Ryan’s POV:
I sat on the bed, staring at Lexi while she knelt next to me with her gaze lowered to her lap. A few days had gone by, and I was waiting patiently for her to be ready to mate with me.
When she called me into her room, I had no idea what she wanted to talk about, but for some reason, I felt very nervous, and I could tell she was too.
“You wanted to talk to me, right?” I asked softly.
She looked up and nodded. “Yes, but for some reason, I feel embarrassed before even saying what I wanted to say,” she answered.
“Okay, then will it help if I turn and face the other side? That way, I won’t stare at your face when you speak?” I asked.
“Yes, that would really help,” she answered as I slowly turned and faced the other side.
“You can now tell me everything you want to say. Also, please don’t hold back,” I said.
A few seconds went by, then I felt the bed dip, and I heard her shift closer to me. I wanted to turn and look at her, but my wolf growled in warning to keep me in one place.
When her soft hand went on my back, tingles spread throughout my entire body, and I found myself closing my eyes and relaxing under her touch.
Her hand slid around my waist as she moved even closer, closing the space between us. I smirked when I felt her breasts pressing against my back and her warm breath touching my neck.
I remained still as her hand slowly began to unbutton my shirt. There was something about what she was doing that was slowly turning me on.
Once all the buttons were undone, she moved her hands to my shoulders and pulled off my shirt as I willingly let her.
I opened my eyes in time to see my shirt flying to the floor further in front of me.
She shifted her body from mine, and that made me sigh sadly. It almost sounded like a whine escaping my lips. I wanted to feel her warmth and body against my own.
“Lexi,” I called in a low tone.
“Shhh, just close your eyes,” she whispered before I heard the sound of rustling clothes.
I was becoming more conscious of her presence behind me, and that was making it hard for me to continue to be still, so I closed my eyes as she had ordered.
I took in a sharp breath when her body was pressed back on my back. This time I could feel her hard nipples and her warm skin against my own.
Her hands went to my arms, slowly caressing my skin, making me shiver in response.
What the hell was she doing? It was only making me feel impatient.
I was about to shift when I felt her warm lips kiss a certain spot at the side of my neck that made me groan and slightly tilt my head to encourage her to do it again.
She giggled, then kissed the spot again, this time grazing her teeth there as her breathing picked up.
I licked my dry lips and moved my hand to the bulge in my trousers as she licked that spot, arousing me.
Without thinking, I moved my hand to unzip my trousers. I couldn’t hold in my voice as I slid my hand through my boxers, pulling out my cock and wrapping my hand around my length.
As she kept on kissing her way down to my shoulder, I began jerking myself off, slowly moving my hand back and forth with my thumb rubbing against the tip.
What the fuck was this? What exactly was she doing to me?
Never had I ever experienced such a sensation before.
One of her hands went to my stomach, and that made me open my eyes.
When I felt her nails crawl on my skin slightly, the tip of my dick began getting wet with my precum.
I dropped my hand and turned quickly without warning to face her.
She had a stunned expression on her beautiful face because she wasn’t expecting me to react in such a way or disobey her.
“Did I do something wrong?” she asked in a concerned voice.
I lowered my gaze to her naked body, slowly taking in the fullness of her breasts, the width of her hips, and the slimness of her waist.
She was just perfect.
Without answering, I moved, pressing my hand against her neck and crushing my lips against hers as she responded instantly.
In just a second, I pushed her on the bed with me on top as I devoured her tongue to taste her entirely.
I had no idea how to handle her because Evan and I were different, and we preferred different ways of embracing women.
While he took his time pleasing a woman and giving her satisfaction, I usually turned to rush and selfishly preferred to release first.
I also loved to fuck hard, and never was there a day I made love. The more the sex hurt, the more I got turned on. But now, seeing how our mate was giving it her best to please me, I was hesitant about how to go about our intimate time together.
I pulled back and moved to the edge of the bed, sitting with a loud, heavy sigh.
