Kissing him earlier, I felt it and knew he was saying the truth.
“Oceana,’ my father called me with a worried tone.
I dashed past him and ran to my room, shutting the door.
The fear, anxiety, of being so perfect made me burst into tears, as I lay down on my bed and cried so bitterly.
The next day, I couldn’t leave my room. I stayed in my bed all day crying till the next morning with my wolf consoling me.
That’s the reason he was not always home, because of me, he left home and hardly stayed because I was his mate, he was trying everything possible to hide himself.
We are both destined to stay together, I can understand why I never saw him, and I can understand the reason my heart aches whenever I think of him.
I realize it now, the signs, the sleepless nights were all him.
I was in love with him, in love with my brother.
Was that even possible?
How could I be in love with my brother for all these years and I didn’t even realized it.
I wondered and yet, it is the truth.
I was in love with Gérard, why did the moon goddess have to grant me a mate from my flesh and blood?
He is my brother.
I felt bad, recalling his words yesterday broke my heart.
Why, just why should Gérard be my first love?
It excited me the minute he said he was my mate and at the same time I felt disappointed. If he wanted to reject me, he could have done it a long time ago, why inform me now?
I miss him. I miss and love my brother but the clan will never allow us to be together, it’s strictly against the rules and forbidden for siblings to be mates.
KNOCK! KNOCK!
I got up and wiped off my tears, jumping out of the bed to see who it was. I unlocked the door and my mother was standing in front of the door dressed majestically as always as she walked into my room without a word.
I sighed and shut the door, turning to her as she sat down on my bed
. “I heard you ran out of the chambers after seeing your brothers yesterday, what’s going on, Oceana?” She softly asked.
“Nothing is going on, Mother.” I frowned and sat down on my white couch beside the bed in the clothes I came with from my school yesterday. After hearing the news from Gérard, I couldn’t take a bath, nor eat the food that was brought to me yesterday. I was just too weak to get up and eat, besides I lost my appetite in the process of my sobbing and all.
“Mom, what do you think is going on with me?”
“How will I know, that’s why I came to ask you, you were weeping. Your brothers refused to tell me anything and kept insisting there was nothing wrong with you. Though, I don’t believe that because you hardly shed tears, my dear, what’s the matter, let me know so I can help you to solve it, my sweetheart.” She spoke, her voice was filled with concern but she couldn’t help me.
This is not something that needs to be solved, this is my fate, my destiny that I am talking about, what will her reaction be, if she discovers my brother is my mate?
Wouldn’t she be disgusted?
“Mom, this is not something you can solve simply because you are Luna, this is beyond you and you can’t stop it,” I revealed, putting my feet on the couch and pushing my knees to my cold chest, indirectly referring to Gerard. “No matter what you do,” I muttered.
“I don’t understand, what is beyond me, tell me and let’s…”
“Mom,’ With a broken voice, I said. “I don’t want to get married to that Alpha, I’ve heard a lot about him, he’s not a good man.”
I changed the topic, I know she will be pissed at my words, I can’t tell her about Gérard, all hell will break loose if I do such a thing, I can’t help it, it will break her heart.
Her daughter was in love with the boy she gave birth to, it will damage her spirit.
“Is that what’s bothering you, my dear?’
I swallowed. “Yes, Mom.” I lied.
“My dear, you are the daughter of the ten realms, everything is at your privilege…”
I quickly interrupted. “I don’t want to get married to him, I know what it’s like being with him.”
“He’s a good man, Oceana, a good Alpha who has contributed so much for this clan, and lay down his life for everyone, your father demanded to grant him a favor and he asked for your hand in marriage, everyone adores him, he’s nearly the top in rank, a strong brown wolf who no one dares to bring up a combat before him.” She explained. “He’s a good Alpha, from a good family, his reputation, and his image both with his family are clean, pure blood from the Mackenzie Clan, they are the fastest wolf alive in history and hardly any wolf outrun them, can’t you see we want the best for you.”
“Mom, you are not giving me the best, I don’t care where he comes from, how good his reputation is, you don’t even know what he likes, what he dislikes, if he has anger issues, difficulties in understanding someone, you don’t know that and you are gifting him to me.”
“Your father and I can never give you what will harm you, listen to my young lady, I know what is best for you.”
“Mom, you are giving me to someone that will harm me, that’s what you are doing and it’s not fair, I don’t like him. This is not the best thing for me, this is disaster.”
“Stop acting so childish, do you know how many women want to be his wife, his Luna, do you also know how important he is in his clan? To this clan, we take the best and everyone wants him. Do you know the number of parents trying to get their children betrothed to him?” She persisted.
“Mom, them wanting their children to get involved with him doesn’t mean we are the same. Those people just want power and fame, of course, they know what they are chasing after, I don’t want this to happen, I don’t want to get married, I’m already wealthy and powerful, what else do I want from him, I don’t need him, I am doing just fine.”