Jace’s POV
I was woken up by a cold hand on my chest. I blinked a few times and then smiled when my eyes met Lillian’s. She looked a lot better than I had thought she would, and that was a relief for me because hangovers were a very terrible thing to experience.
Last night, I swore to sleep as early as I could, but I ended up staying up all night counting stars and looking at her, contemplating whether to take her in her sleep or not. It was already morning when I decided to sleep, but then I was woken up by her.
It’s not that I was complaining; looking at her made me feel refreshed.
“How long was I out?” I asked Ridge.
“A few minutes,” he responded.
“Shit,” I whispered and then smiled widely.
“Morning,” I said huskily and then brushed my hand through her hair.
She smiled back and then got on top of me, startling me.
“Morning to you too,” she answered softly and then caressed my cheek as I tensed and held in my breath.
What! What’s going on? I screamed in my mind and was about to ask when she leaned in and kissed me lightly.
She was about to pull back when I moved my hand to the back of her neck and leaned forward, kissing her back deeply. As she moved her hands to my cheeks, she slowly sucked on my tongue desperately. I didn’t want to scare her in any way by acting rough because, despite taking the lead, she was still a virgin who was doing her best to please me. Yet, her provoking me at the same time was doing me no good.
She pulled back breathlessly and pushed me flat on the bed, her cheeks flushed and her eyes fixed on my lips.
I swallowed hard and tried to ignore the fact that I was beginning to get excited.
“You are naked, why?” She asked in a small voice.
Once I had given her a message, I went on to lay next to her and give her a kiss. But then she fell asleep while using my arm as her body pillow. I couldn’t move and afford to wake her up, that’s why I chose to stay like that. After all, it wasn’t the first or second time for me to sleep and rest naked or half-naked.
“Because I wanted you to wake up and eat me up,” I answered playfully, then widened my eyes when she leaned in and kissed my neck as I smirked.
Her kisses were slightly tingling, but when she brushed her tongue against a certain spot, I bit my lower lip, refusing to let out a moan.
Damn! She was beginning to really arouse me.
She sat upright and smiled. That’s when I saw that she was in a white robe that wasn’t tied. Everything was showing, and for a second, I felt my heart stop. Her hair was pouring down her shoulders, and when she brushed her fingertips against my abs, my heart began to beat rapidly.
“What are you doing?” I asked huskily in a voice that sounded nothing like my own.
She shifted and then turned, giving her back to me.
“Eating you up,” she answered as I chuckled nervously.
“She is joking, right?” I asked myself silently, then cursed when she leaned forward, showing her ass.
“Are you trying to make me go crazy?” I asked loudly while I looked at her firm ass, which was very close to my face.
“Maybe,” she answered and then rubbed the tip of my cock with her thumb as I groaned in approval.
No way! We can’t do this unless you are ready! Yes, touch me more now! Those were the only things that were going through my mind. I felt so torn between decisions.
When she began to swirl and move it gently, all reason left me, and the only thing I could think of was how I wanted her to continue, and that made me sigh in relief.
“That’s it, that’s exactly what I want, more,” I said when I felt her warm hand wrapped around my cock.
“Move your hand and add a little pressure on it,” I ordered seriously, not giving a damn if I came off as demanding and messed up.
“Okay,” she answered in a low tone and then began stroking a little harder, making me feel good.
“Just like that,” I whispered as my breath began to become labored the more she worked her hand. I was dying to have her do so much more, but then it would only make me selfish because I was the one who was supposed to please her.
I moved my hands, gripping her ass. When she stopped moving her hand, I wanted to sit upright and ask why, but she spoke.
“Stay still and close your eyes,” she instructed.
Was she seriously telling me that when I was losing my mind?
I wanted to hesitate but decided to do as she had ordered. I dropped my hands and closed my eyes.
Was she about to move her hand again? If yes, then I was more than ready. I was hoping for her to use her mouth.
I smiled when I felt her move and then relaxed, but when my dick nudged against her entrance, I quickly opened my eyes.
“No!” I exclaimed as she slowly began taking me in. I wanted to sit upright but couldn’t when her eyes turned to that of her wolf.
“Stay still!” This time her command made my body freeze in one place.
“Stop, please,” I pleaded seriously.
Her facial expression said it all; she was in pain. Although she was wet, I hadn’t touched her or stretched her out in any way. She wasn’t that aroused to take me in easily; she would only experience pain.
“Stay still!” She said at the top of her voice when I moved my hand, struggling to push past her command.
She closed her eyes and moved her hips down, taking me in with a loud cry as a tear rolled down her cheek. My heart ached at the sight of her and how she looked.
Seeing more tears run down her cheeks brought pain to my heart.
“See, it wasn’t that hard to do,” she said softly when she opened her eyes.
Tears filled my eyes as I tried to understand why she was doing this. Was she scared that I would never lay a hand on her? Or did she think I would go back to my old ways? Did she not trust me enough?
“Release me,” I whispered as she shook her head.
“I won’t push you away, I promise,” I pleaded.
“No, you will get soft and then… You won’t hold me… Again,” she whispered.
“Again?” I asked in disbelief.
“In my dreams, you hated the sight of me and you couldn’t touch me. You were acting as you are doing right now!” She screamed furiously.
“This pain is nothing compared to the pain I went through. Me marking you is the only way I could assure us that you will be next to us. I am so scared,” she cried as I kept quiet.
“Ridge,” I called silently as he partially took over and wrapped our arms around her, flipping her under us.
“No, don’t pull out!” She yelled in a panicked voice as Ridge gave me back full control.
“Shhh,” I whispered then rested my forehead against hers.
“I won’t pull out, I will hold you. So please be at ease, I swear it on my life,” I whispered honestly hoping she would calm down.
Her breathing was heavy, and her body was slightly trembling as I stilled my movements, waiting for her to be a little more comfortable with me inside of her.
“I will never leave you, ever,” I whispered over and over again as a few minutes went by.
When her hand touched my cheek, I smiled at her.
“Then, kiss me,” she said in a cracked voice.
I leaned in, capturing her tender lips with mine in a deep, invoking kiss, repeating exactly what she had done to me. I sucked her tongue slowly while my hand went to her breast, stroking her nipple gently and giving it a hard squeeze, making her moan between the kisses.
I pulled back and kissed her collarbone gently as I slowly began to move and thrust.
“Kiss me,” she whispered as her voice broke. She sounded as if she was in a lot of pain, and I hated my will to go against her request.
“I’m sorry that you are in so much pain,” I whispered and then kissed her while my hand caressed her body as I moved.