Contracted to the Wrong Alpha
Chapter 23
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Lex’s Pov
Xander was growling, writhing, and snaring at whatever it could. My canines were out so I felt a taste of copper and warm liquid in my tongue as I stared at the two men that were ready to take Lilia.
I stared at Alveria whose aura authority was beginning to fade at my cold stare and
Jax!
Fuck!!
I feel like someone stabbed me, crumpling my crown and pride to the dirt.
I know, I know, I deserve any name right now but I’ve never felt so embarrassed.
Embarrassed with my presence and the act that I almost watched.
Watching Jax stepping out to make a declaration and mockery of my Pack, my presence, and the way Lilia was treated added to the hot furnace in my body.
He was right.
So fucking right and that hurts like hell.
I’ve known Jasper for months, especially since my interest in merging the Pack came to light. I’ve studied him to know he’s an arrogant freak with his standards and would do anything for the well-being of his people.
I heard he was betrothed, I wonder why he won’t have a mate rather than having an arranged marriage in a facade or having a betrothed.
But compared with my situation, I realize how hypocritical that sounds. I wasn’t interested in his Luna or his mate, I just wanted a cooperation with him.
I stared at Lilia and felt my heart twisted in burning as If a Jagdkommando knife was twisted deeply to the very depths of my lungs down to my stomach.
She begged, she fucking pleaded but I’m too blind to please Alveria and the pack, getting blind by silly laws and customs biding the pack.
And what worsened my state?
If she hadn’t closed her mind link with me, maybe I wouldn’t have felt so awful right now.
Maybe I wouldn’t have gotten to hear that desperate shrilly longing voice of hers to ask Jax to stay!
Goddess!!
“You piece of shit!” Xander growled at me, he was hyperventilating all of a sudden. He was making my body hurt and all I wanted to do was punch something so hard, give myself a wound, and have a good smell of blood to calm me down.
Lilia was innocent, all she wanted was her first happy moments at the Blue Moon Ritual after coming out from that hell hole of darkness. I was curious as to what else would make her happy even though it felt so wrong.
I was fighting with my inner feelings and telling myself that she would be gone in six months and I should be careful and strict.
Raven had even warned me not to get attached or I’ll end up hurting myself or scaring her but Fuck it all at the sight of Jax!!
She wanted him, she didn’t look at him like some monster and something tells me that they were familiar with each other. The way they stared at each other like long-time lovers made me want to tear them apart and make a claim.
I’ve never felt this way since Seraphina died but all this, Alveria, Lilia, and Jax was making me lose my mind.
“Take her to the royal Pack room.” I finally said causing a tension that made the whole crowd and pack quiet and a huge flicker of fear washed through her eyes and her tears fell freely.
I could sense her fear, it was heavy and Primal and I growled in self-disgust.
She didn’t need to be my mate or Luna but if someone else was afraid of me in this manner, I’d make sacrifices to the moon goddesses to make such a person free with me.
“I said Take her to the Royal Pack room, NOW!”
My voice came as a growl and Alveria stepped forward.
“She’s a rogue and might hurt ”
“Right now, I find it hard to believe a thing you’re saying Alveria. Continue the Blue Moon Ritual, the ball, and do what you have to do next.”
It wasn’t a request, neither was it an order. It was something that she needed to do as I used the Alpha’s command on her and her face flickered in shock before nodding.
‘Jax, where are you please? Are you there?’
She said again in desperation and I growled!
“FUCKING PRICK! SHE NEEDS SOMEONE ELSE! SHE WANTS SOMEONE ELSE AND NOT ME!!
Xander growled, increasing my retribution and making me go into a hot rage, self-hate, and disgust. I wonder why he’s taking his emotions too far to make me feel worse
I imagined it was Seraphina asking for someone else and I stomped out in Fury, glancing at her once again as her eyes searched the crowd. The gag of soothing relief that watched her affected me as she saw Jax who gave her an approving nod of assurance and I felt a huge bitter lump.
Fuck!!
Why the hell am I feeling this way?
Raven followed me blankly and Felix wanted to follow me too but I stopped him through the mind.
‘I need to be alone Felix, we’ll talk later.’
‘Damn, why are you angry? Is it Raven? Are you okay?’
