I would also like to apologize for acting out that night. It was wrong of me but you see blood comes before everything. Ragnar is your blood now and I could know that by the expressway he fought off five men to keep you safe in his arms He does not trust us to cover you and I do not condemn him, we were recreants who were hugely spooked of our father.
We should’ve defended you. I should’ve defended you. I’ve to go and train now. I hope to you know again.
Oh and Sofia, indeed though Ragnar is bad man, he’s a good man to you. I eyed this the night he defended you from us.
Do not ever lose presence of that
Your favourite family, Stefano.
Gashes welled up in my eyes as I folded up the letter after reading it. Stefan has invariably been the kindest family to me, I guess I precisely noway eyed it.” You read it?” Ragnar murmured, coming into the space. That is how the letter got then.
” Yeah” I soughed wishing I noway had because now I feel shamefaced again.
pinched the ground of my nose, letting my head fall while shaking it hardly.” I detest everyone Ragnar” I spoke with a certain susceptibility in my voice.” Trust me, I understand” he murmured as he sat on his pad.
” I do not detest you”| appeared up at him, with my eyes that were lustrous from reading the letter.” I love you” he emitted the words consequently freely now. wanted that he was comfortable utilizing them.” I love you more” I released a breather after I allow out those words. My grasp cupped the reverse of my region and appeared towards the line, trying to stop my eyes from welling up with gashes.
I heard Ragnar sit up and walk over to me. He placed his grasp on my midriff, but shifted them up ever consequently hardly, letting them rest on my hips.” What is wrong?” He asked with a upset tone.” I do not see who I’m presently” I allow out a sob eventually, I had been holding it in for consequently long. Ragnar precisely blinked at me, shocked at where this unforeseen burst of emotion came from. But it did not come from nowhere, could not buy Stefano had pardoned me. I had spent weeks with this crumbling feeling in my stomach that commodity bad was going to be and constant paranoia that my sisters were going to kill me or Ragnar as vengeance for Raul.
But he’d pardoned me precisely like that.
” You suppose you are the monster?, I am. I do not indeed see myselt presently, do you indeed see who I am?” I snarled, my sadness turning into wrathfulness.” I killed my own family!” I cried while gashes ran down my cheeks.” I have hurt people who did not earn it, precisely because I was hurt”| yelled at Ragnar who was precisely standing there, doubtful of what to do.” My sisters, Haze, Fiona, Nina, Blake and Vince, Olivia, there is presumably more I have not mentioned.” I listed each of them out, counting on my fritters.
Ragnar seized my phase abruptly, with an angry expression plastered on his face.” Your family’s tried to kill and take you down from me indeed though you did not want to reside with them presently. Nina was not indeed hurt by you, she was only hurt because her family was hurt. Fiona was rude and narcissistic, do not indeed get me started on Blake and Vince although I did allow them go, I precisely noway told you. Olivia got Blake and Vince ago consequently she’s happy, and Haze precisely does not get to have you because you are mine consequently that tough luck” Ragnar goggled me dead in the eyes.” I see you, I see your heart” he placed his phase in the locus of my casket.
” You are a good person, whether you suppose it or not, whether you hurt people or not, you will invariably be a good person to me and I’ll invariably see your heart” he stopped stating after finishing and precisely goggled at his phase that was placed on my casket.” This.” he refocused to my heart.” This is cornucopia” he expressed his eyebrows.” This.” he glanced up and down my body before lading me up into his arms matrimonial phraseology.” This is cornucopia, consequently do not ever question if I see you” he bellowed possessively also his voice getting more softer towards the end of his judgment .
He held me in his arms as I goggled into his eyes with absolute shock. He knew me; all of me.
kissed his lips vocally before pressing my forepart against the side his head.” You see me” I rumored with my eyes closed, cheering myself.
A couple of weeks latterly, I was sitting in our bedroom.
I was wearied and Ragnar was at work. I lay on my pad meaning commodity that had been rollicking on my mind. I demanded a child; I actually demanded a child. We had to give Parker to the country and he got set into a foster home.
