” There was no real point of that shower” I lumbered at him
” Nope” he scowled proudly. He lay me on the pad with him still inside me He sat up since the pad was position with his midriff. The full coitus height. Ragnar placed a phase on my midriff and a phase on my shoulder.” You ready?” He bellowed, raising his eyebrows and licking his lips. I jounced gently, toast rising to my cheeks.” Stop acting consequently innocent” he frowned pulling out of me.” I am” I was snappily intruded by Ragnar thrusting his exclusive incline inside of me, making me scream. He beamed proudly as I goggled at him with my eyes widened. It smelled consequently good however.” Tell me to stop” he challenged me. I shook my head.” I am going to make you supplicate for me to stop” he smelled his bottom lip.” It won’ be” I was out of breather formerly; I suppose from shock; perhaps sweat that he’d really rearrange my innards
His tenebrous filthy eyes goggled at my face as he started to sluggishly shove in and out of me. I groaned as my legs started to shake” Do not cum Sofia” he moaned while pounding in and out of my cat. I was trickling at this point. I groaned loudly, I could not watch who heard me presently; it was consequently painful but consequently good. My legs shook roundly as I groaned, gripping onto the pad covers and entwining my toes.” Do not cum Sofia” Ragnar advised me, still pounding into me. also he took his two fritters and started corrading my clit, hitting my g- spot. I could not hold back any longer
I groaned loudly as orgasmed, my cat clinging around Ragnar’s palpitating gumshoe.” Fuck Sofia” he mumbled as he lasted while my cum sluggishly blurted out of me; I smelled consequently good after I came. My knee’s were still red from being on the shower bottom.
Ragnar seized my concentration when he hauled out of me and leveled his gumshoe at my stomach. He groaned as he came on my stomach and casket while pumping his gumshoe with his phase. His eyes rolled as he threw his head ago with happiness. He ultimately stopped and was out of breather; I could know a slim subcaste of sweat on his forepart.” Fuck” he lumbered, lying coming to me to catch his breather aswell
dipped some of his cum onto my cutlet and endured it, knowing that he was observing. His jaw ceased hardly as he followed me master my fritters.” Oh you endure good” I spoke with a happy tone. Ragnar gave me a’ you’re crazy face.
” You do not have STD’s right”| lumbered while I frowned at him.” No, I got tried after each one and they had to show off me documents that they did not have an STD” Ragnar signed, cupping the reverse of his region with his grasp
” What do I endure like?” He asked curiously, changing the motive.” You endure sort of salty” I conceded while wondering what to do with the rest of the cum on my guts and stomach
” Then” he grunted, handing over over a undyed kerchief from the bedroom bottom.” Is this your cum kerchief” I glared at him as I seized it” No” he smiled with a shamefaced face.” I can not actually enunciate it’s rotund, I did precisely eat it” I soughed, wiping it off me.
” Goodbye children” I spoke after I threw the kerchief into the laundry handbasket. Ragnar chortled at my caricature.
We lay on the pad and talked for periods. I took another shower, separate from Ragnar’s one of course. The pain of it had not demurred in yet. I came out and got changed into one of Ragnar’s many jersey that I now assert as my own and slipped on a brace of undergarments before climbing into his pad. I suppose he was in his department, presumably authoring about how good our coitus was.
A knock intruded my studies.” You can come in” I reacted loudly, wondering who it was and making sure that they heard me.” I got your journal thingy that you demanded and Ragnar is in his department incase you were wondering” Terry smiled handing over me the tablet.” Thank you Terry” I beamed happily, taking it from his grip. Terry left, leaving me with my new journal. I boosted one of Ragnar’s pens from the hole in his nightstand and starting jotting down my studies
Dear myself,
I feel like writing dear journal is too disturbing to say so I am going to write to myself. It’s true. Only my eyes are allowed to read these words on this runner and it feels great so far. I see why Ragnar does this now and yes he’s my alleviation for starting one of these.
I suppose I need nearly that I can talk about anything. I can talk about anything to Ragnar and I know that but I can not talk about Ragnar to Ragnar. He just wouldn’t understand and he would be over dramatic because that is one of his traits whether he agrees or not.
lately Raul failed and I do not know how to feel. I have not heard from my sisters since Ragnar transferred the body back out of respect for them and me. It was kind of him to do that for me, especially since Raul did try and kill him while we slept. Anyways, for some reason I am not angry at Raul presently, it’s like when he failed, my wrathfulness faded with him. It still hurts however.
