Avery P. O. V.
“Mine”
All, Mine.”
I don’t know what to do. I know I can’t move because I am too scared when Matthew Monster is like this. I hope he doesn’t because I been on the end of the hook when he was angry and pissed off someone. I was that person before. So, this is making me nervous. I want to help him and calm him down. I should try to talk to him and tell him it’s okay and let me go. But I don’t.
“Mine.
“Mine.
“All, Mine.
I kept hearing Matthew say into my neck repeatedly.
Then sometimes he would go back and forth of speaking the word Mine, and back sniffing and kissing my neck again.
I licked my lips and waited for what will happen next. I wanted to back away from him. I didn’t want to be around him when he acts like this. So, I took my hand and placed it on his chest. I kind of laid it there waiting to shovel him off me.
But I didn’t I could not do it. So, I sighed and grabbed his waist, and hugged him into me.
“Yes, Matthew, I am yours,” I said and went on my tiptoes and kissed his cheek. He looked down at me with a question in his eyes. Like he can’t believe I did that I kissed the monster he was becoming. Because he knows he was like that before with me when he got so angry. He has a bad temper. I know I saw it. Sometimes, he takes it on me when someone got him mad and angry.
“Why? I heard him say with a shame in his voice.
“Why what?” I asked him. The confused look on my face.
“Why would you want me, after what I did to you?”
Why could you be with a monster!” He told me with a broken voice.
He was staring at me waiting for me to say something.
“I don’t know Matthew,” I told him with an honest answer.
All I know is I want him close to me for now. I thought to myself.
“I just do, I forgive you,” I told him I thought it was a lie. But I knew I was lying to myself because what I said I forgive him. I was telling the truth. I do forgive him.
“You should hate me and hit me! Anything but forgive me and give me your kindness. Because we both know I don’t deserve it.” He said with a broken voice he could barely speak. I thought I could hear a broken speech with his words.
So, I did something that shocked him. I grabbed his shirt he stared at me with a scared expression on his face. That was when I gave him a cocky smirk and bend his head down and I slammed his lips down on mine.
I started licking and biting his lip. I am trying to get his mouth open so I can run my tongue inside his mouth so I can deepen the kiss.
Please I was trying to show him in my kiss I was saying the truth I forgive him, and I want him to know by me kissing and holding on to his back. I don’t know if he heard my mind, he started to open his mouth. I felt his tongue slide gently twisting around my tongue. I can feel the heat of his body that I am exciting him.
Because I am feeling the same way. My body is on fire and I can feel how exciting he is making me feel too.
“Sweetheart, he said between kissing me.
You need to stop, or I can’t stop what I am about to do.” I hear him between my lips.
I didn’t want to stop I was curious what he would do next. But then I was going to pull away and sit down on my bed the one I was in then I got out to stop the fight my mates started with Duke Conaway.
Oh, my, I forgot he is still in here. When I thought about that I looked over and I saw he was gone.
I didn’t know why I felt sad and alone. I shouldn’t feel alone because I got my four horsemen with me. I know they care about me. But why do I want him to come back? That is a mystery I am going to find out soon.
“Your right. We should stop.” I told Matthew. Did I really want to stop? Hell no. Did I want to keep going with him?
Hell, yes, I did. But he was right we needed to stop before we do something we regret.
I know one thing I regret is stopping kissing Matthew maybe he would finally get to make love to me. I shook my head getting them naughty dirty things I want to do with him and others.
“Well, now you’re okay. We going to go ahead and leave you alone.”
Or do you want us to stay? I heard Matthew say in a nervous voice. They didn’t want to leave me. They and he wanted me to tell them not to leave. I knew they wanted me to say the words stay. I could feel it in his voice and see it in their eyes.
But you’re probably right. You should leave.” I told them. I saw it. The emptiness and sadness in their eyes. I knew I hurt them when I said leave.
I was going to take it back and speak.
Don’t listen to me, I didn’t know what I was saying. What I meant to say is yes, stay with me forever in my bed and my arms. But before I said what I wanted to say. It was too late. I saw them all turn away from me and walked towards my door and one by one left without looking back at me going out my bedroom door.
“What have I done” I whispered out into empty room tears running down my cheeks.