Parker was fused to my hipsterism for the 2 weeks that he was with us and I adored it. It gave me a sense of purpose, a sense of being demanded by someone who was not Ragnar.
Ragnar paid the police to set Parker in a good home but that did not make it any easier to give him up. And ever ago, I have demanded a child. But I was not sure how to approach Ragnar about it. I see him better than anyone yet I am still veritably spooked to tell him I want a child right now, especially since I am only 17 and he is 18 going 19 coming month. perhaps he will enunciate yeah but make me stay a fleck longer.
So I telephoned the person I trust. Ice.
He came up to the space after I called him, telling him to come up to me.” Sofia what’s it? I swear to god, if you want me to paint your toenails again, I am not serving it” Ice expressed his voice after bursting into the space.” I need to talk to you about commodity” I said gently, showing off him my puppy dog canine eyes.” Oh no, are you expectant” Ice heaved , all the colour draining out of his face, leaving it a whitish colour.
” Why is being expectant such a bad thing!” I blatted throwing my arms up in a bout. He glanced at me worriedly.
” Because you are youthful and have your entire life ahead of you without having to watch for a child” He said veritably snappily, giving away me a conservative light.” Is this what you demanded to talk to me around? Babies and kiddies” He disputed curiously.” Yeah” I jounced.” I mean, I can be the sperm patron if you want, precisely incase Ragnar’s sperm does not work” Ice beamed immorally.” Stop with the jokes” I rolled my eyes before grabbing a pillow and interring my face into it.
” Okay fine, tell me what’s going on inside that brain of yours andI’II take it seriously” He murmured with a more placid tone while poking my forepart when he mentioned the word’ brain’ He crawled on to my pad, and laid coming to me while sat up with my legs crossed, rollicking with my grasp due to my jitters.
” want a baby; 1- I want a child” I conceded nervously. I glanced at him, only to know his face void of emotion.” I am not surprised” Ice reacted with no hint of shock in his voice.” Actually?” I expressed my eyebrows in shock.” Sofia, if anyone knew you well enough, they would enunciate you have a incubating soul, you precisely want to take care of all the people you love or have some kind of a relationship with.
Someone who has consequently important love in their soul needs nearly to set it, consequently noway , I am not surprised you want a baby” he said confidently.
” The only conclusion Ragnar would have, if he’d a child is that he wouldn’t be a good father. He did not have a good father to look up to when he was youthful so he has constantly upset that he does not see how to be a father. He knows you want a child Sofia, and him observing you with Parker has made him want one too. He does not want to fail the child but substantially he does not want to fail you” Ice rambled on.
A stillness filled the space after Ice stopped stating.” How do you see this?”| grunted vocally, rollicking with the verge of Ragnar’s jersey that I was wearing out.
” He brought around it up a many weeks ago while we were drunk” Ice smiled hardly, flashing back the discussion.” do not indeed see how I flash back because I was surely pass the knockout stage” he rolled his eyes with a smile.” It must’ve precisely impacted me ever” he signed standing up.” Sofia, you are youthful. You have all the time in the world to have a child with Ragnar because I see his dumbass would noway leave you” Ice said with a assurance in his voice.
” I am not stating do not have a child. I am stating have one when Ragnar is ready because you will invariably be ready. You may be my stylish crony but consequently is he, and I precisely do not suppose he has healed enough yet from his own to father to be a pater himself” Ice spoke before leaving the space. He was right. It was selfish of me to want a child when we are both presumably mentally exhausted from our own parents and blood’s. Not to mention all the crazy shit that has happed since we have been together.
I want a child, but I want Ragnar to be happy precisely as important.
I smelled into my sandwich that I had made whilst Ice blustered about why pineapple should not be on pizza.” consequently that brings my side of the reason to a conclusion” he said with a happy tone, as if he achieved commodity.” I am not going to lie, I did not hear to any of that” I smiled immorally at him, earning a light from him.
Also, I heard the frontal door swing open and slam shut. My eyes met Ice’s before we both goggled at eachother worriedly.” What did you do?” He whizzed still at me.
