cry with sadness. Love was always like a desert rose blooming in the desert, the outside delicate and touching, while inside poisonous. You appreciated it, and would feel very happy. But you touched it, it would not hesitate to let you pain. Perhaps the only way to avoid pain was not to touch it. But what was the meaning of life without love? How could someone live a life without love …
“Kevin, I’m scared. I’m scared that one day in the future your love for me will decrease, and what will I do then?”
“There’s never going to be that day. So don’t say silly things like divorce. Restless thoughts will lead to an uneasy future. If you don’t want to have a disturbing future, you must stop making blind and disorderly conjectures, okay?”
“But what if I can’t give birth to a baby? You’re the only son in the family, and there must be a boy to inherit your vast family business …”
“You can’t have your cake, and eat it. Those families that can have many children won’t have such strong feelings between them as we do. So I won’t have the love that others can’t have, but still have the extravagant hope of having a flock of children. It really doesn’t matter if you don’t have children. I don’t comfort you, but from the beginning, I have such an idea.”
Kevin’s affectionate words made Bella very touched. But she did not immerse in these warm and touching words, and forget the cruelty of reality. She said with tears, “Kevin, do not treat me so good. The more you treat me like this, the more I feel guilty for you. You accept me, reflecting your selflessness, but I promise you, reflecting my selfishness. I can’t ignore the feelings of the people around me, because I want to grasp your love. We cannot base our happiness on the suffering of others.”
“Who’s suffering? Freya?”
“Your parents. Haven’t you ever wondered if they could accept a woman who couldn’t carry on the family line?”
Kevin sighed and slowed his tone, “You really shouldn’t think so much about the child. I’ve already thought about it. If we really can’t have a child of our own in a year or two, then we’ll adopt one.”
Adopt …
Bella’s heart thudded, “Is that even okay?”
“Why not? Whether it’s biological or adopted, as long as we’re true to him, we’ll be fine.”
Bella looked down, and then, she cried.
Kevin distressfully hugged her, his forehead against her forehead, choked and said, “Bella, this is it. This is the end. From now on, don’t keep secrets from me again. No matter what kind of difficulties you have, we have to face them together. Don’t ever say the word divorce to me. It hurts more than you taking a knife and stabbing me twice in the chest. ”
“Well, I’ll never say it again …”
Even if she was hardhearted, there would still be times when she was touched by his sincerity, not to mention that Bella was softhearted.
“Alright, don’t cry. I’m hungry.”
Kevin stretched out his hand to gently wipe away the tears from the corners of her eyes, sighing lightly and ridiculing, “Hey, I used to think that I must find an obedient wife, but now it seems that I still need to find a wife who won’t cry, so that I won’t feel depressed by seeing her tears all day long.”
Bella giggled and melted into smiles. She nasally said, “Let’s go eat noodles.”
They came to the living room hand in hand. The two bowls of tomato egg noodles on the table had long since cooled. Soaked in soup for a long time, the noodles swelled. Kevin smiled and asked, “Is this the delicious one you made especially for me alone?”
Feeling a little embarrassed, Bella picked up the noodles and said, “I’ll cook it for you.”
“No.”
Kevin snatched her noodles, “I’m starving, so make it up.”
Saying that, he pulled the stool down and sat down, using his chopsticks to pick up a ball of noodles that had been sticking together and ate it. He was chewing as he said, “Surely anything tastes good when you’re hungry. It’s much more delicious than those a feast of fat things, abalone and shark fins.”
Bella smiled helplessly and bitterly, so she also sat down and ate the noodles with him.
“Kevin, actually you don’t have to force yourself if it doesn’t taste good. Even if it’s just a dinner, you can’t just make it up. Making it up is a state of mind. Once it becomes a habit, it will bring a lot of inconvenience to your life.”
Kevin was startled, knowing that Bella meant it. He grinned, “No, I just sometimes make it up in terms of food. In other aspects, I will never be like that, especially in terms of women.”
“Then you’ve been married so many times before. Haven’t you made it up?”
“It was like that at the time, but then, I just couldn’t be like that anymore if I wanted to.”
“Why?”
“Because there was a woman who told me very forcefully that she would be the end of my marriage. I didn’t think so at the time, even laughed at her smugness, but now it seems that I’m indeed in love with her.”
Bella smiled and felt warm in her cold heart. If she was asked what happiness was at this time, she would answer without hesitation that happiness was eating an unpalatable tomato egg noodle with her beloved on a night in April.
Louis and Alice’s wedding date was finally set on the fifteenth day of April, and only they knew when the date was set, Celeste, Bella, and Kemp.
Celeste saw that her son seemed to be serious and couldn’t help but feel anxious. She braced herself to dial Kemp’s number, and they who had been divorced for years finally met in a cafe.
They hadn’t seen each other for a dozen years. They put forward the only topic they could talk about after briefly checking each other out.
“You know about your son’s wedding, right?”
“Yes.”
“So what are you going to do?”
“Bless him.”
“You ….”
Celeste didn’t expect Kemp to say something so contrary to her, and couldn’t help but angrily reprimand him, “Don’t you think that’s very irresponsible of him?”
Kemp sneered, “Compared to you, who abandoned him at the age of eight, what’s irresponsible about me raising him alone for over twenty years?”
Knowing that she was in the wrong, Celeste took a sip of the coffee in front of her nervously, “Anyway, I hope you can stop him.”
“Why? Why should I stop him?”
“He doesn’t love the girl at all. He likes the other woman.”
“Then who forced him to marry someone he doesn’t like?” Kemp’s gaze was sharp as he glared at her, “I’m busy with official duties, but I know what you’ve done. You’ve never been a selfish mother. If your son is unhappy, you should be fully responsible.”