CHAPTER 111.
Mirabelle’s POV.
The room was tense, each second felt like a year as I sat there, staring at Noah’s bloodshot eyes. He looked hurt, exhausted, and furious all at once.
I honestly didn’t know where to start the apology from.
“Answer me Mira.” he repeated, his voice now eerily calm. That calmness frightened me more than the shouting had. “Am I not supposed to be your husband? The one person you trust enough to talk to?”
“You are, Noah.” I whispered, my voice trembling. “I was scared, I didn’t want to hurt you.”
“Hurt me?” He laughed bitterly, running his hands through his hair. “That’s an understatement and we both know that. You didn’t want to hurt me, yet you kissed the one person that has sabotaged me my whole life, that I’ve spent my whole life despising. That hurt you by cheating on you with your sister, do you even understand what you’ve done?”
Tears streamed down my face, “I made a mistake, a terrible one. I wasn’t thinking straight Noah.”
“Please….”
“You weren’t thinking straight? Do you even hear yourself?” He cut me off, his tone sharp. “When you married me, you made a vow, a vow to be honest and to be faithful. Did that mean nothing to you at all?”
“I swear, you know I love you with everything that is within me. I swear to you, but I was just scared ande. goimg there, I had no ulterior motive. You of all people know that I hate him with my whole being after what he did to me, but business brought us to the same room again and that was what I went to talk to him about. I swear to you.”
“But somehow, you guys ended up locking lips?”
“I love you Noah. You’re my everything.”
“Your everything?” he scoffed, pacing the room. “Was I your everything when you let him touch you? To the point of kissing you? How sure am I that something else didn’t happen that night that I didn’t know of?”
“That’s not fair Noah. You know I will never do that, it was just moment of weakness, after I heard the phone call, and I thought you were the one on the call, my whole world shattered Noah, it felt like I couldn’t breathe and it felt like what we have been building for the past five years wasn’t worth shit to you and it scared me. The impulsiveness I had within me was what made that kiss happen.”
I wiped a stray tear off my cheek.
“I thought, if you could say that about me, why can’t I do something that will hurt you too? Since you didn’t want me. I swear the voice was your own exactly. The person clearly said that I didn’t mean anything to them and they wanted to ruin me. The kiss didn’t even take up to a thirty seconds and I pushed him away. I promise you.” I added.
Wanting to say anything that will make him believe that the kiss didn’t mean anything because In reality, the kiss didn’t mean anything to me. I have my kids and my husband and that’s all I’ve ever wanted for real.
“And you couldn’t come to me for clarity? That’s what couples do Mira, they talk things out. You could have talked to me and we would have talked like two adults and right there, you would have known that Natasha had the whole thing set up, but no, instead you ran into the arms of the man who’s been trying to ruin me for years. The same man who tried to ruin you. You didn’t just betray me Mira, you betrayed us, our family.”
He still called me Mira.
I was hanging on to the last thread right now and I didn’t care if I looked desperate.
“Did you even know that he was the one behind your ship sinking? Did you know that he came to cohorts with Natasha to make that happen? Probably so he can make you run to him for comfort, and guess what you did? I guess he knew you well afterall.” He said and his words were like a slap to my face.
“But that’s not possible Noah, Ken and I, it was our money on that ship, months of investment and other things an….”
“And you’re still defending him.” Noah said with a scoff.
“Baby, it’s not like that. I’m just not sure why he would want to waste his own money. We are talking million of dollars.” I said, trying to understand how far Ken was willing to go.
“That’s the whole fucking point Mira. Ken will go to the ends of the earth to make me miserable. And he succeeded with this one.”
“No baby, please don’t say that. He didn’t succeed with an….”
“Are you sure about that?” He cut me off, a pained look on his features. I would never have guessed in my life that I would be the one to hurt him like this.
It took a whole for me to commit my feelings to Noah totally because I was so fucking scared of what he would do with them. And he hasn’t made me regret it ever since I did, but who would have guessed that I would be the one that would hurt his feelings like this? I don’t think there’s any difference between I and Natasha right now.
I can’t even bring myself to think of Ken right now. My family and whole life was at stake and I had to sort that out first.
Oh lord.
“I’m so sorry Noah. Please forgive me, I’m so sorry for hurting you and making you feel like this.” I said, tears streaming down my face.
He looked at me with a sad smile and suddenly, I knew something was coming. I didn’t like that smile, one bit.
“Noah….”
“I know you’re sorry, that’s the fucked up part. I know, I just….” He trailed off, his hands finding its way into his jet-black curls.
I was dreading the next words that were about to come out of his mouth would be abuse but somehow, I knew they would be my end.
“Noah let’s talk abo…..”
“Let’s a get a divorce, Mirabelle.”