Darius smiles. “It was the first good news I had had in a while.”
I roll my eyes and turn back to the doctor. “Thank you doctor for coming out here on short notice.”
“No problem. I will be happy to see Darius in better health. Already it is good to see a smile on his face. Plus his color is already better than yesterday. Maybe he is right and he did need you.”
I stand and show the doctor the door. I see the Alpha waiting outside. “Can you have the kitchens bring up another bowl of soup in about an hour?”
His face lights up. “You got him to eat?”
“He is agreeable at the moment.” I chuckle a little.
I close the door and go back to bed with Darius. “So, what do you want to do?” I pull him back into my arms and he lays his head on my chest.
“I just want to enjoy you being here. Even if I do smell Markus all over you. At least you are here. I don’t care what I have to do. I just need you. I need you like I need air. Please Sophia realize how much I need you.” He pulls my body closer to his. “I may be weak but I still want you. I still need you. I have missed you so damn much.”
“Darius, you need to rest.” I can feel his hands starting to pull at my shirt.
“No, I need you. You owe me, remember?”
I grab his hair. “What exactly do I owe you?”
He climbs up my body and presses his lips to mine. “You told me that if I did all the tests that the doctor wanted that you would have sex with me again. We made a deal.” So much had happened, I forgot about that damn deal.
“Yeah, then you cheated on me again. And landed me in the hospital for three days. I think that takes care of that deal.”
“No, I only cheated because I thought it was the only way to get you to come back. You ran from me. I realized it was stupid and I only drove you further away. I haven’t even looked at another girl since then. I have still done tests and medications and I am doing this surgery. I am doing it all for you.”
“I would hope that you are doing it so that you can live long enough to meet your child.” I growl at him.
“Can’t it be for both? You are both my life. You’re all I have. Sophia I need you. Please.”
“I am just not so sure that I can forgive you enough for that. You have to understand I went through a lot.”
Darius comes back to my lips meeting his, but before he connects he whispers. “We had a deal for the soup. If I ate the soup, you would kiss me. That was the deal. Well, I ate the soup.”
“Ok, we did have a deal with the soup. But only a kiss.” I know it was stupid to point this out to Darius, he isn’t going to listen to me. When does he ever honestly listen to me? His lips don’t so much as meet mine as they devour mine. He has me completely under his control again. He’s pawing at my clothes, never leaving my lips. He must think as long as his lips are connected to me that he can go as far as he wants. I start pushing him back.
He moans. “Please don’t.”
“Darius, I said a kiss only.” I am finally able to catch my breath.
He gets an evil smirk. “I was kissing. What did you think I was doing? Since you pushed me away, I think I get a do over.”
I give him a warning glare. “Darius. You know full well that is not what you were doing.”
“Honestly baby, I need my little mate. I need you so bad it hurts. I need to feel you. It has been so long.”
“Why should I? After everything you did to me. I am here, isn’t that enough?”
“I need to feel like you are really with me. I know Markus is planning on taking you back as soon as I am well again. I need to be well for my family. I am caught. I want to be better for you and the baby, but at the same time I know that means that Markus is going to take you from me. I just need to feel my life right now. Right now while I have it.” I can hear the sadness in his tone. He really knows what he is asking for. All of it.
“I still don’t get why you love me so much. Hell, maybe you’ll get the tumor out and you won’t love me anymore. It could all just be that.”
He shakes his head. “Nothing I have ever felt for you is made up by some blob in my brain. I know that. I just wish that you loved me as much as I love you.”
“Darius, nothing about us has been simple. You know it as well as I do.” I take a look at his appearance again. He looks sick, I hate it. He was always so strong. So confident. I don’t like seeing this side of him at all. “You need to rest, you are still sick.”
He sighs. “I only have so much time. Either I am going to die or you are going to be ripped away from me. I have to live my life for today. Tomorrow I might very well not have it.”
I feel his lips meet mine. I want to stop but I am feeling pity for him. At the same time I do care for him. In his own weird way he has taken care of me and loved me. So, I stop fighting him and let him do what he wants. He knows I don’t love him, he accepts that, but that doesn’t stop him from pouring his love into me. Even in his weakened state he makes love to me like nothing is wrong with him.
“I love you, Sophia.” He glides his body into mine. “Damn I missed this.”
“Darius,” I moan, because regardless of what has happened between us. This was always something he was good at. I may detach myself most of the time but that doesn’t mean that I haven’t enjoyed our time together. At least when it was just us and other people weren’t involved.