Mary decided that I needed a day out after my interview, and honestly, I agree with her because that interview was just a complete waste of time.
I had to sit there talking to a bunch of women just talking about Lorenzo.
If they wanted to discuss him so badly they should have just called him in instead of me.
Rating my boyfriend on his style for a straight hour. I am literally known as his girlfriend now. Not a blogger. Not Kristina at all.
” he hasn’t stopped calling ” Mary calls from the front seat. I was busy feeding Caleb and my phone was connected to the radio in the car.
” I’ll call him back later, I’m sick of him giving me stupid interviews it’s just a waste of time,” I tell her as I shove another spoon of his food in that tiny gob of his.
“more” he calls as I grab my phone and quickly send my manager a text back. Hes honestly is a lovely guy but he’s also a big investor and loves the money.
Interviews concerning Lorenzo are giving him a lot of money that’s for sure.
We were on our way to Disneyland, because why the hell not. I had a feeling I might get some attention but I would just try and have a family day with these three.
Once arriving we all jumped out the car, Caleb was wriggling in his car seat once realising where we were. The kid was the happiest I’ve seen him and he couldn’t wait to get out.
“Michael get the poor kid out,” I say laughing at Caleb irritated face since we were all standing round just watching the boy in misery. He rushes over and grabs Caleb before planting him on the ground.
I was helping Mary get the pram out of the back when suddenly we heard Caleb chant. “no no no” he was looking at the pram like it was the devil.
“I think he wants to walk instead” I comment carefully removing my hands from the pram. Caleb eyes soften slightly and back with a smile. ” alright child, have it your way”
I grab him and place him on my hip as we make our way through to the entrance.
Disneyland has surely changed since I was here. I came her with my parents when I was little probably slightly older than Caleb currently is.
Caleb looked ridiculous when we sat down to eat. He was happily chomping away at a fry with his face covered in paint. He was a lion, the cutest one at that.
Not an inch of stress, this boy better enjoy it while it lasts. We ended up visiting nearly every section in the park. I think Caleb lost his shit when he saw pumba from the lion king.
Because Caleb looked like a lion the character automatically started to talk with the little lion.
” Tina, it all depends on you, you know that. If he truly loved you he would be thinking about you and your life too.” I think love is going too far. I don’t even know what I feel right now.
“I know Michael, I can’t think of anything until I speak to him. He doesn’t even know how I feel since Hes too busy distracted” I tell him as I wipe my mouth from the bite of the burger I just took.
Silence crossed us. Caleb yawned loudly which meant that it would be time to go home now. Plus, I have to pack for my flight tomorrow since I will be flying back home where the real drama will begin.
“alright buddy, time to go,” Michael says lifting Caleb out of his seat and grabbing a bag. We walked back to the car all tired from the exciting but exhausting day that we’ve had.
Getting into bed was such a relief for me since I had just finished packing my things into my suitcase. I checked my phone for any messages from him. But there wasn’t any.
I’m actually glad though I don’t think I want to speak to him right now.
That will come soon enough when I arrive.
The following morning Mary and Michael had cooked me a big breakfast before I left. Caleb had handed me a drawing when I sat next to him. He had drawn a picture of all of us, it was very cute.
I kissed him on the cheek thanking him. I’m going to really miss everyone.
” eat up Tina,” Mary said finally sitting herself at the table after presenting us with all the food. Caleb was already shoving his mouth with food. What a beast.
I smiled before starting to eat as well. This way I don’t have to buy much food on the way home. I’ll probably need a few coffee’s that’s for sure.
Saying goodbye to them was emotional I knew I would try my best to see them more often but it was sad leaving Caleb especially.
The flight back to the city was okay I will be arriving in London at around 9 o’clock in the evening so probably start getting dark soon.
Once arriving in London, I booked an Uber and back to my place. I sent a quick text Lorenzo telling him I had landed and I was heading home.
I’m coming over
He replied back. When I read it, I was happy that he was actually going to come over but also annoyed I kind of wanted to just sleep and not have to talk with him since there’s probably going to be some kind of argument.
I quickly showered and got into some sweatpants and a t shirt. I wasn’t. Really trying to impress anyone if I’m being honest.
When I heard his car pull up I suddenly felt very nervous. Tonight, I really had two choices. Either ignore my feelings and pretend everything’s fine or I actually tell him what I’m feeling and be completely honest with him.
I honestly don’t know which the better option is if I’m being honest. But none the less I stood up and walked towards the door. I barely had time to take a breather before the door swung open and I was greeted with the handsome man himself.
“hello beautiful,” he says with his deep husky voice, he grabs me around the waist pulling me into his body. I relished in the way he buried his face into my neck.
“I’ve missed you,” I said back to him wrapping my hands around his neck. god, I’ve missed this man so much. He walks us backwards into the house and slams the door shut with his foot. After hearing it close he lifted my chin up. I looked into his eyes and saw the desire in them.
He wanted me. I knew it but the sad thing was. I didn’t want that to happen tonight because I was actually still confused and kind of pissed off with him.
Getting into a relationship that is mainly focused on the sex can be difficult because frankly, I’m not getting any younger am I. if I only wanted the sex I probably would have picked a guy that came with a simple life.
Turns out that’s not what life had in store for me.
He quickly brought my lips up to meet his and quickly deepened it making sure I felt his tongue meeting with mine. Reluctantly I kissed him back and let him take control because I know that’s what he likes.
I was lost in the kiss that I barely realised that he had started take off my shirt exposing my breasts to him. He was instantly kissing his way from my neck right to my nipples. He took it further by running his finger down my pants. I felt his fingers rub my panties.
Fuck, I can’t do this now not after how much I want to in my head. My heart just doesn’t feel right.
“wait, Lorenzo stop,” I said breathlessly grabbing his hand from doing anything else. He stopped immediately at hearing my words and I guessed he was rather shocked as well.
“why baby, fuck I’ve missed this body “he groans staring at my partially naked body like it was a meal.
I turn around pulling a shirt back on over my body. God, why am I acting like this.
“I’m too tired, I’ve been flying today can we just go to sleep” I plead with him turning around to face him again. I watch his face transform into one of annoyance, but he quickly masks it and walks into the kitchen.
I sigh before making my way into the bedroom. His reaction wasn’t something that’s new Hes been like this recently. Coming home and just wanting to fuck me or whatever. I get it he has stressful days racing but seriously if he wanted a slut.
I laid in my bed thinking of what I was actually going to say to him. I heard hi walking towards the room. When he appeared in the room he had already started to remove his clothes. Getting rid of his jumper and jeans.
Once he was in the bed after washing up he rapped his arms around me placing a kiss on my neck.
“goodnight Tina” he whispers before surprising me completely and turning to face the opposite direction. I froze in my position; did he really just do that.
“are you even going to ask how my trip was?” I say sitting up. I wasn’t going to let this slide. He too got up from his space on the bed. Huffing in annoyance yet again.
“fine, how was it?” he grunted turning to face me. Only then did he see my angry expression. I knew exactly the face I was pulling right at this moment.
Is he serious “forget it Lorenzo, clearly you don’t even care anymore” I snap at him turning over and switching off the light so were put into darkness.
I thought he was going to say something else but turns out he changed is mind. Everything from that moment happened way too quickly and I honestly had no time to even react to it.
The last sound I heard was the sound of my door slamming shut and rumble of his car as exited out of my street in a hurry. I didn’t think that would be the result of me simply saying forget it. But unfortunately it was.
I pulled my blanket further up my body and let myself cry myself to sleep as I thought of how much him leaving actually hurt me.
I just hope that tomorrow I would be able to think logically and speak to him when I’m not tired and snappy.