I push back. “I don’t see how that’s my problem. Especially since you put it in her, you are not putting it in me.”
“Don’t be like that. I promise I would never risk something like that with you. I used protection with her. I wouldn’t let something happen to you.”
“Do you know what it felt like?” I glare at him. “I was clawing my own skin just to feel some sort of relief from the pain. You did that to me. Then this morning you tried to rape me. How am I supposed to feel about that?” I step further away from him. “I didn’t even do anything wrong.”
His gaze intensifies. “And what about today? Today are you still so innocent?”
“I told you I didn’t do anything.” I scream at him.
“Then why is his scent covering your body?” He screams back.
“We were training. I am bound to smell like him. There is some contact in training you know.” This is a lie, but one I will do freely. Not an ounce of guilt. Not after the pain he put me through last night. At least I didn’t return the favor.
He narrows his eyes as he thinks. “If you did nothing wrong then you should have no problem coming over here and letting me remove his scent and replace it with my own.”
“I am not fucking you after you fucked her.”
“You are going to regret it if you don’t listen to me.” He gives me a low growl.
“You just better hope it kills me this time.” I counter back.
He steps back, shock on his face. “What am I doing?”
“Exactly what you always do. Forcing me to do something I don’t want to do.” I turn my back on him. I can’t even look at him.
He slowly approaches me. I feel his arms wrap around me. “I’m not going to force you. I’m sorry.” He rests his chin on my shoulder. “Come lay with me. I promise, no sex, not until you are ready.” I just stand there. I don’t want to lay with him. I don’t want to be around him. I want to be back on that mountain with Markus.
He lifts me up and takes me to the bed. Darius pulls my body up next to his after he takes the spot next to me on the bed. “I love you little mate.”
“I’m not sure you know what that means.” I mumbled, but he heard it. He stiffens at my words.
“I will make it up to you.” He kisses my head. His hands reach around me and start to pull up my shirt and I wince in pain. “I’m sorry, sorry, sorry.” He backed his hands off. He looks at my shirt with curiosity for a minute. “Can I look at it?”
“What do you want to bask in the glory of your deed?”
He shakes his head. “No, I want to try to make it better.”
“Time is the only thing that can heal it now. But go ahead, do what you want.” He pulls up my shirt and starts licking my belly. “What are you doing?”
“Helping the healing process. I don’t want you to hurt any more.” He looks at me like I am the one not getting it.
“You know that only works if we are fated mates right?”
“I don’t care what you think we are fated mates. Sasha is nothing.”
“And yet you put your dick in her last night.” What the hell is he not getting about all this? I throw my head back in defeat. It makes me feel like I am arguing with a pack mule, he is going to follow his path to his death and nothing is going to deter him.
“I would put it in you now and all the time if you would let me.”
“There is a reason I am not letting you.”
He unbuttoned my pants. Letting his tongue trail down past the waist line. “I can change your mind.”
“No you can’t.” I counter. It doesn’t feel enjoyable at all. Before I knew Markus I could pretend that it was ok, but now I can’t.
“Does this have anything to do with Markus?”
“This has to do with me.” I am staring at the ceiling, I don’t want to look at him. I don’t want to do anything with him.
“You know Sasha doesn’t feel it.” He states it like he is telling me something interesting that is going to change everything.
I sigh. “Feel what?”
“When I fuck you. I am sure Markus doesn’t either.”
“I don’t care. I care that you fucked Sasha. You put your dick in that skank and expect me to just roll over and let you do the same to me. If you really loved me then you wouldn’t have fucked her in the first place.”