He asked me as panic washed over him and I almost scoffed. He could smell my anger, we have bonded so much that we both know whatever emotions we share even if we were miles apart.
‘I’m okay Felix, trust me.’
‘A’ight, just be out for the crowning and acception.’ He reminded and I nodded as if he could see me.
I didn’t know where I was going but my feet dragged me to the training hall.
Raven won’t say a word, he better not.
“SHE MIGHT NOT BE MY MATE BUT SHE’S HURT ALEXANDER! SHE ALMOST FUCKING DIED!”
I growled and ignored my wolf, wore the black leather gloves, and vented all my frustration to the Heavy bag.
I didn’t need another soothsayer to tell me that Lilia’s wolf was strange. White as snow and had blue sapphire eyes. She was clean as a rare angel but that’s the color of a rogue wolf.
They disguise this color in white for people to mistake them as normal wolves while the other gets inflicted by a dangerous curse with dark powers. They may be white as snow but they were dark and black in deeds.
I saw how Gracie cheated, Lilia drew the first blood but she still went over to attack.
“AND YOU WATCHED HER RIGHT, YOU KNEW BUT KEPT QUIET! YOU PRICK!”
I ignored Xander, there was no need to retaliate to his words as I knew it would only drive me to the edge with anger. I don’t even understand why he’s so mad and interested in girls who hated me to the core.
I punched the bag with all my might and I felt a ripping sound of my shirt beneath my armpit under the blue tux I wore.
I was sweating but It didn’t do well to quench the anger in me.
I would have laughed at myself days back for reacting this way but I don’t care. I felt stupid, and useless and couldn’t stop imagining that I would watch Lilia get beaten to death, taken to the forbidden dungeon of Midnight Shade, and even worse get expunged from the pack and from being my Luna.
Why do I just feel that all these years, I’ve been living under the influence of my father and Alveria and I don’t have a say to do what I deem fit to please me?
It felt worse that I was realizing this for a lady I barely knew. A lady who probably sees me as some Halloween horror and would pray for the moons to grant her a superpower.
She fled on our wedding day!!
No matter the circumstances surrounding her , wasn’t I good-looking enough? I am damn Influential to buy her the world if she asks and acts according to our agreement.
I don’t need to ask anyone, I mean, anyone to do what I require of Lilia and they would grant my request for free but it’s so opposite in Lilia’s case.
“Jethro says that Alpha Jax is requesting to see Lilia, should he let him in?”
Raven suddenly asked out of the blue and a painful snort escaped my throat.
She wants him.
My wolf won’t stop yelling at me to take charge but I wasn’t going to do that.
“Let him,” I told him and Raven nodded and I got so irritated. He didn’t give a damn about my acts and he just approved just like that?
“You think I’m weird Raven?” I asked him out of the blue and he nodded with a poker face.
“Fucking talk to me!” I growled.
“Sorry Alpha, I think you’re weird. You left the Blue Moon Ritual to punch a bag, breaking it in the process. You’re mad because Lilia feels more protective with Jax than you and you’re feeling like shit because you almost send her to the dungeon after a cheating combat with Gracie”. He said that as if he was reciting a poem and I scrunched my nose before noticing the sand that was spilling from the bag. It was surely broken.
“You know all of that? You didn’t even say a word and you’re letting Jax meet her?”
“I know that Lilia was innocent of the candle floating bag, It was so suspicious and Jax was right when he said that Lilia wasn’t supposed to be with the crowds.”
The sharp deck of punch I threw at him and the smart sliding of his leg with my feet for him to crash on the floor truly sent him off guard. I had known Raven to be alert for any attack for years but this one was out of the question.
“You know that she’s innocent and you kept quiet?” I roared at him.
“You never asked me anything Alpha, you were mute. You only asked me about Alveria’s daughter and I answered” He groaned and spat out the blood in his lips.
I felt a stinging pain crawling up to my chest. I was more concerned with how Alveria felt than Lilia.
“And even when you had the opportunity to at least look for an excuse to shut Alveria, you let her. You’re the Alpha and I’m not” He spat again and I swallowed without saying anything and his next words hit me like a ton of bricks, reminding me of the reality I had forgotten.
“And you’re feeling guilty because of that, you’re getting attached to her Alpha but don’t forget that she would run when she knows your true identity!”