He made me sit on the edge of the bathub while he filled it with water.
I closed my eyes, just trying to escape all this. There silence all around except for the soft sound of running water. Closing my eyes only intensified the chaos, making it impossible to fine the peace I so desperately needed and used to get inside me earlier.
This is all because of the things I did yesterday.
Suddenly I felt a presence beside me, which made me open my eyes and I found Ansell giving me toothbrush.
Hesitantly, I took it from him because I needed it. He turned around while brushing his teeth and checked the temperature of the water before adding rose essence, which began to infuse the room with its sweet fragrance.
Slowly, I stood up, and the way to the washbasin felt very long and difficult. My legs were wobbling and I could still feel the sitting in between my thighs.
A loud gasp escaped my lips when I saw my reflection in the mirror. It was definitely not the girl that I knew. I could see that my eyes were now empty, void of the spirit of which I was so proud.
The echoes of the moans from last night resonated within me, memories I wished to forget. My eyes squeezed shut, averting my own gaze in the mirror. I struggled through brushing my teeth and rising my mouth, all the while acutely aware of his presence behind me.
Stepping aside, I let him take his turn at the basin. My eyes wandered around the room, taking in the romantic touches he had added once again: soft music, scented candles, and rose fragrance. But none of these things held any appeal to me. They were mere decorations in a situation I had never asked for, and their presence only heightened the discomfort I felt.
They say that the world’s luxuries are nothing if you are not happy on the inside and now I can feel it.
Suddenly, he grabbed my hand on e again and led me toward the bathub, which must have looked tempting to him.
He dipped his feet into it before stepping inside and sitting on one side. He waited for me to join him but I couldn’t muster enough courage. His hand reached out for the duvet I was still holding to my chest and with a violent yank, he pulled it off my body, which propelled me forward but I took hold of my balance on time. He left me exposed and vulnerable once again.
“Enough of your drama” he seethed in frustration. “There is nothing that I haven’t seen now”
His impatience was clear as he threw away the duvet and reached for me, his fingers closing around my wrist, and he pulled me towards him with an abrupt force.
Because of the sudden tug, I fell on his chest, my thigh dug into the edge of the bathub but it didn’t hurt.
In an attempt to get myself free from him, my legs, which were dangling outside the bathub, were dragged inside, and my body fell into the water with a loud splash.
I lost my balance completely and there was nothing that I could hold. I was sure that I was going to slip into the water when his arms swooped around me, encasing me in his firm embrace, and he held my body against his chest as if I were a baby.
My heart was thumping loudly in my chest with all the apprehensions and I was taking deep, harsh, audible breaths. My ear resting on his chest could hear his heartbeats.
After a few seconds, when I calmed down, I looked up, only to find him already staring down at me.
“As I said, no one could hurt you expect me” I could feel his chest vibrating as he chuckled in amusement but I didn’t find anything funny here.
With soft gentleness, he turned me around and made me sit in between his thighs. The tenderness with which he was treating me at the moment was in complete contrast to his real self. While his tender actions might have momentarily distracted him from his darker intentions, I couldn’t let myself be lulled into a false sense of security.
He pulled my body back to his chest and rested himself against the bathub. I could hear him moaning as he relaxed and the water brushed against our skin.
I moved slightly to keep a distance from us, only for the devil to speak from behind.
“If you don’t want to arouse the beast in me, then relax, sit back, and enjoy the moment with me” he grumbled.
His words, a veiled warning beneath their surface, held a power that made my body obey without question, making it stop moving altogether.
“At least don’t ruin if for me”
I let out a sigh, somewhere between frustration and resignation, and settled back against him, finding myself giving in to the moment. The water lapped gently against our skin, and his body’s warmth seeped into mine, creating a cocoon of sorts that left me feeling oddly protected, despite the circumstances.
In spite of the turmoil inside me, the soft music that was playing in the background created n environment of calmness. The water moved around as he shifted his body slightly.
The warm water touched my muscles, relaxing them, washing away the dirt, and helping to soothe the ache of my body.
Without even turning back, I could tell that his eyes closed and his head was leaned back, enjoying the moment to fullest as if it were one of those that imagined with me.
I dared to steal a glance at him, noting the peaceful expression on his face, so different from the usual mask of dominance and control.
“Don’t look at me like that” his voice cut through the air and I immediately averted my gaze.
I regretted my move because, in the next second, his arms, which were earlier resting on the edge of the bathub, moved down to engulf me, his chin resting on my shoulder as he drew in a deep breath.
His grip on me tightened, his arms creating a protective cocoon around my body, and his presence felt strangely comforting and suffocating at the same time.
“You can keep my pictures with you, you know” he said, . “It lasts longer”
I shuddered when the memory of him keeping my pictures with him came back to me. But I think now there is no point in fighting over it because now I am practically in his clutches and my focus should be on getting free from him and then making him delete those pictures. All of them are decent and I don’t think that he could take advantage of them. I have bigger issues to fight over with him.
My thoughts were interrupted when he gently pressed his lips against my cheek. At first, I thought about pulling away, but I decided to remain where I was. I had a plan to soothe him, hoping to prevent another outburst that I knew was coming when I revealed my wish.
With his behaviour last night, I have learned that if I wanted any chance of success, I figured lightening his mood was the least I could do. So, I patiently waited for the right moment to bring up my wish.
He continued to kiss my cheek multiple times, each kiss growing more intense as his lips met my skin. His affectionate gesture was overwhelming, causing my heart to race.
“If I am going to get this every morning, them I am to ditch the gym. It is such a beautiful start to the day” he whispered with a smile.
His lips traveled along my jawline, leaving a trail of soft kisses. I couldn’t help but feel a rush of excitement, with shivers running down my spine with every touch of his lips on my skin.
“Isn’t it?” He asked me and I know he was expecting a positive response.
Gulping down and keeping my ego aside for a moment because I had already given him a lot more than that, I forced my lips into a small smile and nodded softly.
He chuckled and again started kissing me, lost in his own small, happy world.
As his lips trailed to the sensitive area behind my ear, I mustered the courage to speak up.
“Ansell” I whispered softly.
He emitted a low, inquisitive hum, his lips too preoccupied to move.
“You wanted me to beg on your feet. I did, ” I said slowly.
“Yes” a deep kiss landed on that favourite spot of his, just behind my earlobe, causing a shive to run down my spine.
“And… And.. I gave myself to you. I didn’t even protest last night” I continued, my voice barely above a whisper.
His body shuddered as if he remembered last night. His lips sucked on the spot, making me shudder at my place.
“Indeed” his voice rumbled from deep within his chest, the sound vibrating against my back. His voice was telling that he was happy with that.
His lips slowly made their way to my neck, leaving multiple feather-like kisses over there.
“Now, I want something from you” his lips stopped moving and my body stiffened in anticipation.
His arms, which has encircled my waist, shifted backward, his hands now resting gently on my waist. Tilting my head, our faces came within a hair’s breadth of each other. Our breaths mingled, and our noses brushed lightly.
“Just name it and I will bring it to you, no matter in which corner of the world it is available” his eyes moved around my face.
I am sure he is lost in his world: that’s why he couldn’t catch the meaning behind my words else he is too fast in reading my mind. I could see through his eyes urges. A nervous gulp slipped down my throat, my fingers curling as I mustered the strength to say what needed to be said.
“Release my brother”