I am not worried about 22 time old Raul dying, I am worried about the 15 time old dying. I flash back looking up to him and the man he was getting. That 15 time old was still in him, perhaps veritably deep down but he was there. That is why I am worried.
But other than that whole incident, I am okay for the first time in. times. I am not hurt and l’ve gone a couple of months without being hurt. actually that is a taradiddle , my father go the shit out of me like 3 months agone . Anyways my hand is getting sore. How do I close this off? Bye.
I shut my journal, esteeming the cute pink cover with golden jotting. slipped it under my pillow. I want to play videotape games now. I got up and walked over to Ragnar’s Xbox and before I knew it, I was playing a firing game. I suppose it was called Call of Duty or commodity like that. No wonder why Ragnar has similar good end when firing; he’s position 68 on this game. Okay perhaps it’s not the same as real life but it’s still good.
started to get really into the game but also I was killed.
” ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME” I cried angrily at the television screen, nearly throwing the regulator across the room.” That was not fair, he did not indeed shoot me” I lumbered angrily. I was playing on the easiest position and I still could not win.
Ragnar ultimately wandered in.” Why are you yelling?” He asked while gaping at his phone.” Shit” I yelled, giving up
” Help” I pouted, holding the regulator towards him.
” You are playing COD” he spoke unexpectedly.” Yep now help, this dude keeps killing me” I whizzed immorally at the television.
” Sofia that is you” Ragnar beamed while shaking his head.” Oh, well they look like me” I beamed, not being suitable to hold back my smile at my own asininity.
Ragnar jumped up next to me, and within 2 twinkles, he completed the charge.” What the fuck” I heaved .” Sof, that is the easiest position” he laughed smoothly, earning a mow from me” Well it was hard” I whizzed, taking the regulator back.” That is enough, I am over it” I stood up and incontinently rued it. The pain had eventually started to protest in and I knew that in the morning I would be destroyed. My face dropped incontinently and Ragnar shot me a confused look.
” You good?” He asked as I stood as still as a statue.
” Yeah” I replied snappily before sitting back on the bed.” I am good” I moaned slightly as I pulled the robes back over my legs. Ragnar gave a weirded out look but snappily brushed it off
” Look at what I got” I scowled, pulling out my journal.
” Copying your veritably handsome swain I see” Ragnar put on a proud tone and raised his eyebrows.” veritably handsome yes, copying no, I’d say more like inspired” I murmured with a grin, sliding the journal back under my pillow.” That is a veritably good caching place” Ragnar said cheekily. I shot him a light before he seized me, pulling me into his arms. I hummed in satisfaction, the feeling of love moping in my casket.
Ragnar’s eyes were closed as he held me tighter. A moment of silence had passed with me and Ragnar just cherishing eachother’s grasp
” You know” Ragnar broke for a moment.” I have noway felt like I belonged anywhere. Not at home, not in the Mafia, nowhere. But now I know where I belong; I belong with you” he’d a certain vulnerability in his voice while he spoke. I gave him a soft smile before I pecked his impertinence and shutting my eyes.
Ragnar’s POV
She was falling asleep in my arms. I can not deny that I love when she sleeps in my arms. It drives me insane how I am her safe place, I am the place she’d run to if the world was going to end. I am noway letting her go; She can leave me if she wants, and I will not stop her but I will noway truly let her go. I can not abolish the love I feel when she sleeps on my casket or how she looks when she first wakes up or indeed the way she plays with her hands; as much as it annoys
me.
But now that l’ve gotten so used to loving her, that if she ever leaves, I do not know if I will be suitable to fill the hole that will be in my casket. I stroked a loose beachfront of her hair behind her observance.” I am sorry for everything ahead and everything that might be, just know, I’ll love you through all of it” I rumored gently as she slept on my casket. I got no response but I demanded to say it, whether she was awake or asleep.
Ragnar’s POV
I left before Sofia woke up, I did not need her persuading me to stay home as important as would like to. I had shit to deal with at the main base and supposedly’ only I could deal with it’ as Ice put it.
I rambled down the familiar essence corridors at a steady pace, surveying my hand every 2 twinkles. ultimately I got to the cells, that continued on for what sounded like long hauls.
