Tristan’s POV
I’ve been here for the past few days, and I haven’t gotten an opportunity to talk to Mia the way I want. I’ve always wanted to see her and ask for a chance back. Even though she told me we couldn’t be together because of what happened, I still wanted to have some hope that she would change her mind eventually.
I have been in love with her for a long time, and I can’t easily fall out of love with her. Even when I didn’t find my mate, I didn’t care about it at all because she was the only person I wanted to spend my time with. And now that I have found my mate, I still don’t know if I want to be with anyone else other than Mia.
I don’t care if those brothers are around her. They are all leeches who want to benefit from her after they tried to kill her. I’m not going to allow them to do anything to her ever again. I’m going to protect her with my life, even if I have to fight them all the time.
I bumped into her when it seemed like she was running away from something, and I finally got the opportunity to talk to her. But I didn’t know what she was running away from. I looked around for the person and saw no one.
“Are you okay?” I asked her.
She quickly nodded her head and dismissed me. “I’m okay, Tristan. Don’t worry about me. What are you doing here?” she asked.
“I’ve been looking for you all over to talk to you about something. I don’t know if you have time to listen to me,” I said to her.
She nodded in agreement. “I think I have enough time to listen to you. What is it about?”
I felt a little nervous bringing it up to her, especially as she was looking at me with so much anticipation in her eyes. I didn’t want to disappoint her or anything.
“It’s about us, Mia. We haven’t gotten a chance to talk about us for a very long time since the last time we talked, and I still can’t stop thinking about you.”
I thought she would be anticipating it, but she had a look of disappointment in her eyes, which actually broke my heart. I didn’t want to make her angry, so I didn’t ask why. However, I was hoping she would talk to me about it.
“I already told you about this, Tristan. You and I can’t be together. We can only be friends, and that’s all we are going to be. You should try to focus on your mate now, and you would actually find the good qualities in her,” she advised me.
But I didn’t want her advice. All I wanted was her-not her telling me who to be with.
“You can always find a good woman out there. My cousin is good, and you are already bonded together. This is an opportunity for you not to miss it,” she explained again.
But I couldn’t take it, and I got angry.
“I asked you about us, not for you to set me up with other people! Stop trying to push me to others! I only want to be with you!” I shouted at her.
Then I realized I had already done the damage. She moved back from me a little.
“I think you need time to process this, so I’m going to leave you alone for now. Let’s talk when you are calmer.”
I watched her walk away, but I couldn’t stop her because of what I did. I’m already ashamed of myself for yelling at her like that. How could I do this? It seemed like I lost my mind for a split second, and I didn’t understand what I was doing-all because I wanted to be with her.
I went back to my chambers and got something to drink. I don’t know how many times I ordered, but I got a lot of drinks and completely got myself drunk. I didn’t know what I was saying correctly. I kept hoping she would come and look for me, but nothing happened.
However, when I thought all hope was gone, someone came walking through the door.
It was her.
I couldn’t see her face clearly, but she came for me because she cared about me. She was shaking me and calling my name, but the only thing I could do was smile. Then I remembered how she rejected me, and I got angry.
I can’t let her pass me by again. I have to prove to her that I am worthy of her.
I grabbed her quickly and made her fall onto my lap. She struggled to free herself, but I didn’t let her go. I kissed her hard, thinking she would push me away, but she succumbed to me. It felt so easy, and I didn’t know what happened next.
….
The next day, I opened my eyes and found someone sleeping beside me. The events of yesterday started playing in my mind. I looked beside me to check if the person I saw was indeed Mia.
But I was wrong.
The moment I checked her face, it was none other than Mia’s cousin.
And not only did I force her to be with me, but when I checked the bed, I realized it was her first time. I almost lost my mind.
Then she opened her eyes with a smile. “You’re finally awake. I guess you and I have a lot to talk about now.”
“Daisy, I’m sorry. I didn’t know that it was you, and I didn’t mean to force you to do this,” I quickly apologized to her.
“Do you mean force me to do this? I did this on my own. You wouldn’t have been able to force me if I didn’t want to do it with you. I did it because you are my mate, and you needed me at that time,” she explained.
I didn’t know what to say as I looked at her. She’s a very strange person.
What am I going to do now that I have already done this?
I will have to take responsibility, especially since I’m her first.
And I was drunk yesterday.