He started to protest, but she wasn’t hearing any of it, and flipped over onto her other side, scooting back up against him and reaching back for his arm.
“Sam,” he said, sounding very trepidatious.
“I promise not to let you fuck me,” she said, glancing back.
“Just… stop saying ‘fuck’ please,” he said, sighing and finally sliding fully up against her.
“Mmm,” she said, sighing in contentment.
A minute of silence passed between them, and she decided to break it. “See… this isn’t so bad,” she told him.
A few more seconds passed, and he replied, “No… you’re right. It’s nice.”
“Now just slide it in…” she said.
“Sam… Jesus Christ!” he said as she erupted into laughter.
“I’m kidding, I’m kidding!” she replied, grabbing his hand as he started to pull away. “Come back and I’ll tell you all about what I want to do.”
He sighed hard, and she could tell he was debating on whether she was going to behave or not.
“Snuggle me dammit,” she said sharply.
“Fine… fuck…” he replied, chuckling
She giggled at his response, resisting the urge to make a juvenile joke out of it, and sighed happily again as his arms pulled her tight. Over the next twenty minutes, she forced herself to behave, and told him about Brandon and Zoey, even what had happened that day.
“But you didn’t get any,” he stated.
She shook her head. “I didn’t have time, honestly,” she said. “Work.”
He nodded behind her.
“So, you only served to turn yourself on more?” he asked.
She frowned. “I… I did, didn’t I?” She hadn’t realized that.
After that, she told him about her friend Kara, her odd little relationship as well as Duncan and Kelly, and then all about the place they all fooled around at, The Mess Around.
“So, it’s a swinger’s club,” he said.
She nodded. “They’ve got strict rules for people who join, and they have to get STD tests every so often. I’m thinking about going and seeing what it’s like.”
He nodded. “I guess that’s one option,” he said.
She sensed a bit of hesitation in his tone. “What?” she asked.
He shrugged.
“What?” she repeated, flipping over and looking at him. “What other options do I really have?”
He shrugged, his mouth moving but no words coming out. She realized that he didn’t know what to say.
“I need something! I’ve let it get to a point that we’re both sexually attracted to each other. Obviously, I don’t to ruin our relationship and actually have sex with my own brother,” she said. “I’m not interested in Keith anymore, and I’m not really looking for a boyfriend. I just want to be able to focus on other things. Sex has seemed to become a weird focal point in my life.”
“I understand that,” he said. “I’m a guy. There are times that all I can think about is sex. I just thought… women were different.”
She looked at him in confusion.
“Like… you can get horny, but not in the same way that guys get horny.”
Her confusion turned to incredulous disbelief that he might actually believe that.
“I’m just saying, if I can’t have sex with my girlfriend or…” he said, abruptly stopping mid-sentence.
“Or?” she prompted after a few seconds. He seemed to have been about to say something, but then cut himself off.
“If I need to clear my head, I just jerk off if Sally isn’t around,” he said.
She looked at him suspiciously, but then shook her head. “You realize that an orgasm is different for us, right? It isn’t always just a matter of friction. Masturbating doesn’t always do something for me. It’s not… I’m not looking for just an orgasm.”
He nodded, obviously understanding what she was saying a bit more.
“Sometimes it’s about me wanting to have contact and be touched or give a guy pleasure. Sometimes I want to be desired and pursued. Its not just having the orgasm.”
“Oh,” he said after a few moments of silence. “I was…”
“Thinking like a guy,” she ventured.
He chuckled. “Precisely. So, you want to explore your sexual side. I get it, but… I don’t know those people that you were talking about. They could be just like Pastor Dickhead and I’m not letting that happen again if I can help it.”
“Aww,” she said, looking back at him. “You’re being protective of me.”
He raised an eyebrow and looked at her flatly. “Duh,” he said, drawing giggles.
“Well, don’t worry. I’m not Samantha anymore, remember? I’m Sam. Plus, when I told them a bit about what happened to me, they were just as upset about it as you were. These are good people, and I trust Kara.”
He nodded. “Still, it makes me nervous.”
“Well, why don’t you meet them the first time,” she said. “You and I can go, and you can meet them, even if we don’t stay for the sexy times.”
He raised an eyebrow. “I’m pretty sure that family members wouldn’t be allowed.”
She giggled. “There’s two sets of sisters that go, that I know of,” she said.
“Jesus,” he said. “Seriously?”
She nodded. “Look, I think it’s sweet that you’re worried about me. I love that you come to my rescue. But… I need things that you can’t… well,” she said, correcting herself and looking at him pointedly, “rather… you shouldn’t… give me.”
He smirked at her. “Sam. You’re not making things easy on me.”
She giggled again. “I know. There’s times when I can feel how difficult things are for you.”
“Jesus,” he groaned, closing his eyes and shaking his head.
“Oh, come on… can’t we laugh about this? Seriously, if Alex or Toni were in this position, you don’t think they’d find it funny? I mean, the other day Alex and I were both making jokes about how she and I were turning each other on. We were laughing our butts off!”
A weird look crossed Dane’s face, and she looked at him curiously, but he chuckled quickly and shook his head.
“Yeah, I guess that would be funny,” he said.
“Still… I’ve got something that might be able to help you, in a weird… sick sort of way.”
“What?” he said, looking at her skeptically.
“I was talking to Zoey before she and Brandon started getting dirty in front of me, and she said that I looked like a certain porn star. So… I know it sounds weird, but you said it was a ‘stupid guy urge’ and you couldn’t help it. So… if you need to jerk off, you could watch that girl.”
There was a long pause, and Dane’s expression changed from skepticism to disbelief.
“Tiffany Lace, I think is what…”
“SAM!” he said, his voice no longer a whisper.
She jerked in shock. He saw the look of surprise on her face and sighed, his voice dropping back down.
“I feel bad enough for jerking off to a video of you, and now you want me to do it again to a girl that looks like you? We’re trying to move past this, not make it worse!”
She sighed, frowning at him. “That’s a good point,” she said eventually. “Sorry.”
He shook his head and she looked at him and grinned, making him chuckle and causing him to close his eyes. Giggling, she leaned forward and put her forehead on his chin, his hand moving to stroke her hair. After a few minutes, she looked back up at him and sighed happily.
He rolled his eyes and pulled, drawing her into him as she giggled and shook her head, his strength and warmth soothing and calming. Their legs were tangled together, but he’d been able to keep his dick from getting hard, or his erection was hiding somewhere painful, as she didn’t feel it at all.
She sighed happily and felt him kiss the top of her head.
“I’m just gonna go to sleep now,” she said. “You’re not allowed to wake me up though.”
He chuckled, and for a moment she thought he might mistake that for her wanting him to leave, but he didn’t. A few minutes later, she was out.