The car drives out of the compound and I watch Christian walk into his entry, not turning back even once.
My vision got blurry, but eagerly, I cleaned the tears away from my eyes still waiting to see if he would turn, even though to take a peek at the car leaving, the security door opens and he passes through, immediately it shuts, I felt my heart snap from its place and drop into my guts.
“No… This can’t be happening” I cried.
Pulling my phone out of my purse, I sent Larissa a quick text.
“I need you” I texted and immediately it got delivered, I saw the read receipts. My phone started vibrating on my lap as she was ceiling.
“Larisa… ” I cried into the phone, my voice was weak and throaty from all the moaning I had done earlier.
“Jenna, where are you?” Larissa yelled at the top of her lungs. Jenna answer me!” She shouted.
“I.. I’m in a car, I’m going home but I can’t Larissa, I can’t breathe ” I cried.
“I’ll meet you there ” she said and I could hear her moving around.
“My parents are really snoopy, they’ll give us zero privacy, I can’t…”
“Come over to my house babe ” she said and I nodded even if I knew that she wouldn’t see me.
“That fucking bastard ” I heard her curse from the other end, I didn’t need to tell her who was responsible for my tears. Christian, she already knew.
“Do you want me to stay on the line till you reach here babe?” She asked.
“No, I’ll be fine” I told her, I could already picture her nodding.
“Okay babe, come over, we’ll have ice cream and wine and tequila, whatever we fucking want” she said trying to cheer me up.
I tapped the driver.
“Please take meto this location” I told him showing him the screen.
“I’m sorry miss, but I can’t not do that ” the driver said curtly.
“Why?” I asked him in shock.
“I’m just following orders miss. I was ordered to take you no where but your house”the driver said.
“That’s not true, Christian don’t tell you anything while we were standing beside the car, I was there. He said nothing about where to take me” I told him.
He was quiet, he pulled out his phone and with one hand on the steering and one on the screen, he pulled up the text that came some minutes ago from Christian, his boss.
‘Take her directly, make sure you see her walk through the door and wait in front of the house for some minutes before you drive out. If she insists on going anywhere else, lock the doors of the car and just drive her home ‘
I scoffed.
“He doesn’t own me” I yelled. “Text him right now, tell him that I can go wherever the fuck he is, he straight up rejected me, teased me and chased me out of his house, now he thinks he can make decisions in my life.
“Miss please give me back my phone, you’ll make me loose my job and my life” the driver said trying to reach backwards and grab if from me.
I would not let him.
Instead of letting the drive take his phone, I texted back.
“‘I am so over you UNCLE!!’ I texted him making sure that I highlighted the uncle and hit the send button.
After I had sent the message, a new wave of sadness hit me and fresh tears started coming out, I cried because it was a lie, I was done for it because I was not even in the slightest way, less attracted to him.
“He has seen it” the driver said in fear.
He drove me home, it was extra late. I pushed the door open and my mother’s head turned around.
She was sitting on the couch.
“Jenna” she said and her eyes fell on my dress.
“Where the hell are you coming from dressed like that!” She yelled.
“Please mum, not to now ” I told her climbing the stairs, I could feel her eyes on me as made in to the landing.
I walked to the window and looked out to the front of the house, the car was still there.
I gave it time, three minutes I stood there waiting before the driver decided it was enough time.
“Mum, I’m walking going over to Larissa’s ” I told her walking out.
“Not dressed like a white” she snapped but before she could even stop me, I was out.
I was an adult, wasn’t?
“Jenna, come back here!” I heard my mother’s voice yell, I turned back to see that she had come out of the house.
“I’m not a kid, stop hovering around me like a hawk, hover your fucking bloodyrass” I yell at her, I was typsy from wine, I would probably regret saying this by tomorrow, but now, I had no frigging filter.
My mum’s body was stiff like an ice sculpture.
“I’m not a kid, I can make my own decisions, I swear I’m moving out soon and fuck you for always telling me what to do” I yell and I turned around walking off.
I booked a ride and when I got to Larissa’s house, there were different bottles of vodka sitting on her bar, different kinds of spirits that would knock the shit out of me.
When her eyes fell on me, tears slipped through like they were flowing from a fountain.
She hugged me tight and I buried my face in her neck, my body shook violently.
“Don’t worry girl, we’re gonna get you a guy who would treat you like the queen you are, but for now tell me all that happened while we drink our fucking tits out”
I told her everything, not even leaving the slightest details.
“Not what I was expecting… But he’s an asshole, your concerns were valid. How could he be asking for a relationship when your parents and the world would frown at you if it comes out in the open, everyone would be disgusted by the both of you”
“Larissa poured me another cup and threw the empty bottle in the trash but I heard it crash on the floor, she giggled too drunk to even see that she had been crashing bottles on the floor and leaving the place boobie trapped. Someone could bleed to death by just walking around Larissa’s bar.
She hugged me and we stumbled to her bedroom.
“Jenna, I know a guy, he’ll be great for you” we’re the last words Larissa slurred.