Last night really had an effect on me this morning.
My body was aching and just to make it even better I had bad breath this morning. Fuck that.
Lorenzo wasn’t in bed when I woke up so I made the bed and entered into his bathroom. I took advantage of his amazing shower which had different settings on it.
After showering and brushing my teeth I put on some clothes before going to find him.
I could hear movements in the kitchen so I decided that would be the first place to look.
I was right, he was currently making himself a coffee but what surprised me was he was already dressed.
He had jeans on and it was paired with the hoodie he looked very casual.
“Morning,” I said coming up to him and kissing him lightly on the lips. I docile taste the coffee on his lips and it woke me up.
He smiled at me bringing me in for another kiss, he smelt so fucking good and I loved how handsome he looked in his suit.
“morning beautiful,” he says after leaning back letting me watch as he licks his lips. kill me now.
“where are you going today?” I asked him grabbing the edges of his suit jacket. I can never get enough of this man.
“I’ve got to travel out to Germany in a few hours” my hands stopped moving on his jacket very quickly as his words registered with me.
I just got him bac for goodness sake. Renzo seemed to notice my change in mood because he pulled me closer to him letting my body make contact with his.
“listen, I don’t want to leave you trust me” he brings his fingers up to lift my chin letting me meet his eyes. Eyes full of regret.
“it’s okay,” say quietly. I’m probably acting like a spoiled brat but I’m needy okay I need my man.
“look, I thought about this and if you want you can come with me?” my head snapped up. Come with him to Germany is he for real.
“you can do some blogging whilst were there and then in the evening we will be together baby” seems like this was the plan with how much he has this all figured out.
“okay ill come with you,” I tell him bringing his neck down to my level. I can sense him smiling as he bends down slightly and kisses me again.
I let him claim my lips, he takes his time coaxing my lips before I open my mouth to let him in, I want to taste him.
He reaches down and grabs my thighs before lifting me up. I wrap my legs around his waist and angle my head to deepen the kiss.
“we have to go in 2 hours okay,” he says against my lips, I nod at him eagerly before I let him carry me in his arms towards the bedroom.
“you will be the death of me,” he says placing me on the bed and grabbing the shirt and lifting it above my head. I only laugh at his words.
After I rushed around getting ready we made our way to the airport. I texted Rachel t tell her of my plans just so she knew about where I was going to be for a few days.
Once arriving at the airport, we rushed inside trying to avoid any of the cameras but it was to no use, a lot of them wanted some good pictures of us together so it didn’t really surprise me.
We boarded the plane and took our seats. The plane was the teams as all of Lorenzo’s team was also on board.
We’d be arriving in about an hour or so, I made myself comfortable plugging in my headphones. Renzo was busy talking with his team probably discussing things I wouldn’t understand.
“I’m not just going to lose a race so I get their attention will, do you know how fucked up that sounded” my music was very quiet with the song I was listening to, so I could hear Renzo’s loud voice as he spoke to another guy.
“it’s just an idea, people are losing interest in watching because you win every single race” that’s my man, winning always winning. But I get where he’s coming from when there’s no excitement then people do start to not care.
“its not my fault they can’t keep up with me,” he says slamming his phone back on the table. I took this as my cue to get up and calm him down.
“I know but just think about it okay” will sighs before getting up and moving over to his seat on the other side of the plane.
I took my seat next to Renzo; his team engineers were all watching previous races on their phones.
“calm down Renzo,” I said as I places a kiss on his cheek. He only realised I was there when he felt me.
“I thought you were sleeping “his voice was low and annoyed I could hear it clearly.
He grabbed his phone and started reading the notifications, he was like a ticking time bomb he needed to chill.
I looked over saw that he had opened Instagram and started to reply bac to some messages. When he scrolled down further I noticed he had a few girls messaging him, well known instagrammers as well.
Hey handsome, you coming to my event
Baby, take a break i’ll treat you especially ?
When are you coming to Paris, I’m all alone in my penthouse?
He deleted them but I saw them and it further annoyed me. How many of these does he get.
I could see him tense up he’s probably thing=king about how pissed I am after seeing those messages.
“will is right Renzo, your winning every race, they’re not watching because they know you’re going to win” I reason with him. Instead of blowing up he sits back in his chair and listens to me.
Eyes searching mine.
I could feel the guys listening in as well. Way to make it obvious.
“maybe you don’t have to lose a race,” I say turning to face him, hoping he will catch onto what I’m saying.
