– Jax –
“WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU DO?!” Gunner comes charging into the house screaming at me, I pick up the bottle of whiskey and take a mouthful, he walks up to me and shoves me into the wall before swinging at me hitting me in the eye.
And I just sit there and take it, Why? Because i fucking deserve it. “FUCKING ANSWER ME” He screams again. I laugh and take another mouthful, he pulls out his knife and stabs me in the shoulder, he then grabs the bottle of whiskey out of my hand and pours it over the stab wound making me hiss in pain. “It was her fucking choice to run away like a bitch” I slur, I pull the rings out of my pocket and throw them at him, “Here give these to Shelby and marry her, watch her turn into a fucking bitch too” I spit.
He smashes the bottle against the wall and pushes the broken end up against my throat “do it” i taunt him, his fist connects with my temple and everything goes dark.
When I come too im tied up in the basement my head feels like a cement brick his hanging off of it, “You have got to be fucking kidding me” I mumble to myself, the lights flick on and I hiss at the sudden brightness. Once my vision comes back to me I’m met face to face with Gunner, Shark Eye’s and Wood. “What is this a fucking sausage fest?” I groan, Shark Eye’s slowly walks up to me crouching down to my eye level.
“I heard what you called my baby girl, I’ve also been told she has bruises on her from you. What did I tell you I’d do if you fucking hurt her” His voice was cold and emotionless, his pupils have taken up his iris’s. “She trusted you the most out of everyone here, you knew how to hurt her and you used it to your advantage. And now, I’m going to fucking hurt you” He stands up and spits in my face.
“Prez or not, you hurt my princess and I’m going to fucking rip you limb from limb” His voice dripping in venom, “Do it,” I say quietly, he straightens himself out more staring down at me like I’m scum, and he’s right I fucking am scum. “Fucking do it” I roar, his first connects with jaw-breaking it instantly. “You don’t fucking deserve her, and you don’t fucking deserve that god damn child. Not until you pull your fucking head out of your ass, but I fucking pray she doesn’t take you back, I pray she finds someone else to take her of her and your child”.
His fist connects with the other side of my face, “Why the fuck did you do it?!” He screams I stay silent. I have no reason why I did, I have no excuse. I didn’t even realise I had done anything wrong until she left, I blacked out and I hurt the only woman that loved me, all of me, he’s right I don’t deserve her. He swings again but this time hits my ribs, they crunch under the impact. “I FUCKING ASKED YOU A QUESTION” He screams again.
“I don’t fucking know, I just wanted to protect her. She wouldn’t fucking listen and I got angry and I fucking blacked out and I fucking ruined everything, I fucking hurt her and I fucking hate myself for it” My voice breaks, Gunner turns to Wood and tells him to go upstares he nods his head and leaves the room. Gunner and Shark Eyes pull up two chairs and sit down infront of me, “Tell me what the fuck happened, every fucking detail. And for every time you pause or stop to think I’m going to stab you” Gunner hisses out at me.
So I do, I tell them everything, Gunner still stabs me in the legs multiple times but I deserve it. “You are going to find out where she is, and you are going to bring her back home. You have a week, and you’re lucky I fucking love her and care about her opinion or else you wouldn’t be breathing anymore. We will help you find her, but it’s up to you to get her back. You may be my pres but I told you once and I’ll tell you again. She always comes first” Shark Eye’s says as he stands up, he walks out the door without looking back.
Gunner sighs and rubs his hand through his hair, “You know she took down the whole fucking gate when she left? I tried to stop her” His voice gruff but quiet, “I just wanted to protect her and the baby, I can’t lose either of them. Not again” I sob, my eyes sting as the tears slowly roll down my face, “I fucked up so bad, I don’t deserve her. I ruined everything, she hates me now. I’ll never get her back” More tears fall down my face, I drop my head and let it all out.
Gunner just sits infront of me watching, “This is the first time I’ve seen you cry since your parents died” I try to steady my breathing but its useless, “This hurts more” I croak out. “Why didn’t you tell her she was being threatened?” He asks, “I didn’t want to scare her or put more stress on her,” I say defeatedly. “So you decided to keep it a secret and stress her out even more? We are going to find her, and you are going to go and get her, you’re going to fucking apologize on your fucking knees and kiss her god damn feet. And if she doesn’t take you back then it’s what you deserve”.
He stands up and cuts my restraints off me before patting me on the shoulder, “Pull your head out of your ass Jax it’s cutting off the oxygen to your brain” He punches me in the side fo the face before he hands me Harleys rings and with that he walks out. I look down at the two small rings in my hand and take off my chain sliding the rings through it before putting it back around my neck, I have to fix this I just hope she will hear me out.
