The beautiful girl who accompanies him going out is scared.
But why do I see the pain in his eyes?
“Why should I listen to you? The women around me have never said no to me for so many years! Why do you say that playing with me is just playing?” James squeezes my shoulders, gradually pressing me hard on the sofa in the private room.
Above his head is a laser light, which flickered across James’s face.
He is angry, his face tightens tightly, his teeth gritted and his eyes flush as if he is accusing me of having an iron heart.
“Don’t we all talk about it James? Haven’t you played with a lot of people like this? If you want me, just call me and I’ll come to you.” I gently stroke his face, fingers running over his frowning eyebrows, “You know, I can never refuse you.”
I make myself mean and frivolous.
“I want to love you, but why you don’t want it? Why do you have to look down on yourself so much? Play? How do you play?” James presses on me, panting gently, “Just like you are going to be insulted and becomes one of my many women. Do you really want to do this? ”
An ambiguous posture is formed between us, but also an embarrassing situation.
“But you belong to me now, so that’s all right.” I stare into his eyes with an expression, stretch my arms around his neck, pull him to myself, and kiss him.
James doesn’t move, and indifferently let me do whatever I want on his lips.
Only my unilateral intimacy. That’s sad.
In the end I could only stop and stare blankly at him, “James, please.”
After speaking my tears fall.
Please, keep me by your side. I am selfish, weak, and disgusting. I am afraid that after you know the real me, you will definitely throw me away. I have no courage to face such a result.
James and I stay in the box for a long time, but do nothing and stay quiet. In the end, I am so sleepy that I sleep on the sofa.
I feel like I feel a soft lip kissing me in the dim, careful and cherished.
What a pity is always in the dream.
When I wake up, I open my eyes, and I see James staring at my eyes.
But soon he moves away without a trace, lights a cigarette, smokes one cigarette after another.
“Let’s go and take you home,” James says, crushes his cigarette butts.
When I get out of the box, I could clearly see that James’s eyes are red, and the corners of the eyes are moist, probably because they are smoked.
“I’ll go back by myself.” I stand under the blinking neon and dodge my eyes, “You’re tired too.”
Actually, I don’t want to let him know where I live now. I am afraid he would see Neil, see my embarrassment.
James gets into the car without saying anything. Seeing that I don’t move, he horns impatiently, “Get in the car!”
I have to sit in and tell James an address across the street from my home.
The sky gradually lights up, and the street lights are yellow
The car stops near my neighborhood, and I don’t dare let him go inside.
“Just here.” I pick up the bag and plan to leave.
“Carol, how long can you say that this relationship between us can last?” James smiles suddenly and looks at me inconceivably.
“Who knows if you have any other men? Do you just want to play with me? Treat me as a pastime? If all the above I guess is true, I will kill you then,. I won’t investigate you. I believe everything you say, but don’t lie to me, “James’s eyes are rough.
I am so nervous that I couldn’t breathe. I stare at him, my heart pounding.
Does he know anything, know that I have a family, and still know the existence of Neil?
“I…” I am in a panic, not knowing how to speak.
James smiles softly, “Just cheat you. How could I hurt you?”
He reaches out to help me wipe the sweat from my forehead and lowers his eyes.
I seem to be addicted to him and lean on gently, smelling his taste and saying, “James, just give me some time, OK?”
I need a little time and then be with you.
“Okay, I’ll wait for you.” James avoids my leaning body and looks at me inquiringly.
“Don’t let me down.” James’s expression is very cold as if he endured something.
I have no time to think about it. I accidentally look up and see Neil walking out of the gate of the community.
“I have to go now.” I open the car door nervously, staring at the movement of Neil.
He doesn’t see me, he has already left the gate of the community, and at this time I just get out of the car.
But James’s eyes gradually become cold, and he suddenly rushes over.
He kisses me hard.