Ninety one

Book:Seducing My Father's Best Friend Published:2025-2-8

I felt a surge of desperation, refusing to accept Nicole’s resignation. How can she give up just like that?
“No, Nicole,” I whispered, my voice cracking. “You can’t give up. The girls need you.”
Nicole’s eyes were filled with tears, and she shook her head. “They’ll be okay, Xavier. They have you. You’ll be an amazing father.” She paused, a wide smile spreading on her lips. “You all should move on, you’re better off without me.”
I couldn’t stop myself anymore; I pulled Nicole into a gentle embrace, holding her tightly to myself as if trying to stop the inevitable. This news was heart-wrenching. How am I going to tell the kids? How would they cope with the fact that they would never see their mother again?
“Don’t leave, Nicole,” I whispered. “Please don’t leave.” I begged, my grip tightening around her.
“I’m sorry, Xavier,” she whispered back. “I’m so sorry for everything.”
As we held each other, the machines surrounding us faded into the background, and all that mattered was just getting her to have hope, to believe there could be a way to heal.
But reality soon crept back in, and I knew I had to face the inevitable.
“What do I tell the girls?” I asked as I pulled away.
Nicole just shrugged, taking on a smile that I knew all too well. “Tell them I love them, Xavier. Tell them I’ll always be with them, watching over them.”
I shook my head, refusing to yield to that answer. I can’t afford to comfort the children alone, and I can’t lie to them either. I grabbed her shoulders and looked deeply into her eyes. “You’re going to tell them… yourself.”
Her lips parted to protest, but I quickly silenced her.
“No, you’ll do it yourself. They deserve to see you one last time.”
Nicole’s eyes filled with tears as she shook her head in disapproval.
“I can’t do it, Xavier,” she sobbed, her frail composure breaking. “I can’t afford to see them, or I won’t be able to put myself together.”
I released her shoulders and let out a deep sigh. After a few moments of silence, I stood up, refusing to yield.
“I’ll go arrange for the girls to come visit.”
I turned around, my decision final. I wouldn’t give Nicole the chance to refuse or hesitate. The kids deserved to see their mother one last time, and she needed to see them too. I knew it wouldn’t be easy, but I was willing to do whatever it took to make it happen.
As I walked away, I felt a sense of resolve harden within me. I wouldn’t accept Nicole’s fate without a fight. Deep down, I was determined to find a way to save her, to make sure she survived this.
I quickened my pace, my mind racing with possibilities. Alternative treatments, experimental therapies, second opinions I would explore every option, no matter how slim the chance.
*****
As I stepped out of the doctor’s office, the doctor’s somber expression confirmed my worst fears. Nicole’s cancer had spread, and her prognosis was grim. The doctor’s words echoed in my mind: “Days, maybe weeks.” I felt my heart sink, the weight of reality crushing me.
The doctor’s advice to consider hospice care hung in the air, a harsh reminder that Nicole’s time was running out. I knew I had to discuss it with her, but the thought of saying goodbye was unbearable. And my initial determination began to slip.
I took a deep breath, steeling myself for what lay ahead. I would make sure Nicole’s remaining days were filled with love, comfort, and our girls, all the while still searching for a solution.
With a newfound sense of determination, I headed home to break the news to our girls. Their world was about to shatter, and I had to be the one to hold them together.
I arrived home in a blur; the long hours’ drive became a mere haze of asphalt and tears.
As I stepped out of the car, the silence of the night enveloped me, a stark contrast to the turmoil raging within. How could this happen? For all these years, I had been drowning in pain and regret since our divorce, unaware of what Nicole was going through.
I sighed and trudged toward the front door, my legs heavy with the burden of the day’s events. It turned out worse than I expected; I initially thought I would meet the defiant woman I married, but I encountered the emotional side of her.
The door creaked open, and I was met with the warm glow of the living room. The girls were sitting on the couch, their laughter and chatter filling the air. I took a deep breath, preparing myself for the most difficult conversation of my life. But first, I needed to speak with Sarah; I needed her humorous and comforting touch in this matter.
“Daddy’s home!” Elizabeth exclaimed, being the first to spot me at the entrance as she rushed over, her hands spread out for an embrace.
I swept her off her feet, holding her close with a genuine smile despite the jumbled thoughts running through my head.
“Sarah, Daddy’s home,” Hayden announced as she sprang off the couch, coming towards me. Harper did the same, and they all wrapped their tiny arms around my legs, holding me tight. I felt a surge of love and comfort as I gazed at my three girls, their faces etched with concern.
They didn’t know their mother was on the verge of death.
“Daddy’s home,” I echoed, trying to sound cheerful despite the weight of Nicole’s news.
As I hugged my girls, I felt a sense of purpose. I had to be strong for them, to hold them together through this storm.
Just then, Sarah walked in, a sly smile on her face. “You’re late for dinner, love.” She then crossed her arms, feigning annoyance with a pout, looking like a dejected wife, and I couldn’t help but chuckle.
Sarah really knew how to lift my spirits, even if she didn’t know it.
I chuckled and pulled her into a tight embrace, catching her off guard. I knew she sensed my distress; there had been a silent communication between us these past few months, and I felt a deep connection to her, knowing she understood me so intimately. It was as if she had a window into my soul, seeing beyond the facade I put up for the girls.
In that moment, I felt grateful for her presence in my life. She was more than just my girlfriend; she was a source of strength, a confidante, and a kindred spirit. Agreeing to this relationship was the best decision I had ever made.
Sarah’s eyes locked onto mine, sensing the turmoil beneath my smile.
“Xavier, what’s wrong?” she asked, her voice softening.
I hesitated, unsure how to break the news.
“Let’s talk later, okay?” I replied, trying to sound casual.
Sarah nodded, but her concern still lingered. Knowing we would discuss it later in the bedroom, she let it slide until then.
But I on the other hand, couldn’t shake off the weight of Nicole’s news. I went through the motions, helping with bedtime routines, but my mind was elsewhere.