Edward Jones (Hawk Andrews)
Damn! A pot-belly! Really. It was right in front of me and I didn’t even see it. How can I be so stupid and ignorant. What kind of foolishness is this. How the fuck did I allow myself to be deceived by my dad, I should have known he would do something like that. And as for her mother, she must have been threatened by my dad or there was something in for her.
How the fuck did I not notice she was pregnant and why didn’t she even tell me. I was angry at myself and happy at the same time. I am going to be a father. I removed my phone from my pocket and I was about to dial my father’s number. But I stopped, for him to go to this extent. He might do worse if he finds out I know the baby was still alive. I know my father and what he is capable of, he’s going to try everything in his power to make sure I and Taylor get married.
I have to make a decision, I won’t be selfish by jeopardizing Mary and our baby’s life and future. I know I won’t be able to manage off with her being far away from me. But I have to, there is no room for selfishness and being self-centered. This was not about me alone. I have to send her and the baby far away from the dangers lurking around us. The more she stays closer to me, the more the dangers comes.
The thought of having a tiny little baby in my hands made me smile widely. For the first time in my life, I was beyond happy. This happiness was the unusual one. This happiness was the type that makes you want to forget everything else. I am going to be extra protective of Mary and our child. I am going to send her off to college in a far away place, with enough money and then I’m going to hire some private bodyguards to watch her from a distance, a nanny and a private doctor will be added to the list. I am going to make sure she and my child does not lack anything.
This was like a start of something new for me.
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I opened the door to my room and stepped inside. I didn’t say a word to her during the drive home, but I could literally feel her gaze on me throughout the entire drive.
I dropped the car keys on my table. Yes, I love Mary Davies. But the fear of her rejecting me when she finds out who I am was making my emotions hurdle to the surface. My emotions were too raw that I even found it hard to start a conversation with her.
I strolled deeply into my room and began to pull my clothes off. Then I heard a footstep, that jerked me into a sudden halt.
I turned around to find Mary in my room, she was still in her uniform. I studied her face and at the tiny little bump which I stupidly thought was a pot-belly.
“Edward, I am so sorry for ambushing you this way.” When I didn’t reply, she sank her teeth into her lips and sighed heavily.
“I clearly understand if you don’t want to see me or even talk to me, but if you can spare me a few minutes of your time. I will be grateful.”
“I deserve it if you hate me,” she added, I raked my hands through my hair. I should be saying this to her not her saying it to me. After all I was the one who put her in this situation.
“Edward just hear me out, please. At the end of it, if you still don’t want me or have nothing to do with me again. I won’t push it.”
I wanted to tell her she doesn’t have to explain herself and let her know this wasn’t her fault. But I just couldn’t.
“Go on. I am listening.” I replied.
“Edward, I understand if you don’t want to have anything to do with me. I am so sorry I didn’t tell you about my pregnancy, I was scared of rejection. The fear of you rejecting me and pushing me away stopped me from letting you know, I should have at least tried giving you a hint.”
“I understand if you are disgusted for having sex with a pregnant woman. It’s okay, but please don’t leave me. We can at least become friends.”
“I don’t know what is giving you the ideas that I want to be friends with you.” I growled out.
“Yes, you are pregnant. But you didn’t get yourself pregnant or did you? I don’t want to be your friend Mary. I want you.”
“I want you to be mine.” I added.
“The reason why I hated you at first was because you reminded me of him, the evil one that did this to me. I thought you were the same person with him. I got scared he was back for me. I was raped Edward. He broke me into pieces.”
“All I wanted was to be loved and happy, but why did this have to happen to me. I won’t forgive him.”
Hearing her say this made me realize I don’t deserve her. I should probably try my best to let her go. But that will be extremely difficult, I am already attached to her. How do I even kill my obsession with her.
“I am so sorry Mary.” I whispered softly, I moved closer to her and pulled her into my arms.
“I am so sorry,” I whispered into her ears. If only there was a way I could make this pain go away.
“I was molested right from childhood by my stepmother’s sister. She destroyed me and ruined me completely.”
“She didn’t stop, she continued and that only made me feel weak and angry because I couldn’t stop it. It drained me completely, I was a shadow of myself and I lived with this pain that was eating me up. I wanted and craved for strength so badly but I couldn’t find, not until….”
We both cried together, comforting each other.
“Let me be part of your child’s life. I want to be in your life Mary Davies. I’m going to take care of you and the baby. The brightest future awaits this child.”
“I want to be known as this child’s father. This child won’t be fatherless, I am going to take him as my own, let me love you, you don’t have to love me back.” I whispered.
I pulled out the two sets of charm bracelets in my pocket, I pulled away from her and cupped her cheeks in my palms.
“Will you be my girlfriend Mary Davies and will you accept me as the father of your child?” I asked, patiently waiting for her response.
There was a bit of silence for two minutes. My heart was racing fast in fear. What if she rejects me.
“Yes, I will.” She whispered, I immediately wore the charm bracelets on her wrists.
“This charm bracelets signifies the beginning of our love story. Whenever you see it remember me and know that I will always be everywhere with you. Don’t forget me. I won’t ever forget you and we will be together one day, but let’s enjoy the little period we have together.” I said, caressing her cheeks.
“What do you mean, are you going somewhere. Are you leaving me?” She asked as tears slipped down her cheeks, I brushed it off with the pad of my thumb.
I blinked back the sting of tears as I stared at the woman carrying my child. I have screwed up so badly, but I have to start fixing everything up now. And the healing has to start with Mary. I am going to fight for her, I am not going to lose this war, this is a battle for the woman I love and my child.
“I will be sending you to somewhere far away for college, where you can start a new life afresh. I will be there for you, I will always visit you. We will communicate virtually too. And I will be there for my child too.” I whispered.
It was hard to finalize this decision, but Mary and the baby’s safety is essential. I was doing this for us, it won’t be forever but for a short period of time.
She pressed her hands into my chest, staring at me with teary eyes. I pressed my forehead to hers, swiping her lips with my thumb. I claimed her lips with mine, sweeping my tongue across her lips before delving into her mouth, I kissed her like my life depended on it.
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Unknown’s point of view
Hawk will find out about the baby soon. We can’t avoid that. Hawk is going to make some unreasonable decisions when he finds out. He will want to marry her and we can’t let that happen.
But I want you to keep an eye on the girl. We must get rid of the baby and if we can’t get rid of the baby, then we have to get rid of her. Make sure he doesn’t suspect anything.
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