” What’s it” I snarled angrily. I did not sleep last night so I was tired, grumpy and irked.” You are not going to like this. One of our guards took a sprat from a base raid from one of the lower Mafia’s” Ice opened up the heavy essence door that let me into one of the hundreds of cells. All I could see was darkness, there was no movement or light.
I glanced at Ice, giving him a confused look.” This is not funny, there is nothing fucking then!” snapped at Ice who also refocused at the aft corner of the cell.
In the corner, I could see a little sprat coiled up in ball.” What the fuck?” my angry, husky voice boomed through the halls.” We do not take kiddies, who the fuck did this?” I roared at everyone who were starting to jog down.” It was some joe called Jason” Ice rolled his eyes.” Did he hurt him?” I tried to calm myself down as stylish I could.”No. not that I know of” Ice murmured, hysterical to lie.” I am going to kill that son of a whine” I wrangle between my gritted teeth, clinging my fists. I could feel the wrathfulness erecting up in my casket as the little boy sat in the corner, not responding to anything, simply just lying there.” You have to talk to him, he won’ answer to us” Ice chirruped with a upset tone and left me with the child.
Why the fuck would he leave me with a child!. Is he insane, I am like the worst person to console a child, I can not indeed console my own fucking girlfri- Sofia!. I pulled out my phone and telephoned Sofia’s number.” Hey Terry, bring my girl to me” I said eagerly with my deep voice. I could hear Sofia’s voice through the phone but it was veritably vague;
Terry was presumably standing outside my bedroom door.
Just hearing her voice through the phone made me want to go home. It’s insane that” She said she’s too busy trying to get passed position two? Whatever that means?” He murmured confusedly. I could not stop the small smile from creeping up on my face. My hand scratched the reverse of my neck as I goggled at the child, commodity I do when I am nervous or stressed-out.” Tell her I need her” I muttered still, not wanting to scarify the boy further. I heard her faint voice through the phone again.” We are on our way now” Terry assured me” Aceeee”| heard Sofia say from behind the phone.” That is Ragnar right?” Her tone getting mellow and embarrassed incase it was not me.” Who differently would I be talking to?” Terry spoke with confusion. I feel bad for him, he presumably can not handle her constant energy.
” Yeah it’s me” I comforted her through the phone.” I am coming, stay for me” she sounded concentrated on the videotape game. I could hear her heavy steps run ahead of Terry who was crying at her to decelerate down.” We are on our way now” Terry stated.” Okay” I grunted and also hung up.
About 30 twinkles passed and lust sat with the cell door open, watching the bitsy boy move every so frequently. He did not indeed look at me. Fuck, this is why I do not take kiddies. This is just heartbreaking and my heart is made out of fucking gravestone.” Do you want eyefuls or commodity?”| lumbered distrustfully, what do kiddies eat. He shook his head.” Look sprat, I am not a people person, I do not like people, especially kiddies but I will not hurt you” I rambled, not really sure what to say.” I want my mammy” he puled vocally in the corner.
He can speak. He looks relatively youthful however and now that I am looking at him duly, he is skinny too. He looks like he hasn’t been fed in days or perhaps weeks.” Where were you?”| questioned him, an angry expression appearing on my face because I was just simply disturbed that anyone could starve a child. We’ve a no child policy so I have noway had to deal with children before this. I detest kiddies, all
of them but that does not mean have a reason to kill them.
” In another one of these” he uttered snappily before turning to me. I could eventually see his bright green eyes that were all red and fluffy.” You can come out if you want” I signed, sitting on the bottom. He shook his head.” Are you hysterical of me?” I asked with a crinkle between my eyebrows. He did not respond.” Atleast tell me your name?”| rolled my eyes with an exhausted expression. He did not respond again. He’d his knee’s pulled to his casket with his arms wrapped around them while he buried his face into his arms. He’d light golden hair with green eyes. He looked dirty and cold.
He was in another cell before this. He must’ve been kept hostage by one of the lower Mafia’s before mine decided to come and destroy the place. I pinched the ground of my nose due to stress before glancing back at the child who was still gaping at the bottom.
Out of the corner of my eye, I eyed Sofia walking towards us.” Hey beautiful” scowled while chording her out.” What do you need, I was assiduous destroying position two” she gasconaded with confidence but I knew she was lying.” Hm that is not what Terry spoke” I beamed immorally. She gave me the death gawk before turning her concentration to the cell.” Why is there-” she stopped stating as soon as she eyed the little boy.