” Me? What did you do?” I rumored with a crinkle between my eyebrows. Ragnar stormed in, I swear I could know brume coming from his nose and devil cornucopias growing from his head.
My mouth opened hardly, but Ice demurred my leg, making me close my mouth. We were both confused and shocked at what was making him consequently angry.
” nothing fucking verbalize to me for the coming two hours!” Ragnar bellowed at us before storming out.” It’s moments like these I miss Dante” Ice soughed after Ragnar left the space.
” Should I go up to him?” I asked Ice with a upset tone.
” You heard the man Sofia, he spoke two hours” Ice raised warningly before searching through the fridge and closets for food.” Squall eyefuls” He beamed, grabbing the packet and placing them on the table. As I took a cookie, Ice’s phone chimed.
” Yeah, it’s Ice, what is over?” He murmured into the phone while picking up a cookie. I followed the colour duct from Ice’s face, making him look like a shadow. The cookie ceased from his phase to the bottom as he heeded to the person on the phone.” You are fucking jollying” Ice wrangle into the phone. His tone changed from shocked to angry in seconds.” Fucking dumbass recruits” Ice hurler his phone across the space in a bout of wrathfulness.
was hysterical to enunciate anything consequently I precisely there, gaping at Ice with widened eyes.” What happed?” I eventually chirruped up after Ice took a many breaks.
” You know those stupid little rookies we were training” Ice snarled while clinging his fists.” They stole two million worth of stocks, two fucking million” he cried exacerbated due to the whole situation.” How did they indeed-
” I cut myself off because I did not want to be cried out.
” What are stocks?” I asked confused.
Ice turned to me and gave me the most judgemental regard I’ve ever gotten.” You are with a fucking Mafia leader and you do not know what stocks are?” Ice’s eyes widened when he realised I was not joking.”.
‘. no” I uttered still, trying to
not to laugh at the insane expression on his face. Ice stayed silent before taking a deep breath in.” Stocks are medicines Sofia” he pinched the ground of his nose.
” Ohhhh” I replied, really floundering not to laugh at my asininity.
” You need to go calm him down before he goes on one of his notorious’ killing spree’s” he rolled his eyes.” They are notorious?”| questioned with a shocked tone.” No it was affront Sofia, now go” Ice demanded after glaring virulently at me.
I left the room and headed over towards Ragnar’s bedroom.
Would he be in his office? Or his bedroom?. I’II try the bedroom, I feel like the office would be too important for him to handle.
The door was shut so I knew he was in his bedroom. I was spooked to talk to him since I knew he’d be veritably angry but he is my swain so he has to hear to what I’ve to say; Plus I’m his unborn woman after all.
I rolled up the sleeve and knocked on the door smoothly. He did not respond as usual. I tried to open the door but it was locked.” Ragnar Thiago Hernandez, open this door right now” I demanded roughly.” No” he lumbered loudly so that I could hear it through the door.
” Right now Ragnar!”| put my hand on the doorknob. After a moment, I heard a click that gestured that he uncorked the door. I awaited a nanosecond before walking by.
When I opened the door, which let out a small creek, I saw Ragnar sitting on the edge of our bed with his head in his hands. His elbows were resting on his knees and he looked exhausted as usual. He was wearing his suit but had loosened his tie ever so slightly and unbolted the first button on his shirt; He indeed had his shoes on. I could also see his chain around his neck. He noway takes that thing off. My cuff was sitting on the nightstand next to him because I did not like wearing it while I slept.
The room was dim and dark due to the heavy curtains being shut and the only thing really visible was a candle he’d lighted, presumably moments before I had come up. I suppose he preferred to be in the darkness, I believe he finds it more. calming.
” Two million, two fucking million” he growled, transferring his watch flying across the room.
” Ragnar, it’s plutocrat, at the end of the day you have further than you need. A lot of those kiddies come from families who have nothing and I am not saying it’s right, I am just saying I do not suppose you should be as angry about it as you are” I grunted as I approached him.
