That was what being evil felt like. Divine, extraordinary, and refreshing.
There would be this kind happiness, this rage in you heart that would be making you to do something extra like kiss Hawk so Caramel and her idiotic mother would know how mating is. If I had asked Hawk to carry me, I was sure he would, definitely because of Rex.
Because of Rex? I don’t think Rex would even mind. He doesn’t even want me so what would be the difference?
Hawk seem kind to be the type of mate that would want to neglect their partner. A beta might want to follow the example of his Alpha but i doubt Hawk was that stupid. He should be hawkish and not have the brain of a bird.
With my face now pressed on his chest, I heard him muttered lots of apologies to Gregg that sounds more like the father; Caramel’s father. The irresponsible father that would stand and watch his wife and daughter want to torture a fellow omega because he obviously does not want to be with them anymore.
How was that even possible?
As long as I have heard about mating, I knew the would Mark themselves and would not be able to de with each other.
Even as I claim that I still hate Rex, deep down, I want to see him, to run into his arms. I want to fill my nostrils with his scent, I want to watch his sleep and hope to forcefully claim him one day too.
Weird?
Better get used to it, I can’t just let him go with the same humiliation I felt.
With Hawk holding my hand as we walked out the room, I felt a bit better and less evil. Frankly, if anyone should ask me why I hugged him in front of Caramel’s family, I would say I have no idea. Not even why I became suddenly pissed and want to do something bad aside wanting to kill Rex.
The people stare as I know they won’t stop but it wasn’t like before. So with Hawk holding my hand, I wonder if he is really as comfortable as he look because his sweaty palm is saying other wise.
“Your palm is sweaty” I whispered.
Hawk didn’t say anything, he just looked down at me and back up. A small groan, possibly an act in acknowledging that he heard me clearly without wanting to say anything. The few times I remember walking out, the first thing I seem to recognize before getting anywhere near Rex’s chamber a huge house that seems odd form the rest.
Unlike other placed, it’s supposed to be maybe neutral but this one seems a bit dark outside and attractive.
Sadly, I looked up again to Hawks face to find him staring at me this time. He has this confused look on his face and I doubt his has eaten this morning, not when he arch a little to sniff my head.
Oh no!
I want to tell him that I don’t want to go back to Rex’s Chamber but the next thing I noticed is us standing at the front of his door. He hesitated as of waiting for me to make up my mind which I eventually did.
“I want to eat”.
Waiting a few more seconds after I mumbled my request, I raised my head to see Hawk staring blankly at me. For a few seconds he didn’t act like he was with me, it was as if he was having his own conversation in his head and if I am right he gave me a flat smile.
“Just eat?”. He asked.
Yes! I want to eat. I am so tired, I want to eat, I want some fresh air, and to see the view of the field again. I want to do lots of things that I wasn’t able to do in my previous park even if its to just seat and watch without doing anything. Just two hours of seating in the sun, eating wide grapes, probably seating on a high stool or bench because I will love to wigle my legs.
Lastly, I want to get away form here. I want to go somewhere else, maybe another park with no omega like Caramel of her parents.
“Is that what you want because I see no reason why you still want to be outside, Rain” Hawk said calmly “It’s dangerous for you. And since not everyone know that you are the luna, it might get worst” he added in a strange whisper.
Worst?
Is something wrong with this park or am I the problem? Why on earth will they want to just want to harm someone they barely know?
Moving few steps away form Hawk, something strong in me kept telling me to be prepared unless he yank me instead. Since I haven’t being able to talk to my wolf after what that doctor has given to me, felt a bit isolated.
She should have a least tell me something stupid to do, and not just keep moving backward like a complete coward.
“I thought you said I am the Luna” I mumbled as i remained on my position a bit out of his arm reach “I uhmm…” I nervously “I am not abusing it but I wish I..”.
Looking down at my bare feet, I sighed before stepping towards him. What does it matter by the way? After all I am just one mate figure Rex uses sexual and when it comes to giving me that respect, I find none.
Stepping inside the apartment, I sighed before walking to the bed chamber. I can just stay in all day because going out still mean nothing to that too much light and lots of eyes on me. Even with Hawk constantly sniffing me, that’s should be an example of what I would face when I get out.
Now get to the bed, I threw my self on it and inhaled deeply. That’s calming, the fresh scent of my mate suddenly seem so refreshing and calming that I no longer want to go outside. Although his scent didn’t linger much, just as of he just came and left shortly.
I closed my eyes as I mentally wait for the door to close. I search inside for any positive sign of Ashina but none. It’s still her faint presence, as if she was really with me but months ago.
Quickly, I sat up as I stared at Hawkwho stood in front of me with a pair of white sneakers. Without saying a word, he bent and before to wear rye shows on my leg which made be a but agitated.
In my entire life, no male has ever hold my legs, not as gentle as he is doing it now. Well, its not like I have have wore or had any comfy white shoe that is my size.
‘Maybe being evil might be good’ i thought to myself but before I could say anything, Hawk did.
“Rex want to know why you no longer have your scent” Hawk raised to his feet “He wants to know of you are fine and you should mind link him now”.
My brows raised!
So that’s it, taking orders form his rapist Alpha that has done nothing but remain evil.
With a small shrug, I got to my feet and smiled calmly. With my fingers, I attempt to brush my hair over my shoulder so it would cover the Mark but failed to I ended up wearing my hair only on that shoulder.
“You will teach me how to mindlink but I will do that after you take me to Alaric” I stated “I am not asking, I am telling you like the Luna”.
That should be a start.
Next, I will tell him stuff like
“I want that shot to get my wolf back”
I need to get out of her.
I want to be free and help me get out of park.
Although I am scared I feel like I have to do it. If I don’t act well and fast, I am sure I will get killed before I know why I am even alive. For so long, I have never been sure of what I wanted in my entire life, not even for once.
Yes, I know I want my mate, I want to live, I want to stay here with my mate, but that also didn’t stop me from planning on escaping. As I have always been miserable, thinking about death seems like a common thing for me until now when I suddenly wish to fulfill what I have no idea of.
Now seating on the bed, I looked around the room again in deep fear. As usual, the park hospital didn’t look nice at all with their extra bright lights, awful smell, and scary needles almost everywhere. Loss of drugs could be since same as a few sick people. Don’t really know if they are sick being two of them are mothers with their newborn pups and another she-wolf that looks like she just hits puberty