Ashely P. O. V.
Oh my god, Jayson is kissing me. Yeah, he kissed you before, remember? My inner voice said. I know, but I was the mystery girl before he kissed me, not me.
What I was trying to say is. I mean his kissing me as Ashely, the girl he hates and bullies.
That’s what I meant. That was what I was going to say.
Oh, okay. My inner voice said.
I tried to get my mind around it that he was kissing me.
But wow, I never thought he would kiss me as me.
I can feel my body heating up. I wonder if he can feel my hot lips on his because I think about his lips on mine every night when I go to bed.
I know it sounds crazy, but I can’t help how I feel about him now.
My body is on fire every time I am near him.
I wonder if he can feel the heat coming off my body.
My cheeks are so red thinking about him in a sexual way.
Oh, God, I need to calm down; I felt my core throbbed between my thighs.
I am so, turn on, but we need to stop this before he finds out who I am. So, I am not ready for him to find out it was me at the party and last night in the parking lot. If he knew it was me the previous night. My secret would be out, around the town and school.
I can’t let that happen. So, I did something I didn’t want to stop. So, I allowed him to suck on my lip inside his mouth. Then he bit my lip and licked it. That was when I shoveled him by pushing him off me, and that was when I hurried up and grabbed my bag off the table.
That was when I ran out the door.
Oh, God, this hurt, but I knew I had to get away before he discovered out, I was his mystery girl. I can’t.
I can’t handle the disappointed look and the disgust on his face when he does find out I am the girl the whole time.
I am the girl that has been after since that party when he took my virginity.
How do I know people talk and I hear it around?
Well, I heard him talking about it. So, that is also how I know.
I heard him one day outside when I was sitting on my porch when I heard him on the phone talking to somebody.
That was the day I knew I had to keep low until I was ready to tell him once am done fighting and once my mom got the surgery and got better. That when I tell him, it’s me.
But what if I can’t do it?
What if he finds out it is me and he tells me! You’re too ugly and weak to be my mate. I don’t think I can handle him telling me I am not good enough being his mate even though I should be the one telling him the same thing. He’s a player, and he won’t be faithful. So, the moon goddess had to set me up with a man-whore and asshole. That’s going to break my heart into thousands of tiny little pieces.
I sigh, thinking about how it’s going to go. It’s not going to be good. I can tell you that Envy, I was telling my wolf.
She didn’t say anything back. Because she knew I was speaking the truth.
So, I did the most logical thing, and I ran away before he knew it was me that night. Even though he was kissing me as Ashely, the girl is the loser, and he hates. I still ran.
I am a coward, I know, and I won’t handle it very well.
Especially, the look he will give me once he finds out it had been me, that I am the mystery girl.
With the look Jayson will give me, disgust on his face.
There is no way I can stand here and wait for the outcome, with the rejection from the guy who has already been hurting me for years. My heart is holding on to a thread.
I don’t want to feel hurt and pain anymore by the man I have probably been in love with the whole time since we were little pups.
Don’t cry over him.
But you always cry because of what he says and does to you?
So, please stop it. I was telling myself.
Then I thought. Why would you give your heart to someone who will rip it out of your chest and stump on it?
But really, why does it have to be hate between us. I am tired of fighting with him, and I feel the heat and want between us. Until the monster comes out and when he opens up his mouth.
Once that happened, I remembered why I hated him. But I know I don’t hate him; I don’t want him to stop hating me.
I never did anything to him to make him hate me so much.
I sighed. What if we never stop this hate between us. How am I going to tell him I am his mate?
What if he…
No, you have to think positively and stop thinking about the worst in people. Yes, he hurt you, but maybe you got to believe he was acting out because you hurt him too?
But why does it feel like my heart is breaking? I am walking away from Jayson Woods!
A few hours later…
Lunchtime…
I am walking into the lunchroom. I grabbed my tray and was in line when I felt something run into me.
Why! I asked my inner voice.
“Watch where you are going bitch!” First, I heard a snobby high, pitched voice. Then, I listened to the disgust when she told me and shoved me.
Bitch I thought.
I know who that is. I felt a shove on my back.
I looked back, and I got out of these bitches’ way.
Damn, rude much! I thought to myself.
One of Camila’s bitches. Amberly, that crazy bitch was behind trying to hurt Avery, my cousin/my best friend. She was taking over the school now. Because Camilia’s, she disappeared. We have not seen her since that awful day that she tried to kill and hurt Avery. So, Amberly is the queen bee now on the cheer team.
So, I watch her and her bimbo’s walking down the aisle, going towards the football team.
I stared at them with a snarl on my face.
One of these days, I am going to beat her ass.
But today, I am going to let it slide. I am hungry, and I am excited about pizza day!
Once I was done trying not to look at Amberly and her friends and trying not to kill them!
Now I got my food. I started walking towards my table with my friends.
That was when I saw Avery and Natalie, but there was a problem?
The girls weren’t sitting alone.
Because sitting at our table is no other than the bullies that made our life a living hell.
The Six Horsemen!
I try to turn the other way. So, that was when I was trying to move away. But it was too late. Avery called my name, and I knew his eyes were burning into my skin.
So, I had no choice. I started walking over to my seat, and I sat down. But when I was sitting down.
I grabbed my piece of pizza, and I started eating it. I don’t care if people are staring at me eating. They can do whatever they want. But I will eat my food because I am hungry, and I don’t get full for just eating one cracker. So, I thought with eyes rolling inside my mind.
So, I picked up my yummy piece with an extra cheese pizza, and my mouth was watery.
Before I took my bite, I felt his heated eyes on the side of my face. Because at all the seats at our lunch table. Jayson Woods had to sit beside me!
That was when I felt my red cheeks burning with heat from how Jayson stared at me. I still didn’t look because if I looked all at him. I know I will crash and burn. He is the only one who makes me feel like my body is on fire.
Because I don’t want to give my heart to someone who is going to burn it!