Contracted to the wrong Alpha
Chapter 76
Lilia’s pov
I didn’t know what to make of Lex’s action, his scent filled my head, nose and heart that I wanted to be engulfed in his warm embrace for a while, he didn’t say a word, he was curious to know what happened, I could feel and see it but I just couldn’t bring myself to do that yet. I’m not sure I can do that because I know how badly I was going to break down.
“I’m sorry flower, If I offended you to stay mad at me and for whatever cause it is that made you have such a scary nightmare.” He whispered in my ears, seducing me, tapping my shoulders calmly and rubbing my hair. It wasn’t supposed to be this way but I suddenly felt the urge to tell him what happened, why I had to sleep with my pills, why I don’t feel safe and more importantly, why I need to be away from him till our contract is over.
“Did you take away my pills Lex?” I asked under his embrace and I felt him stiffen as if I triggered something under his skin.
“I replaced them” He replied curtly, still running his hands on my hair and I bit my lips. I thought as much because the moment I saw those supplements, I knew something was wrong and my sleeping pills were nowhere to be found.
“I didn’t like the fact you used them all the time, it’s draining and totally unhygienic.” He explained nervously as if he did something really bad and I sighed, snuggling close to his embrace and feeling secure.
“It’s not, I can’t sleep without them.”
“Flower!” He gasped as if it was the most shocking revelation he received and I swallowed, my wolf was purring at me to share my fear, my pains to let him hug it away. I really wanted to share, after Melody, not even my parents knew what happened to me years ago in the dark alley at the back of Bri-royal Academy.
It was too painful, too heart wrenching to think about it and it consumed me in a way I never thought it was going to happen.
“You should have a natural sleep!”
He resisted a growl and I chuckled, disentangling myself from him and sighed, I turned my back away from him and released a shaky breath.
“I’ve never had a decent sleep since the incident that happened, I can’t even try!” I choked up on my words and he didn’t try to say anything or stop me. He was so curious, his eyes said it all and as much as I was eager to share this embarrassing moment with him, something in me was acting as a constant reminder that he might use this against me tomorrow.
“Talk to me please…can you ever say something and stop.. stop bottling them up?”
” It won’t change anything, it’s useless!”
“Flower!” He growled and took powerful steps towards me.”I’m your husband! You’re my responsibility and If anything is bothering you, I should know.”
“It’s all fake Lex, stop taking things seriously.” I sniffed and spat out angrily, I hated the reality of my words. I hated the fact that I’m the only desperate one who wished for something more. Who needed more attention and care, who wished all these acclamation and Possessiveness was real.
He didn’t like the sound of that, I guess because the next words that came out from his lips awakened every damn thing I had been trying to bury and made me vulnerable again.
“Does this look fake to you? Why the fuck will I be In your room and getting messed up in the head because you haven’t given me a single attention since morning.
Why would I be crazy in thoughts about you when I should be in my office or bed and be preparing for the next activity, I wouldn’t even be telling you shit about the test activity! Tell me flower, when I touch you, kiss you….” His eyes darkened at those latter words and I gulped, feeling my body heating up.
“Do you fake the emotions too?” He asked me, cupping my cheeks and staring deep into my eyes. “Because I don’t fake them Lilia, you’re in my head, thoughts and your cum in my tongue is what I tastes every damn freaking day!” I gasped and heaved restlessly.
My clit throbbed with a full force that scared me, I bit my lips and stared at him remembering our escapedes. After that night I had initiated a kiss, I was used to Lex fingers around my body and inside me. His office and my room was one of the places I muffle my moans with every sweet thrusts inside me, I’ll recoil and tighten my hold on him till I thrash out.
I needed more each time and he was a good timer to stop right in time.
“So even if you don’t tell me whatever it is you’re battling with, I won’t let you take that pill, you deserve a natural sleep and I’ll push aside any thoughts of negativity … . for now.” He said softly and caressed his thumb on my lips.
“I’m a damaged plant Lex…” I chuckled bitterly, sniffing and swallowing at the same time to reduce my shallow breath.
“It’s why I stick to rules perfectly because I don’t want to soil the nectar you have within you. I’m a destroyed flower.” I let the words sink down inside my soul and remembered the words thrown at me at White Crisp, how cursed I was and how wretched I was and the tears fell.
“Then I’ll fix It.” He whispered huskily and I shook my head.
“You don’t understand Lex, I’m cursed!” I spat out and felt a heavy chunk of pain at the base of my throat.
“I was raped!” I shook, gritting my teeth in anger and pain. “And I’m damaged for anything in this life. No matter how you try to defend me from your pack and people, it won’t hide that fact in any way” I sobbed.
“I was finished right before me and as if that wasn’t any, I fell for the wrong person…and fucked up badly. My ta…my tape is so…”
“Shhh….. don’t!” He placed his hands on my lips and wiped the tears.
“I’ll deal with him, I promise Lilia. Raven is working on it.” I laughed and shook my head, he doesn’t even know what he’s saying at the moment, if only he knew.
“No…you can’t”.
“I’m disappointed at your level of underestimation, no one fucking messes up with you! It happened before but it’s never happening again!”
My heart squeezed in pain. If he knew it was his beloved brother, would he even be able to repeat this statement? Does he know what Felix is?
I shook my head and sniffed, releasing a shaky breath but feeling relieved as if I rolled out a heavy stone off my chest. I could already imagine the disappointment in his face if he realized my past life with his brother only for me to keep quiet all this while.
“I feel sleepy.” I lied to him and wiped my tears. I needed space and time for thoughts. More importantly, I needed my privacy so I could sneak out freely without any form of discomfort.
But instead of adhering to my words, he stared deeply Into my eyes and frowned.
“Your eyes, the colors are fading” He said that as an observation and I frowned too, not his gaze flickered to my lips and I licked them.
“You should sleep flower.” He rubbed my lower lip, lowering his head and his minty breath blended into mine making my heart jammed hard.
“But this time around, it has to be me In your dreams and not some mother fucking idiots!” He retorted and crashed his lips against mine hungrily. The effect from the force of his possession made me staggered, but he held my waist for support and kissed the hell out of my delicate lips.
Nothing looked calm about him as his tongue struggled against mine harshly. The heat between us increased, I bit his lower lips desperately and I gasped when he cupped my ass fully and I groaned.
“Lex!” I moaned and he stopped, flickering his gaze at me.
“I need to see all of you Flower” His voice dropped to the most seductive tone ever and as if it was controlled with a remote, I obeyed instantly.