“Anderson is right. It is pretty lonely when the both of you are not in school. Did your parents scold you because you were called to the principal’s office? Please tell me, they did nothing harsh to you guys?”
“Nope!” I smiled and looked at Ash for a second and back to Willow. “They let it go.”
“Wow! That’s great. I was so worried to death about how it was gonna be for you.”
“You are always worried about death.” Anderson laughed. “Can’t you see they look fine?”
“They look fine doesn’t mean they are fine.” Willow whined. “What are we friends for? We have to be there for each other all the time. Through thick and thin. If we don’t-”
“Quit whining. Class is about to start.” Anderson announced and followed Ash as they both walked forward to the school building.
Willow and I strolled behind them.
“I’m just glad nothing happened yesterday.” She let out with a long sigh, holding onto her chest with both hands.
“Me too.” I responded with a wide smile.
As soon as we all entered the classroom, I saw James walking up to me.
He held my arm and dragged me out of the classroom.
“James.” I called after him. “James.”
He stopped walking with his back facing me and heaved a long sigh.
“I heard about what transpired between you and the principal yesterday. Are you okay?”
“As you can see, I’m good.” I responded. “Wait, a second. Was this the reason you pulled me out of the classroom?”
His gaze fell on me. “Yes. I was worried about you. I told Willow and Anderson to give me your email address or your home address or something. They refused. They wanted me to wait for you to come to school first before…”
“I’m fine, James.” I interrupted him with a slight nod. “It was nothing serious. The principal just wanted to meet my parents because Ash and I disturbed the class while the lesson was going on.”
“I’m glad.” He took a step closer to me. “Violet.” He whispered. “Can I ask you out on a date?!”
“You what?” My eyes widened. “You wanna ask me out on a date?”
“Yes.” He chuckled a little. “Why are you surprised? I just want to get to know you. I want us to be -”
I shook my head and took a step back. “I can’t do this with you, James.”
“Why? Did I do anything wrong?”
“It’s not you, James. It’s me.” My gaze boldly faced him. “We just satisfied each other’s pleasure. It was just in the moment. I didn’t hang out with you to be your girlfriend.” I sighed. “Let’s stop seeing each other. I don’t want to do this anymore.”
“Why?” I sensed him clenching his fist as he gave me a straight look. “I thought you had feelings for me.”
“I never did, and you knew that. Don’t pretend like I was leading you on when you knew I didn’t. We both got what we both wanted, and that was it.”
I walked away from him.
I noticed he held my hand to keep me from walking away from him.
“Violet.” He called me and drew closer to me. “I want us to still hang out together. I don’t want to rush you to love me, but…”
“Let go of me, James.” I uttered. “People are staring at us.” He let go of my hand and I rushed to the classroom without looking back at him.
I didn’t want to face him. I just want whatever relation we had to stop and let’s go our separate ways.
We just had sex, and that was it. What I said to him back there was nothing but the freaking truth.
I had sex with James to get that jerk out of my head.
It wasn’t because I loved James. If James thinks otherwise, then I feel so sorry for him because we will never be together. I don’t care what status and power he has. Or the feelings he has for me, but this has to stop between us.
I don’t want to complicate our issues any further than it is.
But this was it.
However, I was more worried than Ash.
This isn’t the time for me to date anyone right now, when our lives are in jeopardy.
This was the time to think about what I was going to do and how to deal with my delusional parents.
Whatever Ash had promised my parents that made them turn their back and not punish us to death must have been an enormous deal.
He must have promised to give them something huge in return for our safety.
The question is, what did Ash bargain with my parents to make them change their minds?
I know he told me not to worry about it, but I can’t help it.
I want to find out. What happened while I was asleep?
Since Ash wouldn’t tell me anything. It was better to search for it myself and know about it.
All I can think of right now is to leave my parents and go somewhere far away when no one else can find me.
I want to get out of my parent’s shadow and know what I can do as a female alpha, instead of being my parents’ pumpkin puppet for the rest of my life.
That’s what I’m worried about.
Ash was the only one I had. I want nothing to happen to him.
I wouldn’t forgive myself if I do nothing about our lives.
And as for James, I don’t know what to say to him anymore, but I have made my point clear to him.
I am not interested in dating him.
If he keeps pursuing me, I will need to find someone else who will listen to me and want no commitment from me and not get attached.
Sleeping with someone who has feelings for me, is a burden itself when I’m trying to get rid of my feelings.
My emotions.
I truly need to find someone who has something to lose and not someone who has nothing to lose.
I need to get rid of these feelings within me.
Get a boyfriend and move on.
I can’t keep living like this. I can’t have feelings for Ash.
I must be fucking crazy to even think of having these thoughts.
I can’t live like this. I need to get out there some more and look for someone who would satisfy me so much and get rid of my feelings for Ash.
I thought giving away my virginity would stop my feelings, but it seems I had instigated another side of love instead.
Gosh, I can’t do this anymore.
My life is nothing but useless pieces of puzzles.
I got to the classroom and saw Ash coming towards me.