“Sam,” he said, drawing her gaze upward. “It’s not about the kiss. I understand what caused it. That’s why I wanted to apologize and talk to you. There’s something bothering me, and I don’t want to ruin our relationship or hurt you in any way,” he said.
She wondered where this was going, and felt butterflies forming in her stomach again.
“When we started doing snugglebugs again, you noticed that I got aroused; probably more than once. It’s happened pretty much every time since then, and I don’t know what to do about it. I don’t want to take snuggling away from you, since you really seem to enjoy it.”
He looked at her, and she nodded.
“I do enjoy it. And you’re right, I noticed the first time. I always notice,” she said. “It’s kinda hard not to.”
He chuckled, and she was glad to see it, her nervousness abating just a bit.
“I never actually admitted to using it, but I wanted to let you know that I was sorry for the video.”
“I know you are,” she told him.
“I just… I feel like I’m dancing around what’s bothering me; what the issue is.”
“Well,” she said, wondering how she could help him relax. “Just say it, then,” she decided. “We’ve always been honest and I’m not going to get upset.”
He nodded and took a deep breath. After closing his eyes for about ten seconds, he opened them and looked at her.
“I’m attracted to you,” he said. “I… I’m…” he stammered. “It’s more than that,” he said, shaking his head again. “I’m sexually attracted to you,” he said, squeezing his eyes shut.
In her head, Sam was laughing her ass off. “That’s it?” she kept thinking. “Oh Dane, if you only knew what went through my mind.”.
In her bedroom, though, she was stone-faced, but patient.
“With everything you’ve been through, it’s really tearing me up inside that I’m having the feelings toward you that I am.”
He raised his hands and placed them on his temples, his eyes shut through his fingers. “You’ve been through so much, and now your older brother is sexually attracted to you.”
He seemed to be squeezing the sides of his head, and she winced, reaching out to place a hand on one of his.
“Stop,” she whispered. “It’s okay.”
He shook his head. “It’s not.”
“It is,” she said. “You really think I didn’t know why you were getting an erection every time we were snuggling?” she asked.
He stopped trying to explode his own head with his hands and looked up at her.
“Mom and I had a talk recently, that Saturday before Keith and I had our fight, in fact, and she filled me in on a family secret.”
She sighed, quiet for a moment as she thought of the conversation and how much she loved her mother for letting her know.
“The women in our family have always had notoriously high sex drives,” she explained. “She admitted that she and my birth mom were always horny, and always raising hell. She also told me that it only got worse as she got older.”
Dane looked a little disgusted, and very surprised.
“Dane,” she said, drawing his attention again. “I kissed you, because… because Sam wanted me to,” she admitted.
His look of confusion was understandable.
“Sam and Samantha,” she said, looking down and chuckling in sad resignation. “Pastor Dickhead and his whore wife talked to me about it a few times,” she said. “Samantha is the girl I was. She was the one that went to church and did all the right things. She was a good girl. But Sam?” she asked, giving him an intense look. “Sam is a bad girl. Sam’s the type of girl that won’t say no,” she said, giving him a mischievous grin.
Her grin vanished and she shook her head.
“But that wasn’t the truth. The truth is that… Samantha is the naive little idiot that let that happen to her. Sam… Sam is what’s left. Sam is stronger. Sam is sexy and… she has sex… and she likes giving blowjobs, and swallowing cum,” she said, wiping a single tear away.
She sighed and rolled her eyes, wiping another tear away and taking a deep breath before continuing her rambling.
“Sam is the one that would have seen those two coming a mile away. I’m not Samantha anymore. I’m not the one that’s going to get used and thrown away. I’m a sexual being now. I’ve got guys and girls at school that flirt with me and I flirt back with. I find myself being attracted to all sorts of people. Even you, you clueless dolt,” she said, looking back at him. “When I was in your room and hugged you, I wanted to kiss you,” she admitted. “So, I did,” she said with a simple shrug. “I couldn’t tell you at the time that I wanted to do more to you.”
She looked at him, trying to judge his reaction.
He chuckled, and she felt better almost instantly.
“So… we both want to hump each other’s brains out,” he said.
He’d said it quietly, but it broke the tension in the room, and she couldn’t help but laugh.
The two of them fell over in her bed, laughing until they were clutching their stomachs. A minute or so later, she was mostly composed, but held her stomach as random snickers and giggles passed through her.
“You know, you’ve gotten incredible sexy,” he said, sighing. “I know how fucked up it is to admit that, you being my sister and all, but I’m not taking it back.”
She giggled quietly. “One of the first times you and I snuggled a few weeks ago, I’d woken up from our nap and you were still sleeping. You had a hard-on, and… God…” she whispered, closing her eyes and instantly recalling the image that had been burned into her mind.
A few seconds later, she opened her eyes and took a deep breath. “It was out of your underwear, and you reached down as you started to wake up, and just… gripped it.”
He groaned and covered his face with his hand, eliciting a giggle from her.
“It was so… so gorgeous,” she sighed. “You were so hard and big, and I just remember wanting to rush over and shove it in my mouth.”
He laughed, blushing as he heard what she’d said. She wasn’t going to take it back though. He uncovered his face then and looked back at her.
“I enjoy seeing you naked,” he admitted, drawing an amused look from her.
“So do I,” she admitted with a giggle. “I’m a sexy woman.”
“Very much so,” he agreed. “I absolutely love the way you feel when you’re pressed up against me. It’s all I can do not to just…”
He stopped talking and shook his head.
“Pull my panties to the side and slide it in me?” she asked, looking over at him.
“Fuck,” he said, covering his face again.
She giggled. “I have the same desires, Dane,” she said. She’d been about to say, “big brother,” but felt the context would have made it a little icky.
“Sam,” he said, sighing, “we need to figure out how to handle this.”
She nodded. “I know,” she said. “I’m talking with my friend Kara tomorrow about a possible outlet for my rampaging sexual appetite.”
“Yeah?” he asked.
She nodded. “I’ll tell you about it if you snuggle up to me,” she said, drawing a raised eyebrow.
“You want snugglebugs after we both admitted that we want to…” he asked, trailing off.
“Fuck each other?” she asked. “Yes. It’s not like we’re going to.”