I secretly hide behind the window and look at him, watching the person I think about every day.
There are lightning and thunder outside the window, the light of lightning lights up his face, and his sad eyes look at me.
I can’t respond to him, no.
“Why don’t you go out and tell him all?” Mom hears the voice wakes up and comes over.
My mother’s hand slaps heavily on my shoulder.
“Carolina, how can you treat me so cruelly!”
He is disappointed. He is puzzled, and he is furious.
I know how he feels at this moment, and I want to die because of the pain in my heart.
I don’t know how long he has been standing here, and he will get sick if he goes on like this.
It is so cold outside.
I really can’t stand it anymore.
“Go out, and make it clear to him.” Mom signs, “It’s too bitter between you.”
James stands in the dark and looks at me stubbornly.
I rush out.
The heavy rain pours on me all at once, and I want to tremble in the cold, but James has been standing here for a long time.
James looks at me happily.
He rushes over to hug me.
“James. I have said that it ‘s over. I have told you so many times, why don’t you listen to me? I’m tired and don’t want to be with you.” I am so ruthless.
And James says as if he could not understand it, “You said you will marry me!”
“Forget it,” I say.
In the rain, I can shed tears unscrupulously, no one can see.
James’s body shakes, I am startled and want to run over, but stop immediately.
I cannot.
I can’t care about him anymore, let him know that I still love him.
But his body is getting sick. He is still wearing a sick suit.
What should I do?
“James, I beg you to go back. Don’t come to see me again. Okay? I want to live a quiet life. You see my life has become a mess since I met you, I don’t want to live such a life!”
I eagerly want him to leave, and stare at him, looking at him casually. I want to take a deep look at him again. Fortunately, the night and the rain cover my affection.
After that, you are no longer mine.
James looks at me, and his eyes are full of doubts, “I don’t believe it! When you are with me, I can feel your happiness. I don’t believe you. You are always a liar! ”
“Yes, I’ve been lying to you all the time, but I finally tell the truth. That is, I’m tired of you! I want to leave you again and again, don’t you know that?”
James stops talking, and the rain pours on him, raindrop running down his face.
Suddenly he doesn’t have any expression, so he looks at me so lightly, “Carolina, you are really cruel. Well, you said you have played enough, then it’s my turn to play.”
His words plunge me into a kind of panic, not because he hates me, but because I am afraid that he is unhappy and has another kind of relationship with me.
I don’t want to hurt him.
But I can only say to him coldly, “Just do what you want, but don’t let people say that Mr. James can’t afford it.”
His hateful eyes seem to penetrate through the layers of rain and project towards me. I could never forget his eyes.
Hatred in despair.
I turn around in despair and dare not look at him, saying, “Go back, and don’t come again.”
James never says anything, when I turn to look at him.
James has laid on the mud.
“James!” I shout with a broken heart and run past.
He lays there, his eyes close tightly, lifeless.
I am panicked and scared.
The heavy rain makes him cold, and I hug him in a panic and cry.
“James, wake up Please! Please wake up!”
What to do? I covered myself on him, want to prevent him from the rain, and want to warm him again.
But it seems useless.
I call an ambulance and inform Isabel.
Perhaps only this is the best for James.
I stand wet outside the ward, daring not to take a step closer. I could only stand here and look at him from a distance.
You see, the people who have a relationship with me have no happy end. It is all because of me that James goes to the hospital again and again.
I am a sinner.
Behind me are the hurried footsteps, and stop beside me.
“Ms. Carolina, you are smart,” Isabel says.
I don’t look at her. I’m a loser and I can only escape.
Isabel pats my shoulder, “This is the last time he goes to see you, rest assured.”
Finally, I am completely disappointed.
In fact, there is no feeling in my heart at this time, and the pain is numb.
“Actually, I already know what James is doing, I just let him go to see you, let him be completely disappointed, and will not be obsessed with you in the future,” Isabel says with a smile as if everything is in her control.
Yes, I will never look forward to seeing him again.
“I will never forget what you did to my sister. I will take revenge on you.” I turn around to see her and say firmly.
Although the power between us now is very different, I will not give up the idea of revenge.
Isabel then says indifferently, “I will accompany you at any time. For all these years, what you saw me have done is nothing serious.”
“All right, go back, he will wake up in a while. Don’t let him see you again.”
I look at James for the last time. His face is pale, without vigor. All of this is caused by me.
I walk back step by step, limp, and slow as if to lengthen this time.
But the reality is so cruel.
The heavy rain continues, so heavy that my vision is blurred and I could not see anything.
My mother stands at the door waiting for me, holding an umbrella over my head and saying, “Go home.”
I nod and look at everything in front of me numbly.
Everything is over. I lose everything.
After going back, I am seriously ill, with a fever, and my body temperature could not decrease.
My mother looks at me distressingly and says to me again and again, “It’s okay, all will pass.”
I am crossed in love.
When I finally realize the problem, I have recovered from my illness and sit in a room full of sunlight, looking at the dazzling light outside the window.
The light shines into my eyes, and I am so uncomfortable that I want to cry, but I couldn’t as if my tears have been drained dried.
I want to go to work, but I find that I can’t do anything.
I don’t miss James either, and I can’t even remember his appearance.
It’s just a mess in my head, I can’t remember anything. Maybe I’m just a waste.
It turns out that this is called crossed in love.
I smile bitterly.
Isabel.
Strangely I always think of her, I hate her.
I start to investigate everything about her, but I don’t expect that she is really a terrible woman.
I use all my interpersonal relationships and abilities to investigate her.
I don’t believe that she is invincible, and I want to avenge her injury to my sister.
It is also at this time that I discover her secret.
About twenty-five years ago, Isabel was just fooling around her life, because of some coincidences she met James’s father, the president of the European-style group, Larry.
James was born the next year, and then Isabel and James were sent to the United States together. It was not until 15 years later that the authentic master of the family, Joey died, and James was allowed to return to the country.
However, Isabel has not been allowed to return home. I’m afraid she came back secretly this time.
She secretly came back?
Moreover, Joey died very miserably, and the car crashed into pieces.
I remembered it was on the news at that time, the car rushed out of the cliff, and then the car burned and exploded, leaving nobody.
But I always feel that these things will be related to Isabel.
But soon my phone rings.
It is Isabel.
“I know you are investigating into me, but I am a good law-abiding citizen. Do you think you can find out something? Stop dreaming!” Isabel says.
I sneer and say, “That’s great, but what are you afraid of? Why are you afraid and call me? As long as you have done this in the world, there will be traces! Isabel, you are afraid!”
“I’m scared?” Isabel smiles disapprovingly, “It’s ridiculous. If you can find something that the police and the family couldn’t find, I would be awesome!”
“Since you say so, I might take it seriously what you have done.”
The reason why Isabel would say so is that she looks down on me. She does not believe I will find out her traces.
“But I think you are still careful.” Isabel smiles softly and says, “Otherwise, you will be killed by a car when crossing the road one day. That would be miserable.”
“You are threatening me,” I say.
Isabel laughs, “I just care about you. You know what? James is very angry now. He thinks you are playing with him and finally sees through you. I think it is necessary for me to say something to him at this time. Or else he’s doing something to you and your family in a hurry, it would be bad.”
I squeeze the phone without saying a word and then hang up the phone without waiting for Isabel to say anything.
Suddenly I seem to be out of breath, and my heart is palpitating. Why do I become so sad as soon as I heard the name, James?
Before I can calm down, my mom calls me.
“Carolina, your dad has an accident! What should I do?”
I open my mouth and ask hard, “What?”