” You do not get it, I took those kiddies in, I made them my own, I let them run with the big tykes , they owed me further than their lives but what do I get in return, two million worth of stocks stolen. And okay also, let’s forget the fact that they stole, my fucking guards did not do their job. They allowed it was fully fine to let 3 sixteen time pasts take a fucking truck filled with medicines” Ragnar cried frustratedly while glaring at me with his eyes full of hate.
I just blinked at him for a while after he finished crying.” I guess you are right, it’s your business and your way of earning plutocrat, at the end of the day, if rookies can steal it from under you, I do not see why anyone differently can’t” I agreed, sitting coming to him. He opened his win, letting me draw circles around his hand.
” I just do not like to see you angry”| murmured as I sat next to him, grabbing his exhausted regard. He took my hand and made me stand before he let out a shriek. His hands artificially placed themselves on my midriff, pulling me closer to him.
” This is too important to suppose about, I’ve a headache” he lumbered, resting his head on my shoulder. I seized his face with my hands gently and forced him to gawk at me. I planted a kiss on his forepart, before leaning my forepart against his.
” Our kiddies more not get into this important trouble” Ragnar replied with a certain vulnerability in his voice.
I could not believe he just made that comment. He does want kiddies but the question is when? I know he is not ready just yet, but perhaps when we are in our20’s.
Ragnar’s birthday is coming up soon and he’ll be 19. He does not know that I know, Ice had to tell me. supposedly he does not like his birthday being celebrated because each time was just going to be a reprise of the former bone .
Actually, I’ve no idea what to get him or what to give to him. I know that he does not like people so I was allowing about keeping it rigorously musketeers and I am hoping to get Dante to come from California. Their fellowship has really bettered since Dante left; perhaps Ragnar realised how important he actually depended on him.
He lay his head on my shoulder as I undid his tie. I helped him take off his flashy black suit jacket along with his insanely white shirt. I sluggishly unbolted the shirt while he goggled in admiration at me. His blue eyes were big and bright indeed though it was dark in the room and although I could still see the prostration on his face, I could also see the peacefulness washing over him. He was always tired when he got home, no matter what he did that day.
” How do you not get this shirt dirty, let me in on your secret?” I smiled gently at him with a happy expression submerging my face.” This is like my twelfth shirt moment Sof” he stated while rolling his eyes, floundering to fight off his grin.
” Okay, that does make a lot further sense” I face palmed off before he seized my wrist gently, pulling my hand from my face.” Let me see you” he uttered gently, gaping into my eyes intensively. I tried to be serious, I really did but I just ended up roaring due to his violent light.
I watched his features soften at the sound of my giggle.” I giggle a lot, I am sorry” I beamed mischievously, knowing I was not sorry. I could not take anything seriously but I couldn’t
care less.
He did not respond, rather he just jounced slightly before shutting his eyes. He desperately demanded rest.
Still, I can go downward ” I stroked his impertinence,” If you want to have a nap.” No it’s fine, what time is it?” He questioned curiously, looking around for a timepiece. I checked my wrist and Ragnar shot a me a confused regard.” do not have a watch, do not know why I did that” beamed as I shook my head.” Where’s your cuff?” he asked, noticing that I was not wearing it and was nearly hurt by the fact that I was not wearing it.
refocused to the nightstand next to us, where my cuff was lying. Ragnar reached for the cuff and uncorked it with his key before clicking it back onto my wrist. He ran his cutlet over the heart on the cuff
” I have given you my heart Sof, please do not break it?” He uttered still with his deep voice that was husky and his face plastered with no emotion except for his eyes. His eyes were full of solicitude, as if he was contending with me not to break it.
Trealised that he is noway actually loved anything before me. He has noway given his heart to anyone due to his inviting fear of someone breaking further than it formerly was. He has placed his heart in my hands and trusted me not to break it and I will not.
” noway” I rumored, grabbing his cheeks and squishing them together. I let out a giggle at his face as he beamed gently at my horselaugh before he kissed me, our lips colliding, destroying any space that was left between us.
” Are you going to nap now, you look tired Acey” I scowled knowing he’d detest his surname.” Do not call me that” he growled, standing up. I squalled, adhering onto him like my life depended on it. He threw me over his shoulder, letting me suspend.” Ragnar put me down” I squalled holding onto his suit trousers. He’d one hand up around my midriff, holding me in place on his shoulder while buttoning his suit trousers with the other. The trousers fell to the bottom and he stepped out of them before throwing me onto the bed.
