Talking

CHAPTER 30- Talking
HUNTER’S P. O. V.
As much as she fights it she still wants me. I can tell, the purr confirmed it. She is fighting her feelings. That I think I can work with. If she had no feelings for me then I would be completely lost. The fact that she still responds to my touch is promising. I will give her the hour and then I will make every case possible for her to come back to me.
I decided in the meantime I am going to go for a run. I am taking steps two at a time when Allison stops me. “Hunter, did you really mean what you said in the car?” I can hear the hurt in her voice.
“About loving Jasmine?” I don’t want to see the pain, so I am staring at the steps.
“Yes, and having nothing for me.” She is begging me to say it isn’t true. I can’t do that. She needs to move on.
“Look, I am sorry. I thought I made it clear to you that we weren’t anything. I was waiting for my mate. It was just to have some fun. I am sorry if you thought it was more. I really am. It never was for me.” I don’t know why we are talking about this. I was clear that we were nothing. She would talk about us being mates and I would tell her every time that I was sure that we weren’t. I wouldn’t hang out with her. I would only have my fun and then move on. I have no idea what made her think that I wanted to be with her long term.
“I just thought, after two years. I thought there was something.” I hear that she is crying. I don’t want her to be this upset. I want her just to find someone else. Her mate is still out there somewhere. She needs to go find him. Not keep waiting for me.
“Allison, I told you there was nothing. Sorry.” I continue to run up the stairs. Maybe now she will leave me alone. I need Jasmine, I don’t want Allison hanging around ruining it.
I quickly change and head to the woods to shift. It has been a few days and I need to stretch my wolf. As I am running I remember the run I had with Jasmine. How amazing it felt to run with her. When we laid together in our furs. I can almost feel her fur against mine if I think about it. Her wolf is beautiful, just like her. After I am sure enough time has passed. I shift back and run upstairs to a shower. I want to be clean when I talk to her. Maybe she will let me hold her, or better and I will sleep next to her tonight.
I knock on her door. I don’t want to piss her off. She comes and answers the door. It hasn’t been that long since I have seen her, but it feels like it was too long. I am stupid I act on impulse. I didn’t want to piss her off, but I am pretty sure that is the first thing that I do. I reach my hands out and grab her face, before she can even respond, I have my lips on hers. She feels so good. I am pulling her to me. I need all of her.
She pushes against me. I just want to pull her closer. Jasmine manages to pull her lips from mine. “I told you to come up here to talk. Not this.”
I give her my seductive smile. “This is so much better.” I crash my lips into hers again. I kick the door shut and start pushing her towards the bed. I want her so bad.
Jasmine breaks away from me again. “Hunter, we need to talk.”
I purr into her mouth. “This first.” I have moved down to her neck, I know she likes that. Apparently it doesn’t work today.
“Hunter, stop.”
I pull back. I flop myself down on the bed. “Fine, let’s talk.” I would much rather do other things. “I don’t see the point. We are getting back together. We need to just do it. There isn’t a whole hell of a lot to talk about. You love me and I love you.” Yeah, I need this to seem as pointless to her as it does to me. I want her.
“Hunter, we aren’t getting back together.”
I look at her like she just spoke in Russian. “I’m sorry I didn’t hear that correctly.”
“We are not getting back together.”
I jump up and start pacing her room. “That is what I thought you said. What the hell is wrong? Again, you love me and I love you, I am failing to see the problem here.” I growl out.
“That isn’t the problem. I looked up that desire spell. There has to be desire for it to feed on.”
“It isn’t my desire. I don’t want her. I keep telling you that.”
“That means that her desire was enough for you both. She isn’t going to just give up. She will do this again. Do you think I want to keep doing this? Have to be on guard, in case I walk into another room with her sprawled half naked on you. Or worse, what if she gets what she wants. Obviously she wants all of you. I am not going to live my life like that.”
“I will stay by your side, if that is what it takes. If I never leave your side then she will never get the chance.”
“Get real Hunter. You have a life and so do I. We can’t be attached at the hip. This just isn’t going to work.” She states it like it is breaking her to say it. It is breaking me to hear it.
“Jasmine, you can’t say that. We can work. I will do whatever it takes to make it happen. I need you. Baby, I need to be by you all the time. Don’t put this block here.” I pleaded with her.
“Hunter, we need time to work out a plan. Something to keep Allison away. If we can’t then I am afraid this will never work out.”
“We kick her out of the pack then. That will work. She is gone and you and I can have our lives back.” Cold I know, but this is my life we are talking about.
“We can’t just kick her out of the pack. We have to have a reason.”
“She put a spell on me.”
“What proof do you have?” She counters.
“Fine, in three weeks we will have proof.” I stand closer to her and pull her into my arms. “I want you, no matter what it takes. Baby, don’t push me out of your life.”
“I need space to deal with all of this.”
“How much space?” I am still pulling her into my arms. I am not so sure I can give her any space.
“I need time alone. I have to think without you over my shoulder all the time. I will tell you this. I love you. I don’t feel this way about anyone else. I am scared, I will admit it. I am scared that you are just going to leave. I am scared that it is all really just a joke. I don’t want to be hurt. Can you understand that?”
“I can understand being scared. I am so scared that I am going to lose you. You have vultures that are circling, ready to take you from me any second. That Christian guy is coming back. I know he asked you to be his mate. I know Nick was pressed against you today. I have far more reason to be scared than you. You never once said you were going to come back to me. I have told you repeatedly that I don’t want anyone else. Can you see why I feel the need to cling to you?”
She is quiet for a moment. “Hunter, I don’t want anyone else. I am only considering this offer from Christian, because I don’t want to be hurt. Prove to me that I wont get hurt.”
“Baby, I am all yours. I am not going to hurt you.” I kiss her forehead. I still have my arms wrapped around her. I never want to let her go.
“Hunter, I need time and space. If you give me that, I can almost guarantee that we will be back together. I just need to think.”
“Do you know how bad I need you? I don’t know what space I can give.” I give out a large sigh. “But I will try. I will do anything to get you back.”
She gives me a smile that says I said the right thing. “Good, now kiss me and get out of here.” I give her a silly look. “What, I didn’t say we couldn’t kiss. Not all the time, but on occasion.”
I have no problem with that. I plant my lips on her and deepen the kiss as far as I can. I need this woman and I will be damned if she isn’t going to know it. She is my life. I want her now and forever. Whatever it takes to get that.