ANAMIKA’S POV
It’s been 2 months since we are together and so far everything is going perfect.
We meet whenever we get free time from our busy schedules.
He took me on dates and pampered me whenever he got time, like I am his most priced possession. But he never took me to his house again after that day, I don’t know why.
He told me he can speak Hindi, his mother is Indian too and when I told him I can speak Italian too, he stopped attending his phone calls in front of me after that.
We fucked in each and every corner of my house, everything in my house reminds me about our passionate time that we have spent together, sometimes he fucks me like I am the only thing he wants on this earth, I am not complaining about it, I like it, I like how he is so rough yet so gentle with me. Whenever I argue with him I get spanked and sometimes I deliberately try to annoy him to get spanked, i am getting shameless day by day…
I crave for his touch like he does for mine, I feel safe with him, he is changing me. He is introducing me to these new feelings I never new existed…
I have started to get comfortable with him, we eat, talk and laugh together. Sometimes we even hit our gym together and end up in bed many times.
He didn’t asked me anything about my past and I was happy about it. I will tell him everything when I am ready, but not now…
He asked me to teach him how to play some instruments and he was seriously trying to learn. he learned some of them so fast.
Sometimes we forgot about our work and get distracted by making out.
Massimo forgot to use protection many times and sometimes I forgot to remind him too but I can’t take risks. I started taking pills… I don’t want a child in this messed up life. It’s not like I don’t want kids, I’ll be the happiest woman on earth when I will become a mother but I am not ready now, our relationship is messed up, we don’t love each other…
Or that’s what I thought…
Everything was going so peaceful until last night…
I was pinned against the wall and he was pounding into me like a wild animal from behind, making me feel like I am loosing all my senses with every hard thrust of his.
He made me cum in no time with such a loud scream and he too came deep inside me groaning and said…
” I love you, Anamika… I love you so much..”
His body stiffened after saying that, like he was not planning to say it like this. He cursed under his breath and I was stunned after hearing his words. Everything blacked out for a moment and the only words that were ringing in my ears were ” I love you, Anamika…”
I was shocked, he loves me…
I was looking at him dumbfounded, my words stuck in my throat.
He looked at me with an unknown expression which I couldn’t point out.
“Y… y… you w…. w.. what?….”
I finally managed to say.
” Yes… I love you Anamika… I wasn’t planning to say it like this but I lost my control…”
He said cupping my face in his hands.
I was speechless, my whole world was spinning after hearing his words. What am I supposed to say after this…. I can’t think properly…. I didn’t say anything and he understood my answer…
“Say something baby… Say it… Tell me that… you love me too…”
He was shaking me like a possessed man and I looked down.
His hold loosened on me and he punched the wall behind me making me flinch and his hand started bleeding.
” Why…. Why don’t you love me Anamika…”
His voice came out broken and something in my heart broke.
He kicked the nearby table and the bottle of birth control pills fell down with a clicking sound and I closed my eyes. I am doomed now, he didn’t knew that I was on birth control.
He picked up the bottle from the floor and his eyes changed colours and his nostrils flared with anger…. Shit… He was angry, so angry that I was scared, he looked Lethal.
“Why are you on birth control?…”
He asked in his angry voice, he sounded so scary…
I gathered all my courage and said in my strong voice trying to act brave.
“You didn’t use protection so I did…”
“But why?…”
He said with his hard tone while hovering over me with his large frame.
“What do you mean by why… What if I get pregnant…”
I asked him with narrowed eyes giving him a ‘are you serious’ look.
“So what if you got pregnant… I want a child…”
He can’t be serious, how can he just say that…
” How can you say it like that, when you know this relationship is_____ Wait, you want a baby, is that why you didn’t use protection…”
I asked when realisation hit me.
And after listening me he broke our eye contact.
“How can you do that, you didn’t even thought to talk to me about it… You were planning to get me pregnant without my consent… How could you..”
I lost it, how can he do that.
“So what… Huh… What if you get pregnant, you are mine, only mine… I can do whatever the fuck I want with you… I want you to get pregnant with my babies so you can never leave me, you can’t leave me… not now, not ever, do you get it…
You have to love me, only me, I’ll be the only man who will fuck you, cherish you, protect you….
Do you understand that… Do you understand me… Huh…”
He said while holding my arms in painfully tight grip. His every word was hitting me like an arrow. He was talking like a possessed man while gritting his teeth.
I pushed him back with all my strength and he stumbled back…
“I am not an object Massimo, you can’t own me like this… I am a human, I have feelings too… You can’t make me fall for you by doing things like this, by making me pregnant… I told you I have trust issues, I don’t trust people easily and you just proved that I was right… It’s just been 2 months since we are together and you want me to get pregnant, Why didn’t you felt the need to ask for my consent. Why didn’t you talk to me about it before taking all the decisions by yourself, it’s my body you can’t just make me pregnant because you don’t want me to leave you… If You think I will fall in love with you like this, then you are wrong…”
My voice broke at the end and tears started to fall freely from my eyes.
I wiped my tears and looked at him, he was looking so dangerous. He was angry because I was talking back, I didn’t reciprocated his confession, I didn’t tell him about the pills, I didn’t say that I love him too, I pushed him away from me, I can see that all this things were turning wheels in his head.
His eyes turned pitch black, his nostrils flared with anger, his jaw clenched and the veins on his forehead and neck were popping out, he was fisting his hands in a tight grip…
He was seriously scaring me…
When he started walking towards me, I took a step back and raised my hand to stop him.
“No… stop… Don’t come near me when you are not in your control… Don’t touch me when you’re angry and do something which you will regret later…. Please leave me alone …. Go away… Please”
I yelled sobbing.
He looked at me for a while, cursed under his breath and left while closing the door shut with a loud thud…
Leaving me there sobbing….