Ashely P. O. V.
Am I nuts! I must be. I knew we were, you know, messing around, but why did I show him who I was. By taking off my mash in front of everybody!
So now, everyone will tell everybody, and now my parents will too and make me quit! So now I am here in the bed with Jayson because I had to show him who I was.
Now, this is a goodbye fuck, and I can feel this reject feeling for lying to him. But, as he told me in the truck last night, I should have told him.
Oh, No!
Oh, No!
Oh, No!
I had to be dumb and hurt him. But I shouldn’t feel bad. Did he hurt us how many times? I heard my inner voice say being upset with him over the years, and he pulled and broke my heartstrings and hurt me. So, I should not
have to feel guilty.
Remember, he started it first! After that, I heard the evil side say inside my head.
Yeah, but it doesn’t make right to hurt him back! So I told off my evil voice inside my head, the inner voice.
I repeated to myself three times inside my head.
I can feel the heat coming off under the blanket. I could feel his heated stare. I know if I lift off the covers hiding my face. I will be staring face to face with him.
I can’t believe I did that! What the hell was I thinking?
There is something wrong with me, and it has to be.
“Oh, God, stop talking to yourself, Ash, I heard Envy say with an annoying attitude.
Bitch! I thought in my head.
“Hey, I heard that. And she left my mind and went off to who knows where she goes with my mate’s wolf.
“Hey, come out of there,” I am so sorry for laughing,” I heard him tell me while he was laughing at me and trying to take off the covers over my head. But I kept ignoring him and staying completely still and quiet, and hiding my face under the blanket.
“If you don’t come out of there, I will come in there?” I heard him say. I knew he was telling the truth because he never backs down, if you know Jayson Woods.
So, I waited to see if he would. So, yeah, a part of me wants to know if he would lift the covers and lay behind me? And another part of me hopes he doesn’t.
Hmm, I thought. I started to blush when I thought about him inside my mouth just a few seconds ago. I licked my lips, thinking about his taste on my lips and tongue.
Oh, God, stop it.
Stop it! I am turning bright red now. If he lifts the covers over my head, he will see how red I am.
I was in my thoughts when I felt cold air. I looked up, and there, his face close to mine. Oh, God, I yelp and turn my body away from him and my face. I didn’t want him to see how red my face was.
I pulled up my legs close to my chest. I gasped when I felt a large, hard, hot body when I realized he was still here and now lying, and I felt his hands wrapped around my waist.
“What are you doing?” I told him with nervousness in my voice. I tried to move away from him, but he would not move. So, he had a tight grip on my body.
” I told you, sweetheart if you didn’t get out under the covers. So, I took it that you wanted to play.” So, I answered your calling, princess.”
So, you didn’t want to hear me ask you to come out. So, I came climbed under the covers and went after yeah,” I heard him say with a chuckle.
I groaned inside my throat. God, he can be a cocky bastard sometimes. I thought to myself.
Stop thinking about things with cock in them. I felt my cheeks burning with shame, and on top of that. I am in heat still. We have not finished the bonding mating ceremony yet.
That was when I felt the happiness with my wolf inside me. But then I forgot, we can’t be together. It’s too much hurt, and it’s too late to be linked with our soul-bonding for a lifetime, or you call it a forever marriage eternity.
So I wasn’t paying attention when I felt a pull. That was when I realized he had turned me around to face him. I wanted to close my eyes, but it was too late. So now, we are eye to eye, lips to lips, and face to face.
Now, he can see my blushing red face. I want to die!
Yep, take me now, God. Take me out of here, so I don’t do something embarrassing to myself- But it was too late. I let out a word, but it was words but a big fat… Oh, God, I wished it was words, not an…
“Burp,” Yep, that’s what happened.
I just blurted in Jayson Woods, my old friend and crush/bully/mate face.
I threw my hands over my face, staring into his face. I was waiting for him to say I am disgusting, but it didn’t come. So, instead of getting angry, he started smiling, and he did something I thought I would never see him do before. That was. He was laughing.
Haha, there, my princess,” I heard him say, and then he started rubbing my back in little circles and caressing my back. He was comforting me, and I never thought he would do that to keep me calm and relaxed because that’s how I felt when he was rubbing and being just around a lovely person right now.
First time in a long time, I felt whole and at home. I didn’t know what I did, but I tufted my head on his chest.
” You feel better now; you calm down, sweetheart.” I heard him whisper in my ear.
I didn’t say anything. I wanted to enjoy this, and I didn’t want to move, or it would be a dream I woke up to, and he would not be there.
So, I closed my eyes and breathed in his scent, and I knew once he woke up and stopped being nice to me. Then that will be back to normal like we always did.
Fight,
Hate,
Hurt.