Zeux’s P. O. V.
“So you’re close to Vanessa, huh?”
Jason stated this while driving.
We’ll be on a business trip. And I’ll be gone for nearly three days. It makes me feel ill because I can’t see Vanessa. I’m unable to see her lovely face. Oh, how I miss hearing her voice. Especially when she bothers me.
“Yes, and I really want to be close to her as soon as possible,” I say, not looking at him. I keep my gaze fixed on the road.
“Because?”
“I have to.”
“Why?”
I fixed my gaze on him. “Why did you ask me so many questions, Jason? I answered them all.”
He burst out laughing. “I’m not satisfied with your response. I strongly believe there is a genuine reason why you’re attempting to be close to her. You really like her, I guess?”
I shot him a death stare. “Why do you always tell me that I like her? Are you stupid?”
His head shook. “No, I’m not. I just haven’t seen you before who’s giving so much concern and effort to a woman. It’s just that, you’re not like that. You treat them as a toy, not a woman, but you changed when Vanessa came. Why is it so sudden?”
“You know what, Jason, you have to concentrate on driving so that we don’t have an accident. Now, I’m thinking about what I’m going to say to the businessman later so that they can invest in my company.”
“Really, huh? Do you really believe that, or is Vanessa occupying your mind because you’re thinking about her?”
I sighed deeply and gave Jason a bored look. Because of what he’s saying, I really want to punch him in the face right now. However, he is correct. Vanessa has taken over my mind and I can’t stop thinking about her. Did she already eat? Is she all right? What exactly is she doing right now? Is she with that f*cking j*rk Blake? If Vanessa wasn’t so upset that I’m going to fire that j*rk, I would have fired him already. I don’t want him to see himself as clingy to Vanessa. Actually, he’s getting on my nerves. And I have no idea why I’m acting this way. One thing is certain. I sincerely want to look after Vanessa. Just like her parents did to me. I want to be a good person to Vanessa, even if it is difficult for me to do what she wants.
“Zeux, why did you stop talking? Did you just realize how much you like her? Oh, please. Just be truthful to yourself, Zeux. I’ve been your faithful friend for a long time, but you’re keeping something from me. It’s a little unfair on my part because you all know my secret.” He said this in a sad tone, but I know he’s just acting sad.
I took a deep breath and began to speak: “Okay, then. I’ll be completely honest with you now. Actually, I’m not sure what the answer is.”
“Answer to what?”
I tap my nape. “The answer of this… that I feel angry when Vanessa is with Blake, and I really want them to be separated. I always think Vanessa is in a good situation, and I really want to be her guardian and protector because that’s what her parents did to me, and I feel really bad for what happened to her parents, and it is because of my pack.”
“That’s why you should be nice to her, Zeux. Her parents gave their lives to protect you, but you still have to hide your werewolf identity. You know Vanessa is angry at werewolves, and she wants to exact revenge on them.”
“Yes, I will.”
“But what if the time comes when Vanessa discovers your secret and decides to exact her revenge on you? What would you do?”
I sighed heavily. “Then it’s fine. I still like her,” I said quietly.
“Wait, what did you just say? Could you repeat it?”
“No, I simply stated that I will continue to be her protector and guardian.”
Jason keeps asking what I said, but I ignore him. Right now, all I can think about is Vanessa. I wish I could teleport into her body and hug her because I already miss her. It’s a strange sensation for me, and it makes me sick. I never expected to have this kind of feeling. Vanessa, on the other hand, is very different from the other girls. She is a wonderful person. And she teaches me a lot.
***
The meeting went well, but I’m exhausted and want to go home right now. I’m missing something.
And I know it’s her.
I try to calm myself by looking out the window of this hotel building. When I invited her to tea, I suddenly remembered what she had ordered. I let her order whatever she wanted, and she did. And take note, she ate it all in one sitting. She expresses her gratitude. But then, on the way to her apartment because I gave her a ride, she complains that her stomach hurts. Then I smell something foul. I noticed her sweating when I looked at her. Her sh*t just exploded on her pants, she said. That time, I really want to laugh because it is so embarrassing. But, on the other hand, when I saw her sad and embarrassed expression, I felt sorry for her. I sped up my driving so she could get home and dress. She jumped out of my car as soon as we arrived at her apartment. I waited for her outside her apartment door, and when she finished changing her clothes, she immediately cleaned the car and apologized. I just laughed as I walked away. Fortunately, she cleans well and does not leave a bad odor in the car.
“What’s the deal with your smile?”
I nearly died when Jason suddenly appeared in front of me. I lightly punch him on the arm, and he laughs.
“What? You teased me the entire day we were together? What’s wrong with you?”
He was laughing so hard. “That’s what I’m asking you, Zeux. What’s wrong with you? Why are you smiling while looking somewhere? Is there something that happened between you and Vanessa that you suddenly remembered, and it makes you happy?”
I turned away from him and went into the living room. I sat on the couch and looked at the time. It irritates me. Why does time seem to move slowly? Jason sat down next to me and turned on the television.
“You know, Zeux, I’m actually relieved to see your sweet smile again. Before, you were struggling and only smiled feigningly.”
I fixed my gaze on him. What he said was accurate. I don’t simply smile at people. I am frequently irritated with them, especially when I disagree with what they have done. I don’t mind if I’m facing a woman. I’ll be very harsh with her as long as I’m annoyed with her. Words that will pierce her soul and cause her to cry.
“Whatever, Jason, I’m going to bed.”
“All right, then, sleep well, and dream about Vanessa,” he winked at me.
It took me two hours to get into bed, but I still couldn’t sleep. I take out my phone and search for Vanessa’s phone number. I want to call her right now, but I’m not sure what to say. I stood up and considered whether I should call her. When I hear her voice, I know I’ll be fine. Until I made the decision to call her. It rings several times before she answers the phone.
“Yes, Sir? Why did you call me?” she asked on the other end of the line. What a lovely voice. I sat on the edge of the bed, relieved to have finally heard her voice. I inhaled deeply.
“Ah… I just wanted to see if you were okay, and how was your day?” I said while holding my phone tightly.
“Don’t worry about me, Sir. I’m ready to sleep right now, how about you?”
“I’m sorry if I disturbed you, Vanessa. You can sleep now. Good night and sweet dreams.”
“Oh, thank you, Sir. But why did you suddenly call me Sir? Did you just miss me, Sir?” I find myself unable to speak. What made her say that?
“What?”
I could hear her chuckle. “Nothing, Sir. Good night, Sir. Sleep well and relax. Don’t think about me too much because it can drive you insane.”
She then disconnected the phone call. I smiled as I slowly shook my head. She is a lovely and amusing lady. I wish I could be there with her right now. I tucked my phone under my pillow and turned up the notifications volume. So that I can hear when someone messages me or sends me an email. I’m hoping it’s Vanessa. I hope she messages me tomorrow, even though she won’t be able to because she has nothing to say about me. And, besides, I don’t believe I’m a significant person in her life. Perhaps I’m only her boss. There is nothing else.
“Oh my Vanessa, what have you done to me? Why do I always think of you?” I murmured.