Mavericks POV
It felt good, so fucking good. I have never been sucked this God by any girl, not even the whores in the club can suck me this good. At first, I was having fun, letting her pleasure me as much as I’d just pleasured her, then it clicked in my head that she is doing this so perfectly, it was just too good for it to be her first. I couldn’t help imagining her with other guys as she sucks their dick just as she’s sticking mine. I can’t even imagine how many guys she has been with, the thought of it pisses me off, I feel like going after them one by one, I just can’t stand that thought.
I should not be this angry, I have no right to judge her or get mad at her for something she may or may not have done in the past. I’m the last person to judge her, I fool around a lot of girls, and I have a fucking fiancee that she knows about, yet she never pushed me away or hold me accountable for my actions. What the hell is wrong with me?
“Are you going to tell me why you are acting like a fucking asshole?” she requested angrily when I got out of the restroom. I’m dripping wet with water from the shower, I have a towel wrapped around my hips, but it’s not enough to get rid of all water. I ignored her questions as I reached into the wardrobe to get a towel.
“Goddamit!
Who moved all the clean towels out of this room?” I demanded furiously, hitting my foot against the wardrobe door in anger. I don’t even know why I’m getting so upset because of a towel. It seems I’m losing it already, first I’d snapped at Val for no reason at all, and now I’m getting furious because the cleaner moved some towels out of my room. Common sense should have told me that the towels were given to the new guys that I employed recently. But I wasn’t thinking straight, I guess keeping my mate by my side is way harder than I thought it would be, or could this be an effect of the curse?
I had this urge to be with her, when I found my wolf, I was so excited to meet him, and when I discovered she was my mate, my excitement increased and I dreamed of a time when we would finally be together. Not in my wildest dreams would I have thought that I would get irritated by my may on our first night together. It seems strange and stupid. I don’t even want to look at her, I have this urge to look into her eyes and admire her natural beauty, but a bigger part of me wanted nothing to do with her. It could almost feel as if I hate her or something.
But how could this be possible?
I’ve been with a lot of girls that I never liked including Cameron. I screwed them as often as I wanted to, and even if I don’t feel bonded with them, I still don’t hate them at all. Now I’ve finally found my one true mate from the moon goddess, now I’ve finally found a girl that makes my heart beat faster than normal, and instead of loving and adoring her, I’m busy judging and hating her?
Nah, something is not right…
It’s just weird…
So fucking weird…
“Everything is going to be alright, Marv. I totally understand,” she let out calmly, taking me by surprise. I didn’t know when she stood up from the bed and walked toward me, putting her arms around my hips.
“Go to bed, Val. I want to…”
“What?
Tell me, Mav, what do you want to do?
You want to back me up against the wall and fuck me, or do you still want to live your life with a curse weighing you down and making decisions for you?” she inquired. And as she spoke, she pulled the towel off my waist and helped me dry my body with it. I gazed into her eyes, and all I saw was warmth and love. She is such a beautiful soul, I can’t believe that she is not pissed at me for what I just did to her. I practically rejected her and called her a whore, yet she wasn’t offended by my words.
“Why are you still being nice to me?” I asked her calmly, pulling her into my arms once more.
“Because you are still affected by the curse, Marv. You have your wolf and you have your mate by your side as well. But that doesn’t automatically make you immune to the cure. The moon goddess placed that curse in anger, and until we break that curse, you would still be affected by it, just like every other werewolf. It’s only going to be a bit different this time because you have your wolf, and you have me, my love. I would help you pull through, and after a while, I’m sure you would get rid of this feeling of hatred and disgust that you feel for me.
I’m not going anywhere, Marv, curse or no curse, I’m going to stand by you until we find a way to break this curse and free everyone. I believe that when this curse is broken, King Gerald won’t have any need for me. He would accept his fate and back down immediately. Then my sister and Liam would have nothing to do with me as well. My secret will be out, and there will be no need for me to hide from them or anyone else ever again.” She let out cheerfully, smiling at me. We were standing nude in front of the wardrobe, she had my towel in her hand and my dick is getting harder by the second, responding to her proximity.
“How do you know all this?” I inquired.
“Malia, she told me. I was getting upset and bi wanted to leave this place and go far away from you. But she wouldn’t let me. She said you were reacting to the curse and you need me to stay calm and help you pull through this stage. Did I help, are you feeling better?” she asked in the same happy tone, sounding overly excited.