“Ryan?” she called out, gasping for breath.
“I’m sorry,” I whispered, feeling sad.
She sat up and moved to my side. “What’s wrong?” she asked, concerned.
“In my life, I have always been selfish when it comes to my partners. I had no idea how to please and comfort them. All I knew and know is how to fuck. I cummed inside them to make them feel like trash, and I also left them all alone like they were some cheap slut after I was done, because cuddling was out of the question,” I said angrily, feeling a lump form in my throat.
“But I don’t want to treat you like that because you are the love of my life who I care for and adore,” I said softly, blinking back the forming tears.
“Then don’t,” she whispered, touching my hand.
I looked at her sadly, then shook my head.
“You don’t understand, Lexi. I don’t know how to handle you. I don’t know what to do,” I said honestly, and her expression softened.
I inhaled sharply when she moved and sat on my lap. “Ryan, let’s figure it out together,” she answered.
“How?” I asked, concerned.
She moved her hand and wrapped it around my cock, making me flinch. “By finding out what makes both of us happy and comfortable,” she answered.
“Then let go of my cock and relax,” I said.
She frowned but then dropped her hand and moved her arms around my shoulders as one of my hands went around her waist.
“Like this?” she asked.
Without answering, I leaned in and took her nipple in my mouth, sucking on it while my hand moved to her ass.
A soft sigh went past her lips as she moved her hands into my hair, gently rubbing her fingers on my scalp.
I moved my other hand to her thighs, rubbing them a few times before sliding it to her pussy, brushing my two fingers against her folds.
She was already wet and twitching without me even doing much, and that made me excited. It was like her own way of telling me how she was already surrendering to my every touch easily.
I moved my fingers and rubbed them against her clit, earning a low moan from her.
I looked up when she dropped her hands from my hair, only to find her with closed eyes and her head thrown back.
Although she was relying on my hand on her back, she was letting herself go to just feel my touch, and that made me very happy.
As I continued to gently brush and move my two fingers in a circular motion, her moans became louder. Her hands were now pressed on each of my knees to balance her position well.
As I did my best to please her, I leaned in and began kissing her collarbone, gently leaving a few bite marks on her skin.
“No,” her panting voice came. I pulled back from her and gazed into her eyes seriously while I stilled my hand. Did she not like what I was doing? That thought invaded my mind.
“Put them in,” she said seriously with a labored breath as I blinked a few times in astonishment.
“Please,” she whispered.
Without thinking twice, I thrust my two fingers into her wetness and began to finger her.
She immediately began to shift her hips, riding my fingers in a way that made my throat dry and my cock strain in pain.
I wanted to fuck her.
God damn it! I wanted to just force myself on her.
I couldn’t blink for a few minutes as I observed her every movement. It was the first time I was seeing such an erotic scene in front of my fucking face.
Her hair was pouring on her shoulders, and sweat was beginning to form against her chest. Her lips were slightly parted as she slowly inhaled and exhaled while her breasts jiggled with her every shift.
My mouth watered, and my heart was beating out of my chest.
“I can’t,” I whispered huskily, then pulled out my fingers, making her look at me in a frowned daze.
I moved my fingers to my mouth and sucked on one to taste her better with a smirk.
“I’ll be damned if I keep watching you like this. Moreover, you can’t be riding my fingers when you have this,” I said as I dropped my hand and touched my length.
“I want it,” her pleading voice came.
“Then ride it,” I ordered, and with those words, she moved into a kneeling position and grabbed my length, carefully positioning it at her entrance.
When she slowly began to descend, taking me in, I groaned loudly and threw my head back, with my hand still on her thigh.
I bit my lower lip when she began to move the way she wanted to, without my concern.
In only a second, I found myself lying flat on the bed as she worked her hips slowly, satisfying me and putting me on the verge of cumming.
It was a new experience and a door opening to what true pleasure felt like.