Tyson
Jesus Christ!
Damn, fuck me! I couldn’t hate myself more for saying those words to her. I couldn’t withstand her crying in front of me.
I was so tempted to pull her onto my chest and hug her tightly, and kiss those ugly tears from her eyes.
I couldn’t even tell her the reason we had to do that. I am so fucked up!
I haven’t been able to breathe properly since I clicked on the block button. I had to stop myself from messaging her.
I couldn’t just stare at my phone without having the urge to text her. Without having to tell her that I love and I would never leave her.
It was so fucking hard to say those words to her. Damn, I feel like roasting myself in a hot flame. I can’t cope anymore without her by my side. God, it is killing me!
I rise from my bed and storm out of the room. I didn’t go to school today, I wouldn’t be able to bear it. I can’t have her on the same premises and not speak to her. I would die of hurt and guilt.
I walk along the aisle, my throat feels sore after I didn’t speak with any of my brothers since that day, even though we planned to settle the issue at the moment.
I need a glass of water, sauntering through the staircase and I see the rest of my brothers on the red couch.
I guess I’m not the only one who decided not to go to school today. They must be feeling hurt after the rejection, but I bet no one is hurting like I am.
I spent two weeks with that girl, I have come to love her and my heart beats for her every second. Now that she is away from me, breathing hurts every fucking time.
” Yo man,” Darius calls when I walk passed them without saying a word.
I stop and spin around to see him. ” Yo, what can I do for you?” I ask him, with a deep frown on my face.
” Guys, you know we have to push through with our plans,” Darius says, and I shake my head sighing.
” Anywhere to start from?” I ask him, but my eyes fall on Daniel and Ryan, who were the real cause of this problem.
” I guess. I suspect someone but we need to confirm. I saw a guy talking to her in a private place after school. Don’t you think we should trace him?”
” Really?” my eyes widen.
” Sounds smart. Would you recognize him?” I ask him, I suddenly get interested.
” I can try,” Darius says and I smirk. Still staring at Daniel and Ryan, who are momentary quiet.
” Then get prepared. Once school is over for today, we will track him down. I’m sure the guy should be in school today.” I say to all of them.
” That’s better.” Ryan finally says, causing me to sigh out, giving him a hard glare. This was his fault. His stupid behaviour and Daniel’s!
I turn back in the kitchen direction to get myself a glass of water. I satisfy my thirst and head back to my room. We have a few hours to leave the house. In the next two hours school will be over for today.
I push my door open and crash down on my bed. I prop an arm up when I see a message sent to me.
I hired someone to look after her for me and also plant a camera in the library. I know I couldn’t be there anymore with her but I could watch a video of her.
I open the message and I see, it is the clip sent. I take a few minutes to inhale and exhale before I click to watch.
I know this will be hard. I press the video and it begins to play. I watch her push open the door slowly and inhale as if she was trying to keep it cool.
I watch as she walks to the table where I always sat next to her. She brings out her book from her backpack but stops when she notices something written on the table… I know what is written there.
She takes some minutes to read it and then abruptly rises from her seat, slapping the table with her hands as she cries. My heart tightens, she must hate me now. She has every right to.
I hear her loud cry and pause the video for a moment. My chest squeezes and burns like I lack oxygen to breathe. She is my oxygen. I have difficulty breathing without her.
I continue the video, watching where she leans against the bookshelf by the first window side. She has a book and a pen in her hands.
She begin to smile as she started to write on those blank pages, I feel relieved seeing her smiling at that point. But not until she broke down in tears throwing the pen and paper to the ground!
Shit! I quickly turn off the phone and throw it across the bed. Digging my head into the pillow, letting out some hurtful sounds into it. I miss her. I can’t handle her crying.
I can’t watch her cry. I can’t watch her being all alone there, without me.
I storm into the bathroom to freshen up myself, it’s almost time for us to go and settle the fucking issue on ground.
I finish bathing in the next few minutes and charge out.
Heading to my closet, I spot my favourite colour. A pair of black shorts sleeve and a pair of black trousers. I will need a face cap so I pick a black cap, and then a dark shade. Wearing my cologne and walking out of the door afterwards.
I meet my brothers downstairs and see that they are also ready. We need to find out who the guy is after Darius’ suspicions.
” Ready guys?” Darius asks, he is the only one who saw him. So he will lead him to us.
I check for the time before getting into my ride. As I lock my phone, Elena’s picture displays as my wallpaper..
I remember I took a picture of her while she was sleeping. She is so adorable when her eyes are closed.
” Sure man. Let’s head out already.” I nod as I reply to Darius’ question.