Mia’s POV
I noticed pretty much that, for the past few days now, the brothers have been avoiding me. I’m not sure if they are avoiding and ignoring me on purpose or not. It’s not like I try to talk to them, but it seems a little bit disgusting to see them act like that.
But at the same time, thanks to their ignorance, I have been able to practice well enough and train myself. It doesn’t actually matter if they talk to me or not. I don’t need them around me-I can do everything on my own.
Since the incident a few days ago, too, I noticed that a lot of people seem to be avoiding me. Do they still think I’m a monster? Should I have died so they could have been able to prove that I’m not a monster who deserves to die?
I don’t care what they think. I don’t deserve to suffer like this. It’s not as if I’m the reason why they are all here. Someone tried to kill me, and they didn’t bother to give me some comfort. Rather, they think of accusing me of being a monster. It doesn’t matter to me anymore.
“Mia, what are you thinking about?” Daisy asked as she took a seat beside me.
I didn’t even know that she had already arrived. She’s looking dazzling today. Of course, she has a lot on her mind too. I haven’t seen Tristan these days, and I know she’s still having contact with him. Perhaps he’s still mad at me?
“It’s nothing serious. Are you done with your training?” I asked her.
She nodded in agreement. “Yes, I’m done with the training, and now I’m thinking of going somewhere to rest. By the way, I have a question to ask you about these pests always bothering you.”
“They’re not really pests, Daisy,” I said before I could realize what I had said.
She looked at me in confusion, and I was also confused with myself. Did I just defend them to her? That’s going to hurt her a lot-I should explain it to her immediately.
“Are you seriously defending them in front of me?”
“That’s not what I meant, Daisy… What I’m trying to say is-”
She laughed. “Look at you. You always get scared every time I say something. Why don’t you just yell back at me? It’s not going to hurt, you know.”
I sighed. “Sometimes I say things that hurt people, and I don’t know it, which is why I shouldn’t blame you if you get mad at me.”
Am I really in a bad mood because of them? Why should I even suffer like this when they should be the ones worrying like this?
“It’s okay. I actually noticed that they haven’t been bothering you for days. Could it be that they believe what that idiot said and think you’re a monster?” she asked me.
I shook my head. “I’m not sure what they believe, but whatever they believe, it’s going to be their fault and not mine.”
I hadn’t thought of the possibility before, but they could actually be running away from me, probably because this is what they think. I mean, they did ask me how I managed to survive that day, didn’t they? And I said it was none of their business. You know what? Things are better this way.
I don’t have to see them all the time and bother myself, so it’s better this way.
“I think it’s better they don’t come to see me. After all, they are not doing me any help but bothering me. They should just stay away from me till we leave this place,” I replied to her.
But it seemed like I was deceiving myself because, somehow, I was expecting them to come and bother me again. But no one came. Even when I bumped into them, they just looked at me and left. They didn’t say anything to me.
Why do I even want their attention? It’s one of the questions I keep asking myself. Am I completely losing my mind? Isn’t this what I’ve always wanted?
I made my way back to my room to get some rest.
Later in the evening, after dinner, I decided to go to my usual spot to sit down and look at the stars. I wasn’t expecting anyone to come beside me, but Xavier came.
I looked at him in confusion. “What the hell are you doing here?”
“I’m here to see you,” he replied, like he hadn’t been avoiding me for days.
I scoffed. “I beg your pardon? You’re here to see me? After you’ve been avoiding me for days? Why don’t you keep doing it? My life has been peaceful since then.”
I thought he would actually give me a better explanation, but he just continued to be annoying.
“Are you trying to say that you missed us bothering you these last few days?” he asked me, with hope in his eyes. But I quickly crushed it.
“There’s no way I would be waiting for you. Do you understand what I said? My life has been good without you people,” I replied to him harshly.
“That’s not what your eyes are saying, though.”
“Who the hell do you think you are to know what my eyes are saying? Silly. You don’t know how I feel, so don’t act like you know me,” I snapped at him.
However, I couldn’t stop myself from thinking about the night we spent together in the woods alone. Sitting with him right now makes me recall everything, and looking at his face in the moonlight makes him so handsome that I would have probably given in to him if I didn’t know him before.
“We spent the night in the woods together like this, alone, and we looked at the stars. At that time, do you also remember what happened back there?”
Is he referring to the kiss? I felt my cheeks burning the moment he mentioned it, but I quickly looked away. I don’t want him to see me-it’s quite embarrassing to think about it.
“I have no idea what you’re talking about. I saved your life, and that’s the only thing you should be thinking about,” I replied to him.
He suddenly grabbed my face to look at him. For a split second, I didn’t mind what he was doing as our eyes met. Somehow, it felt like he was bewitching me, and I was giving in to it without a fight.
“You know? I’ve missed your lips since that time.” His eyes wandered down to my lips.
Instead of pushing him away, I initiated the kiss this time around. Am I the one acting, or is it my wolf?