” Yeah” I soughed at her shocked face.” Why is a little boy in the cell?” Sofia goggled at me angrily.” I told him he could come out but he does not want to” I signed carelessly. All I watch around is getting this sprat out of my Mafia and ago to whoever owns him.
Ragnar’s POV
The little boy’s monumental verdant eyes glanced up at Sofia.” Hey, what is your name” Sofia said with a soft and gentle tone.
” Parker” the little golden boy puled. Sofia sat close to him with her legs crossed and her reverse crawled.” I am Sofia” she smiled hardly before appearing ago at me.” This is Ragnar” she refocused at me. Parker’s eyes widened as he bounded into her arms.” Xavier does not like him” Parker hugged Sofia, resting his head on her shoulder. Sofia held him gently while she glared at me.
” Xavier Hart” I gripped my jaw angrily. He was the line of the Mafia we devastated.” The line of the Commies” I spoke, informing Sofia while studies contended through my head.
” Sofia, we should presumably talk after this” I lumbered, my heart crumbling for the child. utmost of the captures we set up were dead or oppressively starved and injured. I do not suppose his mama made it.
And precisely like that, the pain of loosing my mama came ago in the blink of an eye, sculpturing a empty hole in my casket of where her love exercised to be. She could not cover me from my father, she could not stop him, but I knew she did not like seeing me in pain.
” Earth to Ragnar” Sofia called out for me. I brimmed in reaction.” Get one of your guards to go buy kiddies clothes, Parker’s clothes are unprintable” Sofia stated before she started talking to Parker, asking him what his favourite food was.
I rambled out of the cell and down the hall.” Boss, we need you to get comebacks from a betrayer” a arbitrary guard cried.
” Can you not know I’m heading your fucking expressway, there is no want to scream” I bellowed ago at him, making him nearly go of panic.” Where is he?”| bellowed virulently while walking past the cells. We walked for a nanosecond or two before we passed the right cell.
” He is in this bone ” the guard refocused. I penetrated the cell to know a serviceably youthful joe sitting in a president, strapped down with progressions around his wrists and ankles. I eyed the prostration on his face, he could slightly hold his head up.
” Alright, I am not in the spirit to play fucking games, what Mafia are you from?”| snarled angrily, grabbing his hair and making him look at me.” Your Mafia” he moaned, his eyes floundering to stay open. I took a deep breather in and out before I punched him across the face.
” Do not make me interrogate again” cried in face, trying to scarify him.” I can not tell you because I do not see” he cried out in pain. I soughed, shaking my head.” I did not want to have to do this, but you are not complying” I gritted my teeth and strutting out of the space.” Get me the blow arsonist” I demanded to the guard. With no vacillation, the guard dashed down to get it.
” For fuck sake” I murmured under my breather, gaping at the man who could not be aged than 21. I may be barbarous but that does not mean I enjoy seeing youthful people go. I mean who would enjoy seeing people go? observing the life duct from a person is scary to watch, indeed for me. I have killed innumerous of moments so it does not actually have an sequel on me presently but when youthful people go, there is precisely commodity consequently much further woeful about it.
Ragnar’s POV
The guard came ago with a blow arsonist and a glove to make sure I did not burn my phase. It’s not me, he should be upset about.
I pressed the actuator on the blow arsonist and abruptly the filthy dears shot out of the snoot and into the air as I sat in front of the youthful man. He is aged than me, but still youthful. I feel a lot aged than people my time due to my majority and my constant pressure, not to mention the conglomerate I am carrying on my reverse.” What time are you?” I asked him with a crinkle between my eyebrows.” I am 20″ he reacted hardly confused. I precisely jounced hardly.” I detest to do this but.
” I brought around the blow arsonist up to his phase,
pressing the buttons to turn on the filthy honey. As soon as the filthy dears came out, the man screamed in pain. It resounded throughout the cells, Parker and Sofia could presumably hear it. I followed the man’s face virtually flee down as he tried desperately to draw his arm down. He allow out a bloodcurdling cry as I brought around the blow arsonist up his arm, stopping at his sleeve.
The man was crying in agony, his entire body began to go into shock from what I was serving to him. He was shaking relentlessly while contending for forbearance.” forbearance is the one thing I do not give” I soughed as I shook my head hardly, gaping at the defenseless man sitting in the president with his arm burnt. I nearly gagged at the fragrance of his burnt face before buttoning the collar of my shirt and holding it over my nose. I turned off the blowtorch letting the man rest, but that did not stop his riots.
