Since the night of the gala, I’ve been spending the nights with Jane and was practically living at her house full time. Picking her up after work. Going home to greet Liam together. Cooking with each other side by side. Sharing the same bed. Waking up to her beautiful face every day.
It was a life that I never wanted to give up after getting a taste of it. Never would I ever want to go back to living in my cold and empty apartment, void of any signs of life. A place that lacked the comforting scent of warm fruity spices and the joyous laughter of my two angels.
I gently brushed Jane’s hair out of her face as she nuzzled up closer to me in her sleep. How could I ever give up a sight like this?
Her hair was fanned out on the pillow behind her as she curled up against my chest like a little kitten. She buried her nose into the crook of my neck before letting out a soft hum in contentment and falling back into a deep sleep.
The top of her head rested just below my nose, filling my senses with her soothing scent of warm fruity spices. Maybe it was because she was constantly baking in her house or the fact that she loved fruity desserts, but every inch of her seemed to ooze that scent that I never knew that I could love so much. A scent that could make my entire body relax in seconds and send me off into a deep sleep that I haven’t had for years before meeting Jane.
It was only the crack of dawn, and I didn’t want to leave the warmth of our cocoon yet, but I needed to drop by my apartment to get some clean clothes for the day.
I sighed as I glanced down at Jane’s peaceful expression. Just the mere sight of her could make my willpower slip with ease.
But I couldn’t stall any longer.
Otherwise, I would have to spend another day in clothes I had already worn for two days straight.
I carefully slipped my arm out from underneath her and tried to slip out of bed as quietly as possible.
However, to no luck, Jane almost immediately started to stir the moment I eased myself out of bed. Catching me by the edge of my sweatpants before I could leave, she mumbled sleepily, “Stay… with me…”
I internally awed at the immeasurable amount of cuteness oozing out of her at the moment. I could literally feel all my willpower slipping out of me, urging me to go back to bed with my girl, but I managed to snap out of it at the last minute, remembering how we were supposed to meet my parents later today.
Gently taking her fingers into my own, I kneeled down next to her and whispered softly, trying not to stir her any more than I already did, “It’s okay, love. I just need to go back to my apartment to get some clean clothes, and then I’ll come straight back to bed with you, okay?”
Her lips formed into a pout as she sleepily thought over my words. Shaking her head, her grip on my hands tightened as she replied, “I’ll buy you clothes instead… Just stay…”
“I guess I’m not the only one who feels a bit needy…” I chuckled softly as I gently ran my fingertips along the side of her face.
To be honest, I also hated going back to my apartment, even if it was only once a week. It never took me any longer than half an hour to pack up what I would need for the rest of the week, but that little sliver of time was more than enough to remind me of how desolate my life was before Jane. How drained of life I would still be if I had never met Jane.
All I wanted was to live with Jane full-time. I wanted to move in with her, but did she even feel the same? She’s progressed so much, allowing me into the privacy of her bedroom and sharing her bed with me, even if it was only to sleep next to each other, but officially moving in together was a completely different thing, right?
She tugged on my arm, snapping me out of my thoughts, and whined softly, “Please come back to bed… It’s cold without you…”
My heart instantly melted, unable to withstand her overwhelming level of cuteness. How could anyone be this adorable?
I sighed as I gave into her will and carefully climbed back into bed. She let out a happy little hum as I wrapped my arms back around her.
She latched onto me as if I was a teddy bear and instinctively nuzzled her nose against the crook of my neck before letting out a contented sigh. “So warm…”
My chest warmed at the sight as I curled back around her. My fingers mindlessly twirled loose strands of her hair as I watched her sink back into my embrace.
“Jane?”
“Hm?”
“What do you think of us living together?”
“… Aren’t we already living together?”
“I meant moving in together… no longer going back and forth but instead, having all of our things together in one place… I wouldn’t need to leave you to pick up my things anymore…”
She cracked an eye open. “You want to move in with me?”
I nodded silently.
Her lips formed into a little o-shape as she dropped her eyes down.
Did she not want to?
Fiddling with the loose fabric of my cotton shirt, she asked quietly, “Are you sure? There’s not a lot of room here, and you always hit your head on my low doorways… I’m worried the bruise on your head will only grow bigger with time…”
I chuckled softly. She still didn’t get what I meant, but at least she didn’t seem too put off by the idea, worrying about the bumps on my head more than anything.
“Darling, I was actually asking if you would move into the house just outside the city with me. The one that I showed you before…” I cupped her cheek in my hands and softly ran my thumb over her skin. “They just finished the renovations, and I would love for nothing more than to live with you full time…”
“You mean the castle-like mansion you showed me?”
