He has everything I need, wealth, power, the clan.
Nothing else is so special about him.
He is nothing but a jerk, I hate him and his attitude, you have no idea what type of person he is and how much of a crook he can be.
I don’t know the reason he is even sitting close to me in the first place.
The wedding went on and on and on, Gerard shifted his attention to her and kissed Emily so passionately, my heart wanted to burst. The pain was beginning to feel like shit, I was mad.
I clenched the flower terribly and was nearly in tears, how dare he do this to me, how could he do this after what we went through, he dared to do this to me?
How could he just be happily married without me, what was I supposed to do, get married too?
Is that what he is trying to say to me, that I should get married to Kai, give birth to children for him, was that the sort of sacrifice I am supposed to do to quench this emotion, this bond that keeps ripping me apart and flowing through my veins.
I tried shrugging it off, forcing myself to concentrate on my thoughts and put on a smile but it wasn’t working and I didn’t know how to act anymore.
All I felt was pain and rage seeing the two of them smiling at each other like they were the best couple in the world.
Fuming with anger, I got up and threw the heavy bouquet I was holding at them.
The audience gasped at my action.
“I HATE YOU.’ I said with so much venom in my tone and ran out of the wedding hall passing thousands of people and turning deaf ears to their gossip and the whispering.
The thought of him sleeping with her, on his wedding night, kissing and taking off her clothes, banging her and making love to her all night, moved me to tears as I ran and dispersed everything which was decorated on my body on the floor and even the beautiful pearls, my mother gave me, I ripped off the necklace from my neck and threw it to the dir.
As I almost dashed into the mansion, when Jessie ran after me worriedly, and calling after me.
“Oceana, stop.’ I ran, I should have kept my emotions within, I am an Alpha for fuck sake.
I looked so messed up, my bare feet were stained with dirt and my gown was scattered all over the place. I looked like someone who had just gotten beaten for snatching someone else’s husband.
I stopped and looked at Jessie with tears in my eyes, the pain was just too much.
“What is wrong with you, why did you mess up your clothes, Oceana,’ she came up to me and touched my body, searching for any sort of injury to me.
“Are you injured anywhere, what’s the matter with you and why do you look like some street-stranded beggar, why did you do this to yourself?’
All these bunches of questions were getting on my nerves.
How will she ever understand what I’m going through, she knows nothing about what’s going on. How could she know the suffering that I’m going through, when she doesn’t know anything about it.
What kind of a messed up life is this?
“Oceana, answer me.” She held my shoulders. “Talk to me, am I not your best friend anymore, what is going on with you.” She shouted.
I couldn’t give a response, I was too shocked, tired, and numb to speak.
“Oceana, please speak to me, you’ve been taking all this burden by yourself for a long time, tell me what is going on. Why did you do that at the wedding ceremony in front of those thousands of people, you gotta make people start talking.”
I couldn’t hold back my tears, suddenly my heart began twisting, aching terribly like it was being hit by some hammer. I could feel blood coming up to my throat, and my eyes were wide open in agony as I held my chest with both hands.
“What is it?” Jessie asked panicking. “Oceana,’ she yelled.
“Ahhh ahhhhhh,” I screamed in pain, my knees giving away as it slammed into the rocky ground, I couldn’t take it on anymore. I gasped, and everything was spinning around me, the echoes and images of Jessie felt fuzzy.
I felt like hundreds of cement block was on my shoulders, pressing me to the ground, I coughed and threw up and blood spilled out of my mouth.
“Oceana, oh, my goodness.” Jessie cried out, she was about to go call someone when I held her gown and shook her head. “Don’t call anyone,’ I cried.
“Are you stupid?” She shouted. “Why can’t I call anyone you are in danger, you stupid…”
“I know but I don’t want the attention, please,” I revealed.
She stammered angrily, anytime Jessie is angry, she stutters with her words. “Ar…are…. Are you serious right now, Oceana, you’ve…. you’ve gone crazy, I can…. can see…see that…that… you are going insane.” She attempted to go when I gripped her gown even more and pleaded with her with my eyes. “Don’t go, please,” I begged. “Please, just listen to me,’ Hot tears streamed down my face, my makeup was ruined.
I guess, I looked like a mess right now. “I don’t want to ruin his wedding, Jessie, please don’t tell anyone, he will be mad.”
“Mad? Your life and his…his…wedding…. wedding…which is much…much more important,’ she panicked. “Are you telling me to just stay and watch you, just because you don’t want to hurt your brothers?”
“YES,’ I reacted aggressively. “I want you to just stay and watch me.”
“Your brothers will kill me if anything happens to you.” She shouted.
“They’ve already killed me and they keep blaming it on some sort of protection. They care about nothing but themselves.” I cried out. “They are thinking of their lives right now, abandoning me and putting it on some damn protection that I don’t know about, they don’t care about me anymore, or else, they wouldn’t do what they are doing if they cared about me.”
“What are you talking about, did you guys fight?”
I shook my head. “It’s…it’s nothing.”
“Don’t tell me it’s nothing, Oceana, I am sick of hearing those words from you,’ she yelled.
I knew she would be mad, she is the patient type but when you push her to the extreme, it’s over.
“Look at me, tell me exactly what’s happening to you. Tell me the reason you are saying, “I shouldn’t call anyone” are you nuts, you might be poisoned.”