Walking like a choiceless fellow, I head to the room Rain had been.
Getting to the door, I waited for an extra second before knocking. No response, yep, just as I expected and yet, I walked in.
“Hi” I said awkwardly.
Rain was eating banana and peanut. Odd combination but I didn’t say anything.
She had this lazy look like she could sleep all day. Her hair was down and slightly wet or too much oiled. Her skin looked well, like she wasn’t the one that had almost gone into a coma two days ago.
Could it be that she healed herself?
She should definitely be able to do that! Gosh, I am so naive.
I cleared my throat, moved to the other corner of the room so she could see my face but she didn’t. She turned her back towards me again, making me feel like I should be… forgotten.
My ego as the Alpha hot tarnished, like I was nothing!
Klaus could talk to me anyhow, Rain refusing to look at me and my wolf would not do anything.
The room had the fresh scent of Mira, Hawk, and Klaus. So she could still talk to him after what happened?
Heh! He did nothing to her.
Slowly, making sure not to unknowingly annoy her, I took a chair and got seated in front of her. Right in front of her and there was nothing she would do to make it seem like she didn’t see me but she still would not look at me.
“Mate” I whispered.
She stirred.
I was sure she tensed a little and that gave me joy that I still could make any reaction from her.
I wanted for a few seconds before placing my palm on her knee.
Silence.
She didn’t say anything, Rain just glared at the hand, then to my face and without being told, I withdraw my hand.
“Mate I am going to stay here still you talk to me” I said like a petty and nagging house wife.
For real, i was ready to stay till she talk to me but Rain didn’t look at me again. She slowly got off the bed with the pillow and sat on floor.
She left me just the the banana peel on the bed.
“I know you are mad at me, but, I was scared of losing you” I said.
I gest this is what I should have done because immediately I said that, Rain looked at me. She just stared at me, motionless, like she would not want to do something stupid.
I wish I could read her mind.
“I was trying not to die, so I would be there for you and … I I love you so much and losing you…”
I knew what I was saying didn’t made sense at all but she was listening. If I keep talking, she might look at me till the point of saying something.
“I didn’t want to be within you. Beside, I have the ability to heal other fast so I could heal you with my blood and we would be together” I said with a smile.
Rain smiled too.
With that, I got off the chair and walked to her. It took me additional minutes to consider seating with her but I did.
“I did it all because you are my mate and I love you”
This time, the smile increase.
“You know i am so scared of losing you” I nodded and touched her face “I. So scared”
Rain looked at me deep into my eyes but all I could see was nothing. She had this empty gaze, blank and filled with regrets on some kind of way.
“Imagine waking up with no idea of who you are” Rain said.
I already know her story.
It was an accident but I will tell her when she recover from the first one so I smiled.
“Things happen for a reason, You know that” I nodded.
I was trying to make her nodded with me so I can hug her and get back to before.
Well, she did nod.
“I would go on for days, weeks, months, bullied because I would not shift” Rain nodded “Was that for a reason?”
I wanted to tell her that if she had shift them, Brook would have killed her and… who knows.
“I remember getting tied to beds in different places. They said I was sick so they inject me with anything” She pouted “It hurts, But I didn’t change”
I nodded with a smile.
At least she was saying something to me.
“You know I have stayed a week and more without eating I have stayed months under needles, not seeing the light! And I got used to it!! I would feed on rotten fruits, get pushed down cliffs, get beat to death, then I found hope”
This time, tears drop from one of her life eyes. She looked at me dead in the eyes and let the tears keep flowing.
“I found hope but you know what hope did?” She asked .
Not waiting for me to answer, she continued.
“Hope hated me, locked me up, hit me, and Raped me”
Shit! I was that hope.
“Hope would raped with so much hate and I felt it was how I was supposed to be treated until he marked me” she signed “Is that how it should be? Mark without consent?”
I swallowed.
I had nothing else to say about that but she knows I love her.
“When I tried to get used to this new pleasurable pain, I got kidnapped” She widened her eyes like she was shocked “I was naked, left in the cold, starved, drugged, Made to suck his dick…”
This time she paused to laugh.
She laughed so much that she began to cry. I couldn’t do anything, I just sat on the floor and stared at her.
Should I hug her?
Should I apologize again?
Should I let her know that I am a changed person and nothing would harm her again?
I just did nothing.
“I bet he learned it from you… when you used to have your dick in my mouth so I would be humiliated, broken, know that you are dominant, and accept my pathetic fate”
Rain got up, left me on the floor and walked to the door.
Her hands trembled as she held the handle.
“I don’t know if it is possible, but, Will you kill me if I decide to reject you now?” She asked.