The man hauled at his progressions, presumably galling his becks more.”So. are you going to tell me?”| disputed while rollicking with the blowtorch on the wall.” No please” the man blubbed , sweat trickling from his head. I knew he was on the point of passing out consequently I concluded to scarify him.” You see, I do not generally go to the stomach consequently soon, I will generally burn to the bone, but moment I am feeling redundant mean” I lumbered frustratedly as I ripped open his t- shirt.
” No no no” the man kept repeating.” consequently who are you snitching to?!” I gritted my teeth as I frowned, listing over him and gaping right into his eyes.” No” he wrangle, making me want to kill him. I gripped my jaw before throwing a logical punch at him. His face swung to the side due to the jolt before yelling again. I do not understand, he knows he’ll get some kind of peace if he admits the verity, but will not do it because he does not see what that peace is. Is death actually peace? It can not be worse than this Tophet hole of a earth. perhaps it’s heaven or hell or perhaps it’s precisely an bottomless tenebrous ocean that our souls travel through, appearing for some purpose. Either expressway I am alright with that; Tophet does not scarify me.
” precisely confess” I bellowed, drilling him again but this time in the stomach. He mumbled sorrowfully, his head hanging due to his region not being suitable to support the cargo.” precisely enunciate it and I can kill you” I rolled my eyes whilst I sat infront of the man strapped down to the president.” No” he wrangle race onto the bottom.” Well also, guess I am going to kill you anyway” I lumbered, taking the arm out of my fund and aiming it at the man’s head. The man puled constantly as he awaited for me to draw the detector and within seconds, he was dead. I set the arm ago in my fund, whilst gaping at the race trickling from the pellet crack in the man’s forepart. I rubbed my tabernacles soothingly to try and assuage some pressure but it was not working out.” Do you want me to clean up then master?” The guard asked, entering the empty space.
” Yes” I reacted brutally ahead walking out and towards the cell Sofia was in with Parker. I stopped at the corner, catching a regard at her. I swear she gets further beautiful everytime I know her. I sat at the corner, gaping at her while she tried to bait Parker out of the cell to get food.
Parker ultimately came out, bounding into her arms yet again.
I do not like children, in fact, I hate children, but I could not support but suppose what if that child was mine. Half of me and half of her. The eidolon did not make me want to quail as it generally did, if anything I suppose I had a sense of craving for it.
I demanded that child to be mine and seeing him in her arms made my heart nearly pain for one. And substantially for her to be the mama of my sprat.
She’s sluggishly changing the expressway I know effects, for the better.
If you’d of asked me what I allowed of children before I met
Sot, I would’ve told you that I would more than likely set them up for relinquishment if it ever did be. But seeing her with Parker made me want to be a father. How is that indeed practicable, detest kiddies?
Sofia took Parker’s phase and started walking in my instruction. She was walking weird. oh yeah. She’s presumably in pain, shit. I awaited for her to reach the corner.
She allow out a shrill when she eyed me.” You spooked me” she smacked my arm playfully while Parker sissy in panic but was walking with us due to his trust in Sofia.
Sofia’s POV
I forced Ragnar to bring Parker home with us. A Mafia base is no position to keep a child. I came into my space to get changed when I eyed a note precisely laying on Ragnar’s pad but on the pillow I rest on. I neared it cautiously, because who knows who scratched it.
I sluggishly opened it, hoping for the stylish. I suppose I had an eidolon of who it was from.
Dear Sofia,
It’s your family Stefano, the new line of the Diaz Mafia.
I am authoring this to thank you for transferring our family’s body home to us. I’m deeply worried about his death but you had your reasons. I advised him not to do anything stupid and consequently did the other sisters since we knew this was a war we couldn’t win, indeed if we tried. Ragnar’s men are exclusively too professed and Ragnar himself, is the classic of authority. Raul broke into your house, with the intention to kill, it only seems fair that you had to defend yourself against him.
Raul allow the authority go to his head. He took authority over blood, he took you over yourhappiness. However, I’ll not sit in the expressway and I will not allow any of the other sisters either, If being with Ragnar makes you happy my baby family. You’re my baby family and I’ll cover you invariably. There’s no war or abomination between our Mafia’s. I hope you’ll forgive our family for trying to kill the love of your life.
We cremated him and threw his ashes into the lake we exercised to swim in as kiddies; To remind us of the better moments, the simpler moments.