Jayson P. O. V.
Part Two:
After the cafeteria scene
I ran out of the room, and I needed to talk to Ashely and tell her how I feel.
She didn’t give me a chance to tell her how I feel.
” I heard her say and ran out the door. I didn’t know what to think but I went after her. So, I didn’t wait until my friends and others and her friends asked me questions. So, I got up off the bench and ran after my princess.
I was out of the lunchroom when I saw her hair bouncing out the side door going towards the woods.
Ahh, there you are?” I said out with a grin on my face.
I was walking out the school doors. I saw her hair running into the woods. I should have known.
“Hey! she was letting Envy out to run?” I heard what Jaze told me excitedly.
” Let me out !” He demanded that I switch with him. I rolled my eyes and I started running in the woods before I lost her.
Hour of running in the woods. I stopped and I lifted my head and I breath the air trying to smell her scent. That’s when I smelled her. She was at the waterfall.
Oh God what have I done!
Once I got to the waterfall, I heard someone sniffing and crying. That’s when I realized my princess was crying. But why would she cry after what she said that made me feel the warmest in my heart for my princess. I wasn’t angry or mad. I was happy and glad she told the whole world I am hers and she is mine and that we love each other. I heard her say she loves me. But stupid me just sat there with my shock expression with my mouth wide opened. I should have done something to grab her and kiss or say something telling everyone I love her, and she is mine too.
But I like what I said. I didn’t do jack shit! Because I am a moron and a dumbass.
I see a beautiful white with pink fur drinking the water in the lake. That when I sniffed the air and I knew it was Envy. A tiny little thing went and it became Jaze. I kept hearing him howling and I knew he was getting excited. He wanted to come out and play with his mate.
” Come on, switch me!” I heard over and over again in my head.
I chuckled but that stopped Envy and she started standing her ground and I heard her little growls. I saw her protect mood.
I had a big smile on my face. I was proud of how she would protect Ashely.
Come on! I want to see my mate!” I heard him again.
Okay, Okay. I started to concentrate and feel the change and I felt the fur wrapping around my arms and then my legs and my whole body. I heard something ripe and the clothes were destroyed.
I was on all fours and I could see something white in front of me.
That was Ashely wolf.
I felt something moving behind me. That’s when I realized I was my wolf, Jaze and he was wagging his tail at his little mate.
We started coming closer toward them. I saw Envy Ashely’s wolf wagging her tail. I could tell she was happy but we still need to slow her so we won’t hurt her.
She was wimping and he wanted to stop her from feeling scared.
But when she bent her head closer to the ground and her body all the way down, she was showing obedience to him
Bark! He let her know she can get up off the ground.
I see she started getting off her face and she is standing straight and tall like a queen.
That’s my girl I thought with a big smirk on my lips.
She stared over at me in front of me. She is probably waiting to come next. But what I heard about Ashely wolf is that she is a feisty little thing just like her.
So, I have to try to get through with her with a mind link. I know we are not exactly mates pre say but it is worth a try.
So, I concentrate and imagine her beautiful face smiling at me. That’s when I started seeing her with me inside my mind.
“Jayson?” How? I mean?” and when?” Please leave me alone?” I know you’re just here to tease me for what I said in the cafeteria!” she was sounding confused to me. She was trying to sound tough and brave but what confused me was I heard it.
The Pain.
Hurt.
Broken.
She was confused that I could pull her out of her mind and into mine.
She didn’t know I could pull her out of her mind towards mine. Wow, this is how Jaze and Envoy Ashely wolf meetup. This is fucking amazing.
“Shh, princess, it’s okay,” I am not going to hurt you,” I told her. I saw her eyes. She had tears staining her beautiful face. I walked over and I wiped away a tear falling down on her face. I saw the pain on her face broke me.
“Hey, sweetheart don’t cry” I told her, kissing on top of her head. Her head under my chin.
I felt her shaking in my arms. Then she realized she was in my arms. That when I felt her closed off when she was letting go of her feelings. That’s when she froze up.
Fuck me! I wanted to smack my head against the tree behind us. But I can’t show her I pity her. She doesn’t want that.
I growled when I heard her whimper and she was shaking.
I pulled into my chest, and I lifted up her head and told her to look at me. I licked my lips and I started saying I love you too in my mind but I could not say it. My lips were so dry I kept licking my lips.