” We are not having kiddies yet but that does not mean we can not exercise” he scowled immorally. I could only imagine what goes on inside his head and not the bone in his undergarments because I know what comes out of that.” As much as I would love to exercise, you need to sleep Ragnar” I glared at him from the bed.” But I do not want to” he moaned, throwing his reverse angrily.” Come onnnnn, lie down” I held my arms out. I could see him mooting it in his head.
” Fine” he moaned angrily, climbing onto the bed and into my arms. He rested his head on my casket while his arm wrapped around my stomach. His grip was tight but gentle, nearly like he was hysterical to break me. I ran my hands through his hair, watching his eyes come harder to open after he blinked.” I love you Sof, always” he grunted partial asleep.” I love you too” I rumored, stroking his impertinence with my thumb. ultimately his eyes shut and he was asleep.
I awaited a many twinkles before worming my way out of Ragnar’s tight grip. I demanded to talk to Ice to make arrangements for Ragnar’s birthday that he did not know I knew about. I glanced at Ragnar one last time before leaving his room. I am the person who knows him the stylish in the world and I’ve no idea what to do or get him for his birthday. Not to mention he formerly hates it so I’ve no indication how to make this day pleasurable for him.
I wandered into the kitchen to see Ice finishing his eyefuls
” Where’s Ragnar?” He asked curiously but also careless at the same time.” Asleep”| muttered before sitting across from him.” What are we going to do for Ragnar’s birthday?” I soughed, shaking my head.
” I know exactly what to do” Ice glanced at me with a agitated expression submerging his face.
” What should we do also?” I asked Ice, easily stressing out due to my lack of idea’s for Ragnar’s birthday.
” Ragnar has always wanted to get down from the Mafia but he is noway really had the chance since he is the leader of one so was allowing that you could take him on a vacation.
I will handle effects with the Mafia over then until he gets back or differently he can put someone differently in charge, I do not mind, either way he will enjoy being down, especially if it’s with you”
Ice explained.
It was not a bad eidolon. I see that Ragnar can be veritably stressed out occasionally due to it consequently perhaps eventually down will allow him unwind for a little fleck.
” You decide where you guys go but you also have to decide what present you are going to get him because of course, I can not do that for you” he beamed at me before thrusting me hardly.” What was that for?” I glared at him.” do not see, I am in a sportful spirit” Ice walked out
Ice was getting the family I invariably demanded. Yeah, he is annoying and actually illogical occasionally but altogether he precisely wants the stylish for the people he cares around.
I can tell that Ice is missing Dante, presumably more than he would’ve because Ice is getting all of Dante’s untreated paperwork now, but I suppose he also precisely misses one of his stylish musketeers. Plus I suppose Ice also wants a break from Ragnar.
Now I had to suppose about where I demanded to take Ragnar. He is a veritably convoluted man, invariably stressed, noway smiling, not simplistic. consequently perhaps I should not suppose too hard-bitten about where to take him. I should take him nearly simplistic with no distractions. I feel like Ragnar would love Hawaii.
There is commodity about him that seems like he’d actually like it over there.
He told me one night that he loves to swim because it’s comforting for him. He does not get to do it frequently since he is invariably working out. consequently perhaps if we leased a little sand house next to ocean, he’d enjoy it more. also when he comes ago, Dante and Ice will be staying for him and they can have their guys night.
But I’ve no eidolon what to get him for a present-day.
TIl suppose about it latterly when I am reserving the breakouts and leasing the house.
Ragnar’s POV
I had awakened up from my nap and Sofia was noway longer lying in arms. I soughed before grabbing my journal, realising that Thadn’t penned anything moment. I was in a fleck of a grumpy spirit as usual but that did not stop me from authoring.
moment was a stressful day as usual, Ice has learned and grassed me that my father was boarding out in one of my numerous houses. It was hours down but at least now I can keep an eye on him from hence.