RAIN’S POV
It’s been hours, I can’t tell how long but I know it would probably now be evening. Staring at the disgusting plate of what Rex has called Cabbage soup, I frowned.
‘I am never eating that’ I grumbled alone with with my stomach.
How the heck does he expect me to eat some watery stuff he calmed to be made out of cabbage. It could be that it was even made out of garbage.
He should have done this to me, I am his mate for crying out loud! I haven’t eaten since yesterday morning and my stomach hurts.
It’s not like it’s the first time I am going days without food, I have done hard jobs without food and I didn’t die.
‘Mate did it’ Ashina whispered.
Of course I know he did it! He raped me brutally and as if he wasn’t satisfied, he finished off with someone else.
Wasn’t I good enough!
Laying on the floor with my wet chin on the floor, I yawned. I want to eat, I want to pretend as if I am not hurt and go on with other things. I want to get a bucket and water to wash my inner self till I feel clean again.
I want to go back to my old life where I will work my ass our till I pass out weak. I want to wake up extremely tired and look like a dying sheep with no blood. I want to look as if the blood in my body had being drawn out the previous night.
I want to wake you feeling drugged only for me to get bullied, beaten, picked in, and harrashed by different people.
I want to over look bad things that happens to me! Just- not my mate!
He should be the one to hold me. To make me believe and know that I have gotten to the perfect hands made just for me.
If I was raped by someone else, I would have loved it. At least I have being expecting it for a long time and I have hoped for it to be Brook. That should explain how he would put his hands around me and sniff the heck out of me for a long time. That should explain how he would ask me to strip because he wants to access my injuries.
Access my injuries? Access my injures with his hands on my breast and warm breath on my stomach, pelvic area, neck, and chest?!
What does that even mean?
He could have accessed them out from anywhere. He can just ask them to stop hitting me but he didn’t.
He said the pain would make me stronger but it’s not.
‘What’s happening to me?’.
Mate or not, that asshole raped me and finished up worry someone else. I hate him. I hate meeting him. I hate ever believing in him.
‘He could have his reasons’ Ashina whispered but I ignored her.
I know my wolf has being blinded by lust, wolf bond, and hope. The same home that blinded me years ago. The same hope that madee believe my last name could be HOPE because I would be free at last.
Slowly getting to my feet, I walked towards the door. I just don’t know why I am doing it but I feel like I should get out. I feel like I should move on and forget about Rex.
‘You can’t reject it’ Ashina cried ‘He is our mate’.
Really?
A mate that does these hurtful things! I want to see him and tell him to his face that I don’t want him. I want him to look at him and not interrupt me when I would reject him to his face!
With my fist closed, I banged at the door. I feel like I am passing out while the room spin. Looking around I discover that the rest part of the wall are made of mirrors.
“Really?”.
Is this like an interrogation room or what? How come I didn’t notice it earlier?
“Caramel!” I whispered harshly “I hate you!”.
Am I supposed to hate her or Raven? Am I suppose to be worried I bite her? Am I suppose to wish I could have killed her of not for the person that knocked me out!
She would have obviously healed completely by now. Another thing the moon goddess had been unjust with.
She made me weak! Life full of pain! Made me heal very slow! Why did she ever let me out the celetial kingdom if she knows I would have a flooded life?!
Why?
That’s it, the rest normal wolf get to heal fast while I get stuck with my injuries since five days now. I bet Caramel would be somewhere in Park swinging her flat butt.
That omega.
I think I hit her too.
‘She will be fine’ Ashina scoffed ‘Poor thing just got in the way of another poor thing’.
Funny uh?
I could not tell why I felt better having my wolf talk like that to me. After all, she is the only one that takes me for who I am because she is me and we are stuck together for the rest of my pathetic lives.
Twisting the handle seems extremely useless as the door didn’t open. I kicked, banged, scream, and pulled the handle again but nothing happened.
‘The coward trapped us in’ Ashina said ‘He really did hate us’.
Leaning on the door while I stare at my reflection from the other end of the room, I took time to notice how simple but her complicated the room is.
The bed is located at the far end of the room, a big black screen on the wall, and the awful looking food on the floor. Nothing seem interesting about it, not even the fruits seating like rejected offerings.
At the left hand side of the room is another door, and even though I seriously want to make use of the bathroom, I remained still.
‘That’s smell’ Ashina interrupted my peace ‘It smells like mate!’.
Really?
Having something that belongs to my mate in this room?
Pissed, I clumsily stood up and walked over to what I can call my new clothes. It’s like a small box on the floor filled with over revealing dresses and lingeries. They all smell nice, not even a single perfume can be traced to them. It could just be that no one has ever worn the before.
“I smell it” I frowned as I sniffed the air more “That son of a wolf”.
Good thing no one is around as I sniffed my self before cussing again. Although it sounds weird to me but I want to cuss more. To call my mate a disgust bag of fish and son of a wolf.
Now I get it, I am the one that smell of him so badly. Good thing I won’t be going out today because I bet I would be the central of attention.
I want to take my bath, to wash his smell off me as much as I could but I could not get myself too. Not when I find the smell relaxing and tempting.
Yeah, tempting.
With my elbow near my nose, I sniffed hard, trying to draw as much of his scent as I can.
Laying on the floor to make my self comfortable, I bit my lower lips as I clenched my fist. They are better being clenched that touch my inching nipples or my wet vaginal.
‘Last night when Mate first got into us, what did you feel?’ Ashina asked.
I frowned.
Looking around embarrassed, I removed my elbow from my nose. This should not be the good question to ask now but thanks to the moon goddess, it drove away that nasty aroused rubbish.
How can I be so turned on over the scent of the person that treats me like trash? How can I be having mixed feelings for someone that would definitely want to kill me after he is done with me?
I didn’t realize I was crying until felt the tears drop into my ear.
“I hate you Rex!”.
“I am sure you do”.
I flinched. Rushing to a seat position, I found Rex stand at the open door.
That’s it, my chance of escaping.
If I get out, get caught by enemies and get killed, or Raped to death by a stranger; I would be better. I would forgive them knowing fully well that people are evil.
I know they won’t want to hurt the person they would likely spend rgw rest of their lives with so they would hurt another.
They would hurt another!
Was that the reason this douchebag hate me?
Glaring at him, my mind keeping tellinge to do two things.
Run to him, beg him.
No way in hell! I know that was Ashina and I want to tell her that I definitely not need her. I have been fine without her and her into my life made it worst.
I don’t need her,
“Just as I don’t need you, Rex!” I growled.