15

It was all a dream.
I am breathing heavily as I try to come to terms with what just happened. I still can’t believe I had just dreamt that up. Me getting intimate with Sia wasn’t real. Then why did I have such a dream? It had to be the bond. It’s the only reason why I would have that type of dream. I gasped once I realized the truth of what happened. If I hadn’t woken up when I did, I would have had sex with Sia in my dream. I am breathing hard and sweating profusely, so I don’t notice Sia in the room.
“You were asleep for two days. I was starting to think you had died.”
I would have if I hadn’t woken up when I did.
“I’m sure you would be overjoyed if I died.”
“Just the opposite. If you died, I would be seriously affected.”
It was weird talking to Sia after the dream I just had but I don’t let it or his words get to me.
“Plus, why do you look as though you have seen a ghost?”
“I had a bad dream,” I say, averting my eyes from his face of perfection.
“Care to share?”
And let him know the gritty details? No way. I won’t let him pressurize me into saying what I don’t want to. He has already done enough of that in my dream.
“No.”
“Fine. How is your back?”
“Better than how you left it,” I respond, snarky.
He sighed. “Look, I’m sorry, okay? That’s why I made you breakfast.”
“I don’t want your breakfast and I am not hungry.”
“You will starve to death.”
“It would save you the trouble.”
“Look, I am sorry, okay? Why is it so hard for you to understand?”
“Just leave me alone, okay? I want to be left alone. Forgive me if I don’t feel comfortable around you.”
“Was I in your dream?”
My breath catches in my throat. “How… how did you know that?”
“Your body language gave you away and you wouldn’t meet my eyes.”
“Maybe I just don’t like the emptiness in them.”
“I don’t know what I did to you in your dream but I just want you to know…”
I cut him off. “What gives you the impression that you did something to me?”
“You were not the only one that dreamt,” he says looking away.
“You dreamt as well.”
He nods sadly, “The dreams would never stop.”
“But it has to. It’s not every day I want you to be fingering me in my dream.”
There I said it. Sia’s eyes widened. “I fingered you?”
My face reddens. “Forget it. When would the dreams stop?”
“When one of us falls victim to the bond, only then will they stop.”
I don’t like this. The bond just keeps on taking me unawares.
“Nah, I think they will stop when we finally have sex.”
Sia chokes on his spit. From his reddened cheeks, I knew exactly what he had dreamt about.
?
“You said you wouldn’t hurt me,” I say after my breakfast has been digested. “Why did you lie Sia?”
“It was a mistake.”
“No, it’s not. Kissing me is a mistake, bonding with me is a mistake, but hurting me is not a fucking mistake.”
“I thought we were done with this. What else do you want from me Crinka?”
“My freedom. That’s all I want.”
“No.”
“You broke your promise. You hurt me, yet you won’t give me what I want. Why do you hate me so much Sia? Answer me!” I screamed in his face.
“I cannot give you what you want, but I can let you enjoy yourself without my supervision.”
“What are you talking about?”
“We are going to Ruarc’s party, 8 pm tonight.”
“I thought you didn’t want to go.”
“I am doing this for you. I just want you to be happy.”
If you truly want me to be happy Sia, give me my freedom.
?
Anita has to be a slut to own such revealing clothes. The short dress, as tight as it is, shows so much skin.
“How do I look?”
“Slutty.”
Even though I knew his words were true, his answer still hurts me to the core, I forced a smile.
“So, who is this Ruarc guy anyway?”
“My brother.”
His tone is curt, the reply is short and simple.
“That doesn’t explain much.”
“We are here.”
Whoever this guy is, is swimming in money. I wonder just how rich he is.
“Don’t just stare, enter.”
The bouncers kind of look intimidating, so I just wait until Sia parks his truck.
“Don’t get nosy and don’t take any drink from anyone.”
“I already know the rules, mister.”
The bouncers were very familiar with Sia, and they even asked after Sia. I would ask him what that was all about later. Right now, my motive is to get drunk and get laid like a pro.