“Mhm.”
“The one you said you wanted to give to me?”
“Well… it’s already technically under your name, and I refuse to take it back even if you try to give it back to me. But yes, I want us to move into there together.”
“You, me, and Liam?”
“Of course, my love.” I tilted her chin up and placed a soft, chaste kiss on her lips. “I want to build a home with you. A place where I can wake up to the sight of your beautiful face every day and fall asleep with it as the last thing on my mind every night.”
She blushed under my gaze and nodded timidly. “O-okay… B-but I don’t know if I can afford to live in such a big place…”
I paused in confusion. “What are you talking about, my love?”
“Um… I know you said you are gifting it to me, but I still have to pay for the utility bills and maintenance and-”
“No, I’m paying for it. It’s supposed to be a gift for you, not a burden.”
“But Achilles, it’s not right to make you pay for everything… you already gave the entire property for free… it’s just not right.”
“Then don’t think of it that way. Think of it as me paying to live with you. After all, I can’t live rent-free in a house that doesn’t belong to me, right?”
She narrowed her eyes at my cheeky words.
I smirked and continued, “I’ll call in an interior designer in on Monday for you and tell them to charge everything to my account, so you can decorate the place to your heart’s content.”
“Achilles! You can’t just do things like that. I don’t want people to think I’m using you for your money.”
“But I know that you’re not. And even if you order all the furniture you could possibly want, it won’t put much of a dent in my bank account anyway.” I cupped her cheeks in my hands and leaned down until I was hovering less than an inch away from her face. “Your presence is worth so much more to me that I could never pay you back enough for being with me.”
Half-heartedly trying to push me away, she pouted, “Stop trying sweet talk me, Achilles. I’m being serious here. I should at least pay for half of the utilities and furnishings.”
“Hmm… I’ll think about it if you kiss me.”
Giving into me, she leaned up and pressed a kiss on the corner of my lips, teasing me by barely missing my lips with only a hair’s width.
I tightened my arms around her waist and grumbled, “That’s not what I meant…”
A light giggle escaped her as she leaned into my chest and pressed a chaste kiss on my lips this time.
Wanting to get payback, I fluidly rolled over her before she could pull away, caging her between my arms, and deepened the kiss. My thumb smoothed over her skin as I leaned into her lips. Cupping her baby-soft cheek in my palms. Tangling my fingers in her hair.
I traced my tongue along her opening, nipping at her lips until a sinfully sweet moan escaped her.
Smirking, I decided to push my luck and started trailing a series of soft but rough open-mouth kisses down her neck. Her breath hitched when I found her sweet spot, instinctively arching her neck to give me more room as I sucked on the side of her neck.
“A-Achilles… I-I… A-ahhh…”
My member twitched in my sweatpants at the sound of her voice, moaning my name like no tomorrow. My lower body reflexively pressed itself firmly against her, leaving me in harsh pants as I tried not to bite down on her neck.
Everything about her was so much more fragile… softer… smaller… How her waist could fit between my two hands with my fingers touching on either end… How her thighs were thinner than my arm… How I could wrap my entire hand around her neck with room… Shit… Did I have a size kink?
My breathing grew heavier as a series of dirty thoughts flooded my brain. Everything about her turned me on unlike ever before.
My hand unconsciously slid up her thin calves, slipping underneath her nightgown and pushing it up as my hand traveled further up her leg.
Her skin felt so smooth under my rough hands that I couldn’t help but let my mind wander. Wonder how it would feel to press myself between her legs… hook my hand under her leg and press it up against her side, folding her in half and leaving her completely vulnerable to my eyes…
However, I was soon snapped out of my imagination when a small whimper fell on my ears. My hand had pushed her nightgown all the way up her bare thighs, stopping only just a few inches away from where her panties would be. Her body was completely tense and stiff under my touch rather than relaxed and moaning like before.
Even though she didn’t push me away or try to say anything to refuse me, it was clear that I had gone too far by the look in her eyes… the way her eyes trembled…
I immediately pulled away as if I had been burned by fire and hopped out of bed in a panic. What was I thinking? Touching her like that… Giving in to my desires like some sort of caveman when I knew full well that she wasn’t ready…
“I-I should probably go.” I stuttered as I hurriedly pulled my coat over me.
Glancing back at her, my chest tightened when I saw her clutching the bed sheets to her chest, sitting all by herself in the middle of her empty bed.