“think you’re onto something baby,” he says his eyes widening before turning to will. He was sitting leaning forward in his seat but listening to every word.
“she’s a keeper boss,” he says before pressing his hone against his ear. Probably trying to get the plan in motion.
“after all you have a girlfriend and that could be weighing you down in performance,” one of the engineers says winking suggestively.
Oh god.
We finally arrived in Germany and all our moods were lighter they needed to work this carefully we didn’t want the other teams to catch on.
“our race is in the afternoon tomorrow, go relax for now but be out on the track later for some practise alright” will suggests to Renzo. Luckily Renzo wasn’t angry anymore and was definitely more relaxed.
After we checked into our hotel room we both decided on a place to get some late lunch and quickly made it out in time for Renzo to fit in a practise.
“watch your boy from here alright” will says as he pushes Renzo out to the track completely out sight.
I made myself busy with writing a blog for this week as the team worked on how they were going to do tomorrow.
I lifted my head up occasionally to watch Renzo race round a few times. Barely caught a glimpse of him at the speed he was going at.
I was too busy invested in my writing that I didn’t notice about 3 women standing watching him race. I suddenly became alarmed, this was supposed to be a private session. But when I saw one of the guys approaching them and hugging the girls I calmed down.
I watched them talk for a minute. Before concentrating back on my work, it slightly bothered me that they were just watching but when reno finished I didn’t care. All I needed now was to have him holding me.
I made my way inside as a saw Renzo walk in there. I was just walking through the hallway when suddenly my heart stopped, literally.
It only took me a moment to realise what todays date actually was. I knew there was something about today but this morning I just couldn’t figure it out.
Renzo was just passing through when he saw me standing in the middle of the hallway motionless.
“Tina, baby what’s wrong” he starts making his way over to me, his tone alarmed I admit I probably scared the shit out of him.
“today it’s the 12th right?” he only nods his head confirming it.
How could I have forgotten today is a very important day, I shouldn’t be here in Germany I need to be at the cemetery wishing her happy birthday.
“it’s my mum’s birthday today, and I forgot” I felt like I let her down that I was slowly forgetting about the woman who gave me life.
“oh Tina” Renzo wrapped his arms around my shoulders pulling me into his chest. I let my emotions take over and cried into his shirt.
I don’t talk about them a lot because its honestly too painful but I miss them incredibly and I think that’s why I love Loretta and Nathaniel they remind me so much of them.
“you didn’t forget baby,” he says wiping my tears away. It’s true but I should’ve remembered first thing when I opened my eyes this morning.
I didn’t want to ever forget my parents they were my everything. “don’t let me go” I whispered, his arms around me were the only thing stopping from falling, my legs felt so weak.
We made our way back to the hotel quickly. He respected that wanted some time for myself so Renzo filled up the bath for me. This man will be the death of me I swear.
“Thank you” I whispered as he pulled me up and walked me to the bathroom. He had lit some candles around and had the speakers playing some music.
I laughed when I recognised this song it was from my parent’s time.
He sent me a smile before leaving me to have my own time. I loved that he didn’t bother me with questions. I would eventually open to him and talk about them but right now I wasn’t prepared to do that.
I stayed in the bath for too long my fingers looked old and the water was starting to get colder. I wrapped a robe around me and walked out to find Renzo.
I found him sitting at the counter his laptop opens on the table. He was answering emails and he had a lot of them.
“what was your mums name?” he suddenly asks when he finally noticed my presence. I was a little surprised but I’m okay with hat question.
Thalia, and my dads name was roman “I feel like I haven’t said their name in years it felt good to speak about them again if==even if it was just saying their names.
“thank you for telling me It must be hard to speak about them,” he said closing his laptop and giving me his attention.
“sometimes it is but other times I feel at ease when I speak of them” he nods his head his eyes wander down my body and stop at my legs.
“I read your blog already, I like it when you talk about me baby,” he says pulling me to stand between his legs. I laugh, I literally only posted it an hour ago.
“it’s a onetime thing,” I say shrugging my shoulders. He narrows his eyes at me. “better not be”
Can’t make any promises.
“you smell so good” he moans leaning forward and kissing my neck. he grabs a fistful of my hair and pulls my head back giving him more access.
“love me, Lorenzo,” I said placing my hands on his chest. his eyes locked onto mine an intense look he was giving me.
He grabbed my waist lifting me up and carrying me into the room that had a large king-sized bed inside.
Normally its very intense with us but this time it was different we had time, it was more sensual as well I think the bath got me in the mood.