Sia introduced me to a lot of people, but I had a feeling he didn’t want me to meet his brother. I’ve had a drink or two, but I’m already tipsy. Perks of being a lightweight. The night was going great until I met Ruarc. Turns out, he happens to be the same guy I met at the auction. He doesn’t act as we have met before, so I play along of course.
“I never thought I would see Sia with another woman other than Anita.”
“What’s that supposed to mean?”
“Nothing. It’s just that nobody can break up those two. I have tried and failed.”
“Sorry for your loss. Now if you will excuse me, I want to get laid.”
Something flashed in his eyes, but I didn’t stick around to know what it was.
“Hey where are you running to? You haven’t even told me your name.”
“You’re not worthy. Let go of me this minute or I’ll scream.”
What’s with all these Icelanders and grabbing females?
“You might have escaped this time, but you won’t be so lucky next time.”
“If there would be a next time. Adios Ruarc.”
My eyes scan the room for Sia. I don’t see him anywhere so I assume it’s safe to make my escape. I ascend the stairs as I can in my drunken state. I rush into the nearest bedroom and make quick use of the bathroom. I leave, feeling relieved, pausing when I realize that I am not alone in the room, and the door is locked. Don’t fret. You wanted to get laid right? But I can’t help it when I see it’s not Sia or his brother.
“Davidson. Long time no see. What do you want?”
I am very scared of this man. He almost killed me when I was temporarily blind. I froze when he neared.
“I want you.”
“I belong to someone else. The least you can do is respect that.”
“Respect is reciprocal Crinka. I see no mark on your neck, you belong to me,” he says lunging for me.
“I belong to no one; Let go of me!”
He grabs me by the scruff of my neck, encasing me in a chokehold. I slap at his hands gasping for air. My feet are no longer touching the floor. My eyes widen in terror when I see the amusement in his eyes.
“Now, what do you want Cersei?”
My heart broke upon hearing his nickname for me. There was a time when I loved that name. Now I hated it. I know that if I don’t give him what he wants, he would choke me to death.
“Air,” I say in between coughs. He laughs.
“You want air, right? I can give you what you want if you spread those long legs of yours for me. It’s not hard. You have been doing that for me until I met that she-devil.”
I nod repeatedly. “I didn’t hear you.”
How does this idiot expect me to speak when it’s hard to breathe? He lessens his tight grip to allow me to speak properly.
“Yes, I will sleep with you,” I say with heavy reluctance.
He grins and releases me. I fall on my arse.
“Undress. The party would soon be over.”
I’m shaking so badly that I can’t strip. Davidson now naked growls in frustration. He yanks me to my feet and like Sia, discards my torn clothes in the blink of an eye. My bare back touches the bed and the waterworks started. He doesn’t give a damn, pinning my wrists above my head with his left hand.
“Davidson don’t do this I’m begging you.”
Initially, I wished Sia would just come to my rescue.
“Stop fighting me Cersei and just enjoy this.”
How can anyone enjoy rape? Wanting him to be caught, I start screaming for help.
“Shut up woman, shut the hell up.”
I don’t and I get slapped. Blood sprays on my face before Davidson slumps on me, I scream and push his unconscious body away and it falls to the ground with a thud. I sit up, covering what I can, ready to thank Sia, but my smile falters when I see Ruarc instead. And he is scowling at me.
“Is this your idea of getting laid Cersei?”
“Don’t call me that.”
“You didn’t complain when he did.”
I glared at him. “He will soon start waking up. Let’s go.”
I jump to my feet, taking his hand. He doesn’t leave the room but holds me against the wall. “Listen to me and listen carefully. I don’t know what you have with Nasia, but mark my words, I won’t let him be with any woman other than Anita.”
“Why do you care so much?”
“If you still want your head resting on your shoulders, you would do well to avoid any form of intimacy between you two.”
“You’re joking right?”
“I mean it.”
And to prove a point, the idiot kisses me. His lips are bittersweet and soft unlike Sia’s. I kiss him back, but for some reason, I can’t explain, I love the feel of his lips on mine, I close my eyes melting in him, in this kiss. This is so much better than the dream I had. When I open my eyes, Ruarc is gone, leaving me hot and bothered and I’m staring into Sia’s white eyes.
Oh shit!