I walk out of the basement and up the stairs, a heavily pregnant Shelby comes marching up to me and slaps me, yeah I deserved that too. “you better fucking find her before these babies are born or so help me I’m going to kill you with my bare fucking hands, she loves you Jaxon, get that through your thick fucking head. She just wanted to go out and get her hair done” She grits through her teeth before storming up the stairs.
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It’s been 6 days and we have nothing, can’t even find the car she took. I called the sister charters the day she left and told them to keep an eye out for her but none of them have seen her, my hope is slipping away and so is my mentality. I can’t sleep or eat, the guilt inside me burns like acid. At this point, it would hurt less if Shark Eye’s and Gunner tortured me.
I stare down at my wedding ring still on my finger while I play with Harley’s around my neck, one of the rotters comes prancing into the office, ever since she left I can’t keep the fuckers away from me it’s like they’re a bunch of zombies looking for their next meal. “What the fuck do you want?” I ask looking up to see one of the newer girls called Rosie, short red hair, stick thin, fake tits and fake ass, just fucking fake really. “You look so stressed, I just wanna help you out handsome” Her voice is like a fucking walking migraine, “Don’t fucking call me that and fuck off” I snap as I turn my attention back to the paperwork infront of me.
She begins to walk towards me, I look up again and lean back in my chair, “Oh come on handsome, I know you want too” She rests her hands on my desk and leans over shoving her cleavage in my face, “I said don’t fucking call me that” I aim my gun at her head and pull the trigger, her body falls back and drops onto the floor “Don’t fucking call me that” I mumble to myself placing my gun on the table infront of me.
My phone rings and I answer it without looking at the caller ID, “What?” I bark into the speaker, “That’s no way to speak to your saviour” A thick Spanish accent comes through the phone. “What do you want Ricci?” I ask as I run my hands through my unwashed hair. “There will be a car that will be picking you up in 5 minutes, that car will take you to a plane, once off the plane you will get into another car and be brought to my house. As much as I’d love to put a fucking bullet through your skull I can’t stand to watch Harley cry anymore. So you’re going to get your ass over here and fucking beg her for forgiveness, if she declines it I will shoot you dead, if she accepts it I will let you live. You now have 4 minutes to decide if you’re going to come or not the choice is yours, I’m sure she will find a very lovely man here that will treat her and her baby right” He hangs up the phone before I can say anything.
I run downstairs and run to Gunner, “You’re in charge don’t burn down the clubhouse, oh and there’s a body in my office deal with it”. I burst through the front doors and run to the black SUV at the front of the compound, “Where are you going?” He yells out to me, “To get my Harley back”.
I don’t care if im shot dead, if I get to see her one more time and tell her how much I fucked up and how sorry I am it won’t matter, I will have done the only thing I’ve wanted to do since she walked out the front door. The plane ride felt like days instead of hours, I run off and am met with a small Spanish man, “Mr Jones?” He asks and I nod my head, he waves over to the car behind him and I jump in without a second thought.
My mind races and he drives down the streets of a small town, what if this was a trap and she’s not there? What if she’s the one that kills me? Does she know im even coming? Will she even forgive me? I was so caught up in my own head that I hadn’t realised we had pulled up at what I can only assume is Ricci’s house.
I thank the driver and get out, as soon as my feet hit the pavement swarms of men swoop out from the front door guns aimed at me, I didn’t even bring my gun with me I just ran out and left. I look around me and I’m surrounded, “On your knees” One of them screams and I do as im told this is a fight I’m not going to win.
The front doors open again as Ricci and Harley walkout, my eyes instantly go to her’s and all I can see is shock and confusion on her face, she had no idea I was coming. Ricci walks up to me and stops infront of me smiling, “I see you came, fucker”. He walks behind me and I hear the sound of a gun cocking, I look back to Harley who has tears streaming down her cheeks, the sight of her breaks me in a million pieces.
I did this to her, I hurt her this bad, I deserve this. “I’m so fucking sorry, I love you Harley,” I say between sobs, I close my eyes tightly and wait. I can’t open my eyes to face her I’m a fucking coward, I feel the metal pushed to the back of my skull, this is it. “STOP” She screams, I slowly open my eyes and look up to see her standing infront of me looking down at me, “Take him to the pit,” She says coldly staring into my eyes before she turns around and walks back into the house.
Ricci begins to laugh from behind me as do some of his men, “Oh you poor idiot, you have awoken the beast, this is going to fucking hurt, I can guarantee that”.