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I needed to stop her, but I didn’t. I let her say piece, and then once she was done.
And when she calms down, I tell her and kiss her and not let her think this is a joke.
Because it’s not.
I tell her I have feelings for her and that I love her.
But that didn’t happen.
Because I was still inside my thoughts at the time, I wanted to tell her how I felt.
I looked, and there she was, nowhere to be seen.
Jayson P. O. V.
Jayson, why would you do this to me,” I heard her say before she started walking away? I know I should stop her. But I could not move. I am just shocked how this event happened when I thought she would jump in my open arms, kiss me, and tell me she had feelings for me.
But instead, that’s not what happened. She went off on me. Telling me she hates me and how could I have been such a cruel, empty person who loves seeing her in pain, but I don’t. I stand there with a shocked look on my face.
That is not what I pictured would happen. Instead, in my mind, I saw her smiling and her and I making love in the middle of the woods and finishing the mate bond when we took turns marking each other’s necks.
But instead, she slapped me, kicked my leg, and started running away from me with tears falling down her beautiful broken face.
I watched her hair, and then her body disappeared around the trees, and she was gone, and I was here by myself staring at the place where she was not there anymore.
So, I watched the spot where she was standing, and now it was empty.
What the hell just happened?
I was throwing my heart out, telling her how much I loved her, and then she started yelling and crying.
Saying I am an asshole and is this the cruelest joke I ever made to her?
I was confused because of what she was saying. She didn’t give me time to tell her I was not lying to her about anything I told her about my feelings.
I could feel my heart breaking because I could feel her emotions and feelings.
I don’t understand why I would lie and make a joke when I tell her I have feelings and am in love with her.
Maybe she doesn’t want me.
Maybe I am too much of an asshole, and it’s too late for me, and now she hates me enough not to be with me?
I don’t blame her, and I was an asshole and evil prick hurting her and making her life a living hell for five years.
Fuck!” I cried out in the middle of the cold and dark woods. I feel like shifting and running after her, but Jaze tells me to give her some time.
“I will but not that long, Jaze,” I told him.
I heard him groan a yes.
What have I done? I should have never taken out my anger on her; what happened with my mom?
She was the one who left my father and me. Not Ashley; she has always been a great friend to me. She never left my side, not even when I started treating her like crap and bullying her.
But I didn’t want to hurt her. I just could not help all the anger and hurt inside. So I took it out on someone I have been friends with and now my mate.
She is not going to leave me. I would make sure she is not going anywhere.
I am going to show her I am different and beg her forgiveness.
Once I have my mate and my true love.
I am never going to let her go, sweetheart.
Jaze and I were thinking the same thing. She was just upset, and once she forgave me, we finished the mating. I sighed.
Okay, if that’s what you want. I give you some space, but sweetheart, you should know I am a patient man,” I said.
Until next time, I will make it up to her, and I will never let her go.
She is mine; no, she always belongs to me. I always had a feeling she was the one for me when the Moon Goddess made her for me.
She is the perfect mate,
She is beautiful, lovable, funny, and brave; she is not selfish and loves her family and friends. She would do anything for anyone-she is kind and brilliant and feisty too at the same time.
I sighed.
She is too good for me, and She doesn’t need me. So I should let her go and find a better person to treat her better than I had.
She is everything I am not.
We are opposites of each other.
No! That is what my inner voice wants me to think that I am not good enough for her, so I don’t listen to it.
So, that’s what I need to do.
Could you not listen to my negatives anymore? I heard Jaze.
It’s wrong, you know.
You are good enough, Jas,”
You know how I know.
I can feel it.
I can feel it deep down in my wolfie heart” I heard him laugh.
I know he was trying to make me laugh. It worked, but how long will I smile and laugh if I don’t have her in my arms.
I want her.
I want to kiss her beautiful face.
I want to hold her and make her feel safe in my arms at night.
I want her as my love, mate, and wife.
Wow, I thought I didn’t want a mate, but then again. It’s not a bad idea to be with one person for the rest of my life.
That was when I had a thought.
I am going to go see her. I am not letting her give up on us.
“You will be proud of me,” I whispered.
So, I had that to hold in my mind.
I walked out of the woods and went to my truck, and drove home, thinking of a way to get her back.
That was when I had the idea. But, of course, I had a grin on my determined face. I just hope it works.