His hand crept further down, stopping once he had it right where he wanted it.
My breaths were laboured as I tried to stop thinking, to stop feeling. His other hand gripping my hands together painfully to stop my resisting, I refused to look at him so instead I let the darkness that came with my shut eyes consume me.
Bad idea.
-Flashback-
“I’m just going to run to the bathroom” I practically shouted so he would hear me across the noise of screaming intoxicated teens. “Okay little bug, I’ll be right here” he pecked my lips before releasing me from my embrace of being comfortably tucked into his side.
It was something I’d soon learn he did as a sign of ownership but it made me feel safe, especially when I felt so out of place here. A high school party, I never thought I’d see the day I went to one of those.
Weaving my way through the crowds of sweaty body I grimaced every time the scent of w**d hit me. God I hope it didn’t make you feel as bad as it smelt.
Straight ahead of me were two teenagers grinding on each other with their tongues uncomfortably visible to the public. “Why did I come to this thing” I mumbled, making a bee-line for the open bathroom door.
Entering the bathroom I felt as though I had come down from a sugar crash, the atmosphere was clear although the buzz of the party could still be heard.
Finishing my business I splashed cool water on my face, it felt nice as it made contact with my warm cheeks. I had barely moved all night, scratch that, I hadn’t left Noah’s side at all but the surrounding heat from the large number of people made the house uncomfortably stuffy.
I checked my phone for the time 10:03 and let my body weight rest against the back of the door.
We had been here for an hour and a half, Noah’s deal was two hours then we could do whatever I wanted for the remainder of the weekend, I could do this.
How extroverts socialise so much I’ll have no idea. Sighing I knew I had to get back before Noah got worried, heaven knows I wouldn’t hear the end of that, not that I was complaining, it’s nice to feel cared about.
Blowing my hair out of my face I entered the hallway, the couple had moved elsewhere to ‘mingle’ with each other. The house was a classic suburban family home, family photos covered the wall to my right.
As far as I remembered this was Tommy Parker’s house, I’d seen him every now and then at Noah’s football matches but with him being a senior and me just entering Junior year, I’d never spoken to the guy.
“Hi”. Yelping I spun around, coming face to face with the boy responsible for almost sending me into cardiac arrest. “Sorry, I didn’t mean to scare you” he playfully smiled.
Studying his face I recognised him from around the hallways at school, he was a senior like Tommy and by his build I’d take the lucky guess he was also on the football team as well.
“It’s fine, I guess I was a little distracted” my face heated up at the thought of what just happened. Gosh that’s embarrassing. “I was on my way back from the bathroom and I couldn’t help but notice such a beautiful girl standing here all by herself.”
My gut tightened, I had just come from the bathroom, surely I would have noticed him going in, I was only zoned out for one minute max. His gaze left me feeling unsettled as I began to regret not going back to Noah sooner.
“I’m just heading back to my friends now, thanks for worrying though” forcing a smile I got a whiff of alcohol from his breath. Please don’t be really drunk, I can’t even deal with sober people.
“Well there’s no rush, I’m Justin, what’s your name?” I’m sure he is just being nice, no need to jump to any drastic thoughts. “Embry, it was nice meeting you but I really should be get-”
“What’s with all the rushing baby” I gulped as he stepped closer and closer until I was painfully pressed against the wall with no escape.
“Look I really have to go” I pressed my body forward trying to knock his back but it seemed to result in him pushing his body onto mine even more.
“Shhh, shhh, it’s okay” he tucked a strand of my hair behind my ear before his lips met my neck. I began frantically shoving at him, I began to scream for help but his hand clamped down before it became anything more than a small yelp. Someone has to be seeing this, frantically searching for a sign of somebody I felt sick as I realised I was alone with this guy.
“I said shut up” he spit gripping my mouth harshly as my salty tears ran down my cheeks. The feeling of his tongue against my skin made me want to scratch my skin off, I had scrunched my hands into fists letting my nails dig into the skin of my palms so I could distract myself but it wasn’t working.
I sobbed out pleas as he began groping my chest area. They were too muffled to make out, I tried biting his hand but it was too big for me to sink my teeth into.
My body jerked wildly as he brought his hand under my top, trailing it upwards until it reached my bra. He continued kissing along my shoulders as I fought to throw him off my body.
Finding the bra too much of an inconvenience, his fingers ventured down past the band of jeans. My eyes widened drastically as I fully understood what he was going to do.
I had never done anything like this with Noah or anybody and the thought of this being my first ever experience made me want to burn myself alive.
His fingers hit the band of my panties as he lifted his lips from my skin to look into my tear stricken eyes.
“It’s okay, I promise you’ll like it” his voice was deeper now, not nearly as friendly as it was previously. The words scratched at my ears as I felt confined within my own body.
-End of flashback-
My eyes shot open at the memory. That was impossible, I would have remembered if something like that happened to me. How could I forget something like that?
Sebastian’s hands were trailing the same way Justin’s had but I was in too much shock to comprehend it at the moment. I heard distance shouts but I wasn’t able to figure it out, my body was near them but my mind wasn’t.
The party, it sounds vaguely familiar but he-. What happened after? Why couldn’t I remember? My sobs got harsher at the feeling of frustration and helplessness I was feeling.
“Embry, Embry, hey little bug, it’s okay now, look you’re safe.” I felt myself become conscious of my surroundings as I was met with Noah’s eyes studying my face with concern.
I was sitting on the couch now, usually I would have been mad at the close proximity but I was feeling a bit off right now. I zoned back into the room as I watched Sebastian limp up the stairs with a blood face. When did that happen?
“He didn’t do anything, you’re okay, it’s okay, I won’t let anything like that happen again” he rubbed his hand up and down my arm in a soothing matter.
My sobs still rang out, I felt as though I couldn’t trust my own thoughts, half of them shouting at me about Sebastian, the other about Justin and a small few about Noah.
“Hey, breathe in and out with me, ready, one”
My breath involuntarily met his pace, as my sobs became less drastic.
“Two”
My lungs stopped aching so badly, now only shallow cries circling around the room.
“Three”
I felt calmer as small sniffles replaced the sobbing that occurred no more than two minutes ago.
“Good girl, you’re such a good girl” his hand stroked my hair as I tried to ignore the internal joy as such praise.
You’re such a sl*t for praise Embry
“Noah” part of me was screaming not to ask him about it.
You don’t want to know the truth.
“Yes little bug” he smiled, retracting his hand from my hair seeing that I had visibly calmed down.
“Who’s Justin?”