Still Arabella’s POV
I realized that my screaming and shouting was not helping at all, if anything, it was making her feel more guilty and ashamed of herself.
She must think that I hate her for it. She thinks she has betrayed my trust. But the truth is, I don’t feel that way at all. I don’t hate her for it, I can never hate her, even if I tried to.
“Do I feel disappointed?
yes, I am disappointed because of the way she chose to handle the situation. She decided to avoid me, instead of telling me the truth.
Am I angry with my best friend?
yes, I am so mad at her. I am angry at the fact that she did not trust me with her feelings, she did not trust me enough to share her feelings with me.
That is so disappointing and annoying.
“How long have you been in love with Declan and Why didn’t you tell me Debs?” I asked her a bit calmly, after taking a few minutes to calm myself.
“Am sorry Bells, I never thought I would feel this way about him. I’ve loved Declan since the day I met you both at the fundraiser. I know I couldn’t have him so I let it go.
Believe me, I was so happy to see you two together, since I couldn’t have him, I was content in watching you two together. It brought me so much joy to know that he is in good hands, in the hands of my best friend.
I felt so bad when you threw him away like garbage. It felt like you never valued him in your life, and I hated you for it because he doesn’t deserve it. It felt so bad Bells, If only he had chosen to be with me, I would never have treated him that way.
I would love him with everything I’ve got, I would treat him like a king and I would never leave him for another guy, never.” she said sadly as a drop of tears spilled out of her eyes, flowing down her cheeks.
As she spoke of her feelings for Declan, I discovered that it was exactly how I feel about Michael. I would also feel this way if someone hurts him in my presence. I know all about rejection, I’ve had to endure it twice and I can tell you for a fact that it is not a good feeling.
I wouldn’t want Declan to feel rejected. He is still my friend and I love him so much although we cannot be together as lovers. I think I have a way to make it easier for him to forget me. Luckily he has a secret admirer so I only need a perfect scheme that would bring them together.
“If you love him like you claim you do, what’s stopping you from being with him now that I am no longer with him?
Am now out of the way, so what’s stopping you?” I asked again.
“Don’t mock me, Arabella. You and I know that he has never looked at me like he looks at you. He has always seen me as a friend, nothing more. Am I supposed to force myself on him?
That would be very pathetic, you know.”
“Oh, shut up already. You’re just being a chicken. Do you want to know what’s going to be pathetic?
Watching the sad sorrowful look on your face when he finally finds another girlfriend. That’s what’s going to be pathetic.” I scolded her fiercely, telling her the hard truth.
She glared at me angrily, hating the harsh words I just used on her. After glaring at me for some minutes, she simply shrugged off my words and went back to her work, acting busy and nonchalant.
“What are you doing??” she asked me when I dialed a number on my phone and put it on speaker so she could hear our conversation. I gave her a mischievous smile, smirking as I turned my attention to my phone. After a few rings, Declan’s voice came booming out of the receiver. He sounded so worried and agitated,
“Hey babe, I’ve been trying to reach you since yesterday, what’s happening over there?”
“Dec, am so sorry but there’s something I’ve been meaning to tell you, I just can’t bear to lie to your face anymore. Am in love with someone else Dec. He’s the same guy that ruined our dinner the other day. Am sorry I lied that day, I just didn’t want to hurt you but I can’t keep lying anymore. I love him Dec, I love him so much. It’s him I want to be with, not you. I know it’s wrong to be breaking up with you on the phone, but I just have to do it now before I Chicken out again.” I said in the nicest way possible.
“No. No, my love, you can’t be saying that. He’s making you say those hateful words to me. I saw how furious he was the other day, he’s forcing you to break up with me, I know it.
Am coming for you my love, I’ll make him pay for daring to separate us, he has no idea who he’s messing with. He’ll be sorry, I’ll fucking kill him. I’ll kill him.” he threatened furiously making me want to laugh at his ignorance. If only he knows that it would take little to nothing for Michael to snap his neck and rip off his head from his shoulders.
“He’s not making me do it Dec, I love him, more than you can ever imagine. I’ve never really loved you Dec, I could never love you because Michael is the only man for me. You have to accept it and move on Dec, it’s what I want.” I said resolutely, clearing all doubts from his mind.
“Is really what you want Bella, you really want to leave me for that, that guy? Compared to me, he’s a nobody. He has no backing, he is nothing.” he spat out in disgust.
“Please Declan, let’s not let this come between our friendship. I love Michael and I want to be with him, please don’t make an issue out of it. I still want to keep our friendship, but you and Debbie are just making it so difficult for me. She doesn’t like Michael and I just don’t know why. Could you please help me talk to her?
She always listens to you, You have to help me convince her to accept my relationship with Michael, please Declan, am counting on you. You’re both my friends and I need your support in this, please Dec.” I pleaded softly, sounding a little bit pathetic, trying to garner his sympathy. Then I hung up quickly before he could refute or reject my plea.
Pretty mean right?
I know what you’re thinking. You think am mean for asking him to help me just after breaking up with him, right?
Yeah, I know. I also think am being mean, but don’t blame me, that’s the only plan I could come up with that would bring them together. Who knows, maybe if they spend time together, he may finally notice her, or she might finally develop the nerves to tell how she feels about him, or fate would bring them together.
Don’t get your hopes high people, I said maybe, just maybe. She may chicken out again or she could even avoid him completely, that’s how crazy Debbie can be. But, at least I’ll be glad to know that I tried my best to get my two friends together.
I could see the smiles on Celine and Josephine’s faces. They seem to approve of what I just did. I know that they would have done the same thing for their friends if they find themselves in this same situation. But Debbie doesn’t look happy about it. She’s glaring so furiously at me.
“Why would you do something like that? Isn’t it obvious that he is not interested in me in a romantic way?” she asked me in anger, sounding so pissed that I had to wonder if she really want to be with this guy at all.
I mean, I just made it so damn easy for her to get close to this guy. She should be happy, thanking me, not sounding so pissed off.
Damn!
Am beginning to lose it because I don’t really know what she wants. What am I doing wrong? Why the hell is she still sounding so pissed off.
“Alright Debs, am sending him your way. You can either claim him or push him into the arms of those swimsuit models. Trust me, you’re going to be so miserable if you let him slip through your fingers again.” I said softly, going over to sit on the table right in front of her.
“I appreciate your help Bells, but I don’t want your leftovers. He didn’t want me then, why would he want me now? I don’t think I can bear to be his rebound. I’ll just get over my feelings for him and move on with my life.” she said dismissively, leaving no room for arguments.
This is going to be harder than I thought. How can she refer to Declan was my leftovers?
I just can’t believe her right now. I guess I’ll have to let her be for now. She is still too upset to move on. I’ll just try again later. Trust me, I ain’t giving up on the idea of getting them together. I don’t care how long it take me to do it, but I’ll definitely get it done.
Right now, I’ll just go check on my handsome prince and see what he’s been up to. Don’t act so surprised, I told you didn’t I?
I told you that I just can’t bear to stay away from him for even a second and it’s just so crazy.