Alvin
I rubbed my eyes to clear off the remnants of sleep as memories of last night flooded my mind.
Viona and I are making out in my living room and Amber is walking on to us.
Then the conversation I had with viona and the realisation of falling in love with amber came to me.
“What the hell is wrong with me!” I screamed and punched the mattress. “God damn it! I’m fucking up all over the place!”
I sat up in bed and rested my head in my hands.
My phone beeped, pulling me out of my thoughts and I reached over to see what it was.
I had a text from viona and two missed calls from Alex.
Reading the message, guilt filled my heart as she apologised and hoped we were cool.
I felt like an asshole.
She’s an amazing woman who was interested in me but I let her down by falling for someone else.
I still remember the look on her face when I told her there was no ‘ us’ that last night was just plain sex.
But the look on her face last night showed me just how much that statement hurt her.
And that’s the thing.
If Viona and I did continue and got into a relationship, I wouldn’t be able to fully give myself to her.
I know that I had a crush on her but then Amber happened. I didn’t want nor plan on falling in love but shit happens and now I’m in a dilemma.
I didn’t want to hurt Viona’s feelings, she’s an amazing woman and a great catch.
But then again, I couldn’t control my feelings towards Amber.
” You didn’t do anything wrong. I’m the asshole for hurting you.
I hope you can forgive me. ”
I typed and hit send before putting my phone aside.
I knew she didn’t mean any harm.
It was me who made her feel like shit.
And it was me who made this a mess.
Choosing to ignore Alex’s call, I headed downstairs for some coffee.
I was a mess, a guilty, confused mess and I needed something strong to keep my mind away from amber.
It was bad enough that the woman was the star of my dreams but she’s also the centre of my thoughts during the day.
And it was frustrating because no matter what I did, my mind always goes back to her.
I’ve tried focusing on anything but it didn’t help.
And every time I thought about her, I was reminded of the fact that I didn’t deserve her.
Amber.
It’s crazy how I developed feelings for her over such a short time.
I never even in my wildest dreams thought that all I needed was a bad girl for me to be hooked or was this just me feeling unwanted when she did not seem to care at all about me?
Pouring a cup of coffee for myself, I made my way to the sofa and slumped down on the soft leather.
I took a sip of the bitter liquid and set the mug down before leaning back against the sofa and closing my eyes.
As if possessed, Amber’s face popped up in my head and my cock twitched in response.
Damn, this was becoming a problem.
I couldn’t even think about the woman without wanting to get in her pants.
I wanted her so bad, it was driving me insane.
Throwing caution to the wind, I stormed out of my apartment and headed towards hers.
Standing outside, I pressed the doorbell and waited for her to open the door.
A few seconds later, I heard footsteps coming towards the door and when it opened, Selena stood there staring at me.
Her hair was a mess and her clothes were wrinkled, indicating she had just woken up.
” What are you doing here? ” I asked, narrowing my eyes at her.
” Um… I just spent the night. Is there a problem? ” she asked, running her fingers through her hair.
” Yeah, there is a problem. Why are you in Amber’s apartment when you have your own?”
Just thinking about what Amber said the other night is enough to send suspicion shooting through me.
Selena rolled her eyes, clearly irritated. ” Look, this is not your home and clearly, you have no business asking such silly questions as if you own it.
Now, if you’ll excuse me.”
She tried to close the door but I caught it before she could.
” What’s going on, baby? ” Amber’s voice sounded before I could retort.
But wait…
What did she just call selena?
Baby?
A moment later, Amber stood before us, her shorts hugging her hips and the sports bra she wore did nothing to hide the fact that she wasn’t wearing a bra.
” Baby? ” I asked, pointing a finger between her and selena.
Amber looked at me and then at Selena and a mischievous smirk curved her lips.
” Oh, didn’t I tell you? Selena is my girlfriend.” She said and pulled Selena to her.
Girlfriend?!
What the hell?
I could feel anger flash through me as the words settled in my head.
This couldn’t be real.
They were just joking right?
But as I watched the way Amber wrapped her arms around Selena’s waist and the way the other woman kissed her cheek, my anger only increased.
Taking a step towards them, I yanked amber apart, my lips crashing down on hers.
She was taken by surprise and her eyes widened.
She gasped and I took the opportunity to slip my tongue in her mouth.
Our tongues battled for dominance as she pushed me back.
When the kiss ended, Selena and Amber were looking at me in shock and confusion.
” I love you, Amber.”
The words just slipped out of my mouth and both Amber and Selena gaped at me.
” Can you not do this to me? ” My voice came out strained.
The thought of her leaving me and hooking up with Selena did not sit well with me and the thought alone made my stomach churn.
” We are not together, Alvin. You have someone you like whom you spend the night with
So why are you acting all jealous? And of Selena of all people?” she asked, tilting her head to the side.
” Because I don’t want you to end up with her. ”
Amber raised an eyebrow and looked at me as if I’d gone crazy.
“She is a woman, dammit! ”
I hissed, grabbing her arm.
I couldn’t explain it, but the idea of her and Selena together sent anger surging through me.
” So? What do you care? ” she asked, looking at me incredulously.
” Because I don’t want her taking you away from me! ”
I hissed, my grip on her arm tightening.
She shook her head and laughed bitterly.
” You’re not making any sense, Alvin. We agreed that it was just sec, nothing… ”
” I don’t want that anymore! I fucking don’t want us to just have sex. I want you, Amber. I want to make love to you. I want to take care of you. I want us to be together, dammit!
Just say you’re mine already, okay?”
I knew I sounded desperate, but I didn’t care.
All I could think about was how I didn’t want to lose her.
Not now, not ever.
Amber’s eyes widened, and her jaw dropped.
I knew that I had shocked her, but I couldn’t help myself.
The idea of her with anyone else drove me crazy, and I couldn’t stand it.
” Look, Alvin, I… ”
” No, you listen to me, Amber. I love you. And I want us to be together. As a couple. As boyfriend and girlfriend.”
I cut her off, my voice firm.
Amber turned to look at Selena and the two burst out giggling.
I frowned, not quite understanding what was so funny.
” I never thought I’d hear you confess. Seems like the plan worked. ” Alex’s voice sounded from the kitchen as he walked to us, a wide smile gracing his lips.
” Wait, what? What the hell is going on here? ”
I asked, looking between the three of them.
Amber’s laughter died down and she turned to look at me, her eyes shining with amusement.
” We’re not together, Alvin. That’s what’s going on.
The only person I want is you.”
Her words warmed my heart, and I felt a smile tugging at the corners of my mouth.
” So, you’re not dating Selena?”I asked, just to be sure.
” Nope. We’re just friends. ” she replied, grinning.
” That’s my woman, asshole! ” Alex grumbled, glaring at me.
” But you just called her ‘ baby'” I said, remembering the way she’d called Selena earlier.
” That was just for show. ”
Selena explained, chuckling.
” But why the hell did you have to do that? ”
” Because someone needs to put a leash on his jealousy.
You’re not the only one who can be possessive and jealous. ”
Amber teased, her eyes sparkling with mischief.
I shook my head and chuckled.
I pulled her in my arms, my lips descending to hers.
The kiss was gentle at first, but then she deepened it, her tongue swirling around mine.
Her hands moved up my chest, and she wrapped her arms around my neck, her fingers playing with the hairs at the base of my neck.
” There’s a bedroom upstairs. ” Alex’s words broke the kiss, and we pulled apart.
” Yeah, thanks for the info. ” Amber replied sarcastically, rolling her eyes.