So, I told myself stop being a pussy and just tell her how you feel! No! how you always felt about her..
That’s what I did. I opened my mouth. I pulled my head off of hers and I lifted her face toward mine.
I looked into her eyes and I could see the worries and confusion in them right now.
She is wondering what’s going to happen next.
That when I kissed her lips gently and it was a shock on her face. I saw her get annoyed. It was only a quick kiss. She wanted more.
Oh, sweetheart don’t worry there be more later I thought with a big grin inside my mind.
That when I opened my mouth and I started speaking.
” Ashely there something I’ve wanted to tell you ever since we were little?”
“The thing is I have always cared about you and the reason why I am telling you this.”
Well, I could feel my words trying to stop and I needed to keep going.
No! Don’t stop, keep going, I was telling myself. I could feel my nerves getting the best of me.
I am never nervous or worried about anything.
So, why do I feel it around her?
Because she is the only one who could make you feel like this? my inner voice was telling me.
Okay Jayson, you can do this. Just tell her how you feel. I kept repeating inside my head.
So, we both stand here staring at each other and she is giving me a are you okay look expression on her face.
Fuck it! I thought.
I took a deep breath and I told her everything about how I was feeling over the years.
How I have always been in love with her and things about what happened with my parents that my mom took off and never came back after she left us for another family and that I was in underground fights since I was fourteen years old.
I told her how hurt I was when I saw her with Robert Stewart in the hallway that day on our last day in middle school.
But I knew he was kissing her, not her. She didn’t like him after so many years I thought she did.
I thought she was like my mother.
An evil and cruel person wants to hurt me just like she did to my father.
But now I know it’s not true.
She is nothing like that woman.
I have to stop thinking about all the women out there who are like my mother.
That’s why I hurt them before they could hurt me.
So, I started sleeping around and playing with all the girls.
But one girl changed me.
So, I felt the tears falling down from my eyes.
Shit! know you did it.
You Pussy! I yelled at myself.
But now she is going to think I am a big cry baby!
Fuck!
Fuck!” I yelled out. I guess she jumped when I said it.
I thought I was talking to myself but instead she heard me yell.
But she didn’t run away so that is a good thing she is still here.
I ran my fingers inside my hair. I wanted to pull them all out, but I knew that wouldn’t be a great idea.
I don’t think I look good bald.
I thought with a chuckle.
“Look! I have feelings for you! And that’s not all.” I told her.
She was shocked and confused and happy when I was telling her I had feelings for her.
Jayson?” I heard a tiny and sweet and concerned voice.
I didn’t know where it was coming from. That’s when I felt soft fingers.
I looked and it was Ashely my princess.
She was staring up at me with red eyes but a sweet smile on her face.
“Jayson,” I heard her say my name. It made my heart pound inside my chest full of love.
I saw it.
Love.
So, with the look of love in her eyes. That gave me the guts to say what I have to say.
So, again the third try to tell her how I feel about her again.
Ashely Williams, I am in love with you.”
There I said it.” I say to her,
by the time I lifted up my head.
I was knocked off my feet.
I felt a sting across my face.
That’s when I realized she slapped me in the face!
That when I looked up with my heart broken, that when I stopped what I saw and heard.
There was Ashely with tears falling down her face with pain and broken writing over her face.
What?
I don’t understand why she feels this way.
Did she feel the same way about me as I feel about her?
I thought.
“You are the most evil man I have ever met” She was telling me off.
“How could you lie and make fun of my feelings for you, Jayson Woods!”
“I never want to see you again”
“I hate you Jayson Lee Woods!”
She kept going on about how this is a cruel joke.
That when I was just standing there trying to make sense and I am shocked this is how it went after I let my heart on the line and telling her how I fell.
That’s when I realized she thinks this is a joke!
I needed to stop her but I didn’t. I let her say piece and then once she was done.
And when she calms down then I tell her and kiss her and not let her think this is a joke.
Because it’s not.
I tell her I really have feelings for her and that I love her.
But that didn’t happen.
because I was still inside my thoughts by the time I wanted to tell her how I felt.
I looked and there she was nowhere to be seen.
She was gone.
The End!
Well for now!
To Be Continued!
This the end of part One of
The Badass & The Beta Part One
Part two of
The Badass & The Beta Returns Part Two.
That will be coming in June 2022