“Yes, sugar. You helped a lot, I feel better now and I’m glad you understand that I never meant what I said about you being with other guys. I would never judge…”
“Yes, you did, Maverick, you meant every fucking word you said to me. You see, the curse only made you furious, angry, and jealous. It didn’t put the words in your mouth, my love. Those were your words, and that is exactly what you think in your heart, that is what you feel about me, Mav.
And if it helps, I want you to know that you are wrong about me, I’ve never done that before, not even with Liam or the guys in the club. I’m not a cheap whore, I don’t go about sucking cocks and fucking every guy I meet. And the next time you say such words to me, I’ll fucking kick you in your fucking balls!” she threatens angrily, whilst retaining the smile on her face.
“Fuck, Val!
That is so sexy!
I love it when you threaten me and talk dirty, it’s so adorable.” I teased her, earning a smirk.
“Accuse me falsely again, and I’ll shove my adorable foot up your ass, and…” I kissed her to silence her. Damn, she looks so sexy right now and it’s making me so horny.
“You do realize that we are both standing naked, and I can easily have my way with you, right?”
“Yeah, but I know you won’t do it. Tonight is not the wolf moon night, don’t jinx it,” she retorts teasingly, then she turned around and walked into the bathroom to shower and prepare for bed. I wish we had taken this shower together, it would have been more fun. I think I believe her when she said she hasn’t tried that with anyone before. I guess she was right, after all, the cause of the moon goddess is kicking against our bond, I hope I’m strong enough to pull through. We have a few weeks left before the appearance of the wolf moon. I hope I don’t push her away before then.
She came out and lay beside me, throwing her hands against my chest. I should find this attractive, this is all I’ve ever dreamed of, It’s all I ever wanted and I wanted to pull her closer to me, I want to cuddle her till dawn and bask in her warmth, but I couldn’t do it. I felt that same disgust and hatred, I had to force myself to give her a kiss on her forehead,
“Sweet dreams, baby girl. I’ll see you in the morning,
“Wait, what?
Why, Mav, is it because of me again, am I making you uncomfortable?” she inquired.
“No, sugar. I just have a few things I need to handle before morning. I need to make sure the guys I sent to Liam’s Laboratory are okay, and I need to know what is going on with Liam and your siblings. Don’t worry, my love, I’ll be downstairs and I will come back to you as soon as possible,” I lied with a straight face, smiling warmly as I tucked her in bed and dropped a peck on her forehead. I don’t want to lie to her, I fucking hate it when I keep secrets from her, but how on earth do I tell her that I can’t bear to lie on the same bed with her without hating her for invading my space.
You see?
The truth sounds worse, so it’s best to stick to my lies and hope I don’t get caught. I let her sleep alone, while I turned around and headed down the stairs with my phone and laptop in my hand. Could you believe that soon as I stepped out of that door, I started missing her once more?
“What the fuck is wrong with you, man?
How are we supposed to be with her and show her how much we adore her?
How do you expect me to prove to her that I’m not a fucking asshole when I can’t even look her in the eyes?
Why do you keep acting like a fucking sissy, why can’t you do something to help my condition?
For fucks sake, she is our mate, is she not?
So why can’t we be with her, why do we have to leave her all alone when we can comfortably be with her in that room and cuddle her to sleep. Are we too weak to protect our mate, are we too weak to break this curse?
If we cannot fight this curse and be with our mate, how the hell are we going to save everyone from the damn curse, Hunter. Why can’t you fucking do something?
In case you don’t remember who you are, I’m going to remind you, Hunter, that you are not just an Alpha, you are the Alpha of Alphas, you are the king of all wolves and you possess the power to break any spell or curse. You just have to dig within yourself and reconnect with your feral beast. I need you, Hunter, I don’t want to hurt her anymore, I just can’t stand it.” I complained bitterly to my wolf who seems to be as weak and frustrated as I was. I just came out of the room, but I didn’t go down the stairs like I intended to, I stood outside the door, leaning against the wall, whining and complaining to Hunter. At first, I thought he was ignoring me on purpose and I was getting more upset, but then I heard his calm voice in my head, assuring me,
“I know who I am, I would never abandon you or my people. When the time is right, everything is going to be fine, I promise.”
He went silent after saying this, but somehow, I felt motivated by his words, it felt as if he pumped more energy into me, and I felt stronger and more powerful. I wonder where he was keeping all this energy and why he did not recharge my battery when I needed to make out with Val.
“Did you do this on purpose, are you trying to stop me from screwing her?” I asked him, but there was no response from him, just an annoying chuckle in my head that tells me that he knows exactly what is going on and that he is enjoying my frustration even. These damned wolves, they must be punishing me on purpose. What in the world did I ever do to deserve such treatment?