Casper
I stormed into my bedroom, raving with anger. My breathing labored, and my blood boiling.
I felt like I was about to explode.
Thanks to that silly girl.
“I know you are mad about her lateness, and it screams incompetence, but I think you are overreacting,” Raphel whines behind me as he increases his pace to catch up with me.
I buried my hand in my pocket in a flash, pulling out a pen before throwing it in his direction.
His body responded in a reflex action as he swiftly dodged the pen, making it miss his left eye.
“What the fuck, Casper!” He exclaimed.
My blood rushed to the surface at his words and I swiftly turned to him before knocking him off his feet.
“It’s Alpha to you and it will always remain like that,” I stated firmly before striding into my bedroom. “Plus you don’t tell me what to do.”
I shut the door without glancing at him.
I heaved a tensed sigh the moment I bounced on the bed.
It didn’t take a few seconds before I jumped on my feet, pacing about my room like a madman. My breath was harsh and my hands started trembling.
I knew Raphael was right. I overreacted.
But he should have kept mute.
I didn’t derive joy in hurting Raphael. He is loyal to me and I love him. But his sharp mouth annoys me most of the time.
I hated someone instructing me on what to do.
I was no one’s puppet!
Aside from his attitude pissing me off, the death of my mate and my kids ruined the rational part of me.
Marina’s absence made me an aggressive monster that no one wanted to get close to.
The only people I was used to all my life were Anna and Raphael.
They were the only ones who understood my aggressive side and put up with it for years. They knew it wasn’t my fault that I acted irrationally.
“I’ll just wait here until you are done brooding.”
Raphael’s voice sounded faintly behind the door.
“Fine!” I responded harshly, wrapping my face in my palms.
While Raphael thought I was mad at the girl because of her lateness, I wasn’t.
Deep down, I knew if she arrived early, I would still fire her.
I didn’t want her around me.
I didn’t want her breathing the same air here with me.
It was hard to explain but there was a strange feeling I felt whenever I was around her.
Her presence awoke my vulnerability.
I hated it.
I vowed never to appear vulnerable ever again as it led to the demise of Marina.
But despite building a thick wall to protect me, this strange girl effortlessly brought it down, brick by brick.
I couldn’t understand why I felt strangely drawn to her. To have her with me.
For the brief minutes we were together, I felt calmness deep in my soul.
Her vanilla scent wasn’t helping matters. It reminded me of my childhood and my kids. We loved vanilla flavored ice-cream.
But it’s been 10 years, I didn’t know if I still like that shit.
Fuck!
Why was she infiltrating my thoughts? And how was she able to do it effortlessly?
I grabbed a sculpture, flinging it to the wall in full force. The result led to its ruins and the broken parts scattered on the floor.
Still, it wasn’t enough to calm me.
I wanted to know how she was able to stir up the feeling of guilt within me.
She was able to do so many things to me within a few seconds and I didn’t even know her name!
What in the world was wrong with me?!
My heart was known to be the hardest. No feeling could penetrate except I allowed it. For 10 years, I felt nothing except for anger and revenge.
It was crazy how she let the feelings flow in without my permission.
I cursed lightly when her image refused to leave my memory.
The way she knelt before me, pleading.
I started to pity her, but then, I realized staying with her could make me lose my mind.
Unable to accept it, I resulted into anger. Chasing her away.
Embalmed by confusion, I stared blankly at the wall, lost in thoughts.
What was she turning me into?
Met with no response, I slipped to the bed, leaning on the headboard with my face on my palm.
I didn’t know how long I stayed in that position until I drifted to sleep.
It didn’t take 5 minutes to sleep before I teleported into the woods.
I found myself on the floor, clad in a white suit that was now ruined with mud.
The ground was wet. The rain was already gone now and sunlight began to seep through the tall trees.
Confusion got the best of me as I stared at my surroundings, wondering how I got into the woods.
I tried thinking, but there was no previous memory of how I met myself here.
I scanned the entire area, before rising to my feet.
Aside from being in the company of the birds, I was alone.
Suddenly, a loud voice resonated throughout the woods.
It sounded feminine. Like she was in danger.
Alerted, I walked in the direction of the noise.
“Casper!” The voice went again before going quiet.
I froze on the spot after recognizing that it was Marina’s voice.
In a split second, I was charged with strength as I began to run in order to save her.
Marina was in danger!
“Marina!” I screamed in desperation, increasing my pace.
Before I could get to where she was, a masculine figure jumped in front of her, sliding her neck with a knife before letting out a wicked laughter.
“You are too late!”
“Marina! What have you done?!” I screamed in horror, falling to the ground as my legs gave way.
Paralyzed by fear, I tried to crawl to meet Marina but her body was already cold.
“Why?!” I yelled bawling out my eyes as I hugged Marina’s lifeless body to myself, ignoring the blood oozing from her neck.
“Have a taste of your father’s medicine. I want you to feel the way I felt when your father snatched my mate!”
“You bastard, Alec!” I raged in fury, rushing to meet him, but I fell on the floor.
Fuck.
It was one of the nightmares that haunted me since Marina died.
It got worse when I was stressed.
But I was always stressed.
The swinging of the door caught my attention as Raphael dashed in.
His face was heavy with concern as he stared at me.
“Are you alright? I heard your scream. It’s one of your episodes, isn’t it?”
I nodded sadly, peeling my eyes from the wall before looking at him.
“Come with me, I think I need a drink.”