“Natalia…Natalia…”
“Yes?” I replied when I realized that he had been calling my name.
The curious look on Reiner’s face told me that he had been calling my name for a while now while I was drifting off somewhere lost in my own thoughts. Reiner stared at me intently with his blue eyes as if trying to figure out what I had on my mind.
“Sorry, I was spacing out a little…” I quickly apologized.
“Are you tired? Should we go to bed early?” he asked with clear concern.
That wasn’t it at all. I wanted to look at his face, but I didn’t dare to meet his eyes. This is just crazy…
Listen, Natalia, if you’re suspecting your husband this early on in your pregnancy imagine what it’s going to be like when your belly is swollen like a huge balloon in your later months. I stuffed some food into my mouth to keep myself from sighing out loud. The food was tasteless in my mouth, and it wasn’t the cook’s fault.
“I’m fine,” I managed to reply.
“You don’t look fine to me. Is the food not to your liking? You’re not really eating,” Reiner pointed out.
“The food is fine,” I replied before flashing him the best smile that I could muster up at that moment.
Reiner placed down his utensils, and it clicked quite loudly against his plate. I watched as he got out of his seat and approached me.
“If you’re not feeling well, there’s no need to push yourself. Let me take you to bed so you can rest for a bit,” Reiner suggested in such a gentle voice that it made me feel so guilty for doubting him.
I had no idea why I wallowed in my depression for so long when the solution was staring me right in the face.
“R, let’s go to bed,” I said invitingly as I reached out and grabbed his hand.
“…Sure. Let’s go,” Reiner said with a slightly confused look on his face.
…
The door to our bedroom closed behind us and Reiner led me to the bed. Great, we’re alone in our bedroom together. Now all I have to do is…
“R…sit down here,” I patted the bed invitingly.
Reine cocked his head to the side in wonder. He hesitated as he stared at my face for a brief moment before deciding to do just as I had instructed him. Before I could change my mind, I climbed onto his lap and straddled him. Reiner’s face transformed into a more confused expression as I wrapped my arms around his neck.
“What are you doing?” Reiner asked with a hint of disapproval in his tone.
“Am I doing something wrong?” I asked before biting on my lower lip seductively.
I stared deeply into his blue eyes, and I could sense his hesitation. It was Reiner who averted his gaze first with a shake of his head.
“Get off, Natalia,” he said coldly.
“Why? You don’t want to do it?” I asked in a small voice.
Frankly, I was shocked. I don’t think he’s ever been this disinterested when I suggest that we have sex before.
Is this happening because I’m pregnant?
“We haven’t done it for a while, so I thought…” I began saying but Reiner raised a hand up to stop me from saying anymore.
His brows drew together in a frown before he shook his head at me again. I felt tears swimming in my eyes, and I desperately blinked them away before it would spill over.
“You’re tired. You should go to sleep,” Reiner told me as his hands began lifting me off his lap.
“Is it because I’m pregnant? Is that why you’re not going to have sex with me?” I asked to confirm my suspicion.
I didn’t know that I was this upset until I heard how broken and terribly sorrowful my voice was when I asked him those questions.
“I don’t want to risk hurting the baby,” Reiner replied sternly.
Even if that was the case…
“Can we consult an expert on this? Instead of just asking them about what food I should eat, can’t we ask them how we can safely have sex? People can do it, right? Sex…during pregnancy is possible, right?” I asked desperately without willing to back down.
“Why are you so concerned about this?” Reiner asked as his eyes stared at me intently.
“Well…” I murmured.
It wasn’t like I could come out and tell him that I worried that if I didn’t have sex with him, he would end up doing it with someone else, right? Plus, it was Kat who gave me this twisted idea and now I can’t get it out of my head. Of all the things that I was worried about, I was worried about this. He must think that I’m so stupid…
“Well?” Reiner prompted as his blue eyes searched my face.
“Don’t laugh, ok?” I asked in a small voice.
“Sure…” Reiner replied casually.
I heaved a sigh as I gathered my courage to tell it to him straight. If this would lead us to resolve the issue and somehow lead to us getting our active sex life back, then it will probably be worth it.
“You see…” I began and then I told Reiner everything.
I told him what Kat told me during the call and then all about my worries. Of course, to manage his sentiments, I added in the part where I told him that I trusted that he would never do anything like that anyways.
“Thank you for not doubting my virility but I’m not an animal…I can control my urges very well,” Reiner said as he glared at me.
“That wasn’t what I was thinking…” I said defensively.
“Anyways, come and take a look at this…” Reiner urged.
Reiner showed me various sex positions that were recommended for couples during pregnancy. My eyes widened before I started smiling.
“Which one would you like to try first, My Lady?” Reiner teased me before chuckling at how my face turned red.
–To be continued…