Neil is not far from us. If he looks over, he can clearly see that I am kissing James at this moment!
I push hard, “James, no”
I can’t be found!
James kisses me very hard, the smelling of blood is between my teeth and lips.
His hands touch freely around me, kneading, trying to press me into his body so that I couldn’t move.
James lets go of me and looks at me puzzled.
“Is it your family? Who do you see? Are you afraid that they will find out the relationship between us?” He rubs the blood on his mouth, stares at the door of the community hungry.
“No.” I could not explain.
James misunderstands me, he thought I don’t want him to be seen by my family. How I wish that one day I can introduce him to my family and say that this person is my lover and I want to be with him.
But I don’t have this qualification.
“I’ll go first.” I had to run away again and again.
“I’m waiting for you, stop saying what we said before.”
James
When I get home, I see the message from him.
This person is so good, am I really qualified to own him?
I hug myself and couldn’t help crying anymore, I could only cry softly, not even have the courage to cry out loud.
We haven’t seen each other for several days. I don’t know how to face James. Should I be frank? But I have no courage.
These days I seem to be working overtime, pretending that I don’t miss him.
I sit at the desk in a daze, and Mandy slams the table, “I don’t believe there are people I can’t invite!”
Everyone around me looks at her. Mandy is the mainstay of our magazine. She has a good reputation and doesn’t know who is so difficult to be invited.
“It’s James! Yes, anyone who has something to do wit him is either rich or noble, not to mention the future heir of the James family.” Mandy and colleagues talked eloquently.
When I hear the words “James”, my heart sinks. He is the obsession I could not let go at any time.
“As for James, no matter what, everyone is curious about him. I believe that if I can interview James, we can bet that our magazines will sell well!” Mandy throws her fists in excitement, very excited.
“I hear that James is only an illegitimate child, but it is because the oldest son of the James family died that his youngest son is officially admitted by the family!”
Illegitimate child? James is an illegitimate child?
“Well, I also know that although the James family recognizes him, they do not recognize his mother.”
“Ah, no wonder James always likes older people. Do you say he has some kind of mother complex? His previous girlfriends are several years older than him!”
I listen to their gossip silently, as I know very little about him.
I am four years older than James. The more I love a person, the more I care about it. As long as it is his affairs, I cannot ignore it.
Finally, the editor-in-chief says, “Who can win the case of James, I give her the paid vacation plus the bonus doubled at the end of the year!”
As the conversation ends, everyone becomes more excited.
But I sit alone and say nothing. I don’t want to have any contact with him under the crowd. Even if my colleagues don’t know that I am married, I still feel guilty and ashamed.
Everyone in the magazine office thinks of various ways, and they are disappointed
At last, the editor-in-chief invited him in person and comes back to me with joy and excitement.
“Carol, James says, he will only agree with your interview.” The editor-in-chief looks at me with some gossips and some surprises.
Her words startled everyone, and they put down their jobs and surround me.
“You know what, at that time James said only a sentence.” The editor-in-chief draws a tone of curiosity.
“What? What?” They surround me, excited.
“Let Carol come here. Just four words!” The editor claps her hands, “You don’t know how handsome James looks!”
“But do you know James?” Mandy says calmly, “Why you don’t tell us earlier? Carol, you do have this ability. ”
“It’s not like that. Although James and I know each other, that is not what you think. I just…” I just don’t want to see him in that environment.
I look at them with depression.
“Maybe it’s James who is fond of you. It won’t be long before you can marry him.” Someone says queerly.
“What a joke! Do you think that normal people can marry into a rich family easily?” Mandy looks at me with squinting eyes, very disdainful, “Oh, someone should not have a daydream!”
They speak, and I look at them with a grin.
Are James and me really a daydream?