“I-I’m sorry, Jane. I-I never meant to lose c-control like that. I understand if you want to change your mind about moving in with me and-”
“Achilles.” Her soft voice cut me off with a single word. It wasn’t very loud, but it was enough to draw my attention back to her.
Her lips were all puffy from my rough treatment, and dark splotches were scattered all down her neck. I knew that Jane was a delicate being, so why didn’t I treat her with more care? I should’ve held myself back better.
“Y-you didn’t do anything wrong… So please don’t feel bad…”
“But I shouldn’t have gone so far without your permission. You were trembling underneath me and I didn’t even stop just like all those other guys.”
“Don’t say that! You’re nothing like them, Achilles.” Her hands clenched around the sheets as she painstakingly continued, “You always give me room when I ask for it and never push me for anything. You always show me how much you care and love me and… and… I just wanted to show you how much you meant to me too… How much I love your kisses… How I wanted to feel your touch too, but… but this body of mine just won’t respond the way I want it to.”
My heart clenched as tears streamed down her face. I was conflicted between wanting to comfort her and not making everything worse by touching her again.
I hesitantly stepped toward her and kneeled down in front of the bed before her. My hands instinctively reached up to her cheek, wanting to wipe her tears away with my fingers, but my hands froze when I realized what I was trying to do.
Before I could pull my hand back, Jane grabbed my wrists and pressed my hands flush against her cheeks, hands that were so big that they nearly covered her entire face. “How could I ever hate these hands… These hands that always reached out to me when I was cornered… Hands that always treated me so gently, as if I was the greatest treasure in the world… Hands that showed me how much you cared for me…”
My cheeks turned red as she started to place soft kisses on the inside of my palms.
“I love your touch… Receiving your kisses… Being in your hold… But when I start to lose my clothes… it’s not even that n-naked… My body just can’t seem to forget about the past. It won’t s-stop reminding me of all the o-other h-hands that tried to t-take off my clothes o-or p-pry my l-legs o-open o-or… o-or h-how t-they…”
I shushed her softly as her words started to break up, unable to continue further. “It’s okay, love. I understand, so please don’t force yourself to continue… I hate seeing you in pain.”
I gently brushed my thumbs over the corner of her eyes, wiping her tears away.
She was so happy just a moment ago, before all of this. And it tore at my heart to see her breaking down like this.
With her hands resting onto of my hands over her cheeks, she squeezed them lightly as she tried to give me a weak smile. “I-I wish I could forget everything and just be happy with you, b-but I j-just can’t s-seem to. I really do wish with all my heart, and I-I’m trying so hard…”
“I know, my love.” I leaned down and rested my forehead against her. “I know… I know you do, but it’ll take time… There’s no need to rush…”
She sniffled as she tried to stop her tears and nodded shakily. “I-I just want to be happy with you…”
“I know you do, my love.” I gently pressed a kiss on her forehead. “It’ll just take a bit of time… But we have all the time in the world, so there’s no need to worry. I said that you would be the only woman for me, and I meant it.”
“Okay…” She slowly loosened her grip on my wrists before leaning into my chest. Her hands skimmed over my chest, pushing my coat off my shoulders and letting it fall to the ground. She looked up at me with her nightgown sinfully barely hanging onto her shoulders and innocently asked, “Stay with me?”
Gosh, she was just too tempting without trying.
“Um…” I pressed my lips into a thin line and embarrassedly diverted my eyes. “I have to take care of a small problem of mine first…”
Her eyebrows furrowed in confusion before a look of realization crossed her face. Her eyes almost immediately dropped down my body, making her cheek flush bright red.
I left a quick peck on top of her head before pulling away. Picking up my coat back off the ground, I rubbed the back of my head sheepishly as I slowly inched toward the door, “I’m going to go back to my apartment to take a cold shower and grab some clean clothes…” I glanced back up at Jane’s little figure. Noting her worried expression, I quickly added, “It’s not your fault at all. I’ll be right back, okay? I did promise to make pancakes with Liam today after all.”
I flashed her a weak smile as I tried to hide my erection behind my coat.
She nodded timidly with burning blush on her cheeks, looking ever so adorable as she tried to hide the lower half of her face with her blankets but was still not able to divert her eyes away completely.
I bit my lower lip as my member twitched in my sweatpants again at the sight. I quickly darted out of the room before I did anything else that I would regret.
I exasperatedly ran my fingers through my hair as I ducked out of her front door, making a beeline to my car and trying to ignore how icy the new snowfall feeling against my burning skin.
The things that my little angel did to me. Dragging out a flurry of emotions out of me ranging from being anxious to being overjoyed to being so turned on that I couldn’t even see straight.
All in less than an hour.