“Well, you wanted to travel incognito, so roll with it.” He took both our overnight bags from the back seat and put his arm around my waist. My arm was in a sling, still heavily bandaged. He made a show of pinching my butt as we walked to the elevator, and I giggled and buried my face in his shoulder.
“Congratulations, you two lovebirds!” The desk clerk was waving at us as the door closed. I looked up at him; he was the kind of guy I wish I had the chance to be with when I was younger. There was no chance with us, I was waiting for my mate and he was a human. Now I was human, I lost my chance at finding my mate since I didn’t have a wolf or wolf smell anymore, and there was nothing left for me to save.
We reached the room, it was over the top. I told him to take the bathroom first as I had to put the baggie over my arm to bathe, and I wanted to check the news. I heard the shower start. After tonight, I couldn’t bring him with me, I was damaged goods, I was being hunted and he was too good a man to drag into that.
It was now or never.
I walked over to the Jacuzzi and started to fill the tub. While the water slowly rose, I put on some music and turned the lights down, leaving only one in the corner opposite the bed and tub. I stripped off my clothes and piled them on a chair. I looked at my body in the mirror; I had bruises and scratches, all things that would have been long gone with a wolf. I still had my athletic body, with high firm breasts and a flat stomach. I ran my hand down as I felt my lust grow, tonight I would write over the memories of that day just like I wrote over the files on my laptop.
I pulled out the baggie and tape that I needed to keep the left hand dry. Securing it, I brought a pillow over by the sunken tub and set it where I could rest my hand out of the way. Sighing loudly, I sank down into the hot water and relaxed. I turned on the jets and moved until they were hitting my lower back just right. My eyes closed as I lay back, and it was only when the bathroom door opened that I opened them.
Mark was staring at me, a towel around his waist. I looked over at him, sitting up so my breasts were exposed above the water. He stared at me, not knowing if he was supposed to be looking. I smiled and extended my hand. “Come join me, Mark.”
He walked over like it was a dream until he was holding my hand. I pulled him gently until he stepped into the tub. He turned away to take his towel off but I let go of his hand and tore it away from him before he could react. His excitement was clearly growing. I was pleased with his size, having been around shifters who were naked during changes I had seen males before, and he was more than average. I tossed the towel aside with a smirk and moved my hand to his rapidly hardening shaft. “Ella? What are you doing?”
“What I wish I would have done years ago.” I started to stroke him back and forth, he sucked in his breath as he looked down at me. My lips parted and my tongue snuck out to wet them.
“I don’t want to hurt you, Ella, not after what…” He stopped talking when I leaned forward and took him into my mouth. I may not have been sexually active before, but I was in the internet generation and it wasn’t like I hadn’t seen or been shown what to do. Some of us girls had even practiced, not wanting to be a disappointment to our mates when we met. I took him to the back of my mouth, rolling my tongue around him and sucking slightly as my hand moved on his base. He groaned in pleasure as he spread his legs for balance. He reached down and cupped my face with his hand while his other hand ran through my hair. I continued my attentions, backing off until I was licking his head before taking him deep again. I wasn’t comfortable when he reached the back of my throat, so I kept my good hand at his base and worked it with my mouth. I would bob on it for a while, then back off and suck and lick the head. He would squirm when I liked the spot just under his purple helmet. It didn’t take long before he started to swell even larger in my mouth.
“Ella, oh God, I’m going to come.” I sat back and started jacking him more aggressively, until he exploded over my chest. “Holy shit.”
I sat back, pleased, and used my finger to gather some of his seed. Bringing it to my mouth, I tasted it; salty, not unpleasant. “I realized today that this is our last time together, Mark. I cannot bring you where I go, and I cannot give you the life I am going to have.”
He slid down until he was facing me in the tub, our legs intertwined and his hand holding my good one. “Why not, Ella? I’ve wanted you for years. I would follow you, help you in any way I can. I want to be with you.”
“You can’t, the packs won’t let you in. I’m hoping my new status won’t cause me to lose my access.” I moved a foot between his legs, checking to see how fast he was recovering. It was good he was young and healthy. “Plus, you know what Confucius said about revenge.”
“Before embarking on a tour of vengeance, dig two graves.”
“Yes. I’m going to be digging a lot of graves, Mark. They took everything from me, and the only thing left in my life that keeps me going is revenge. I will destroy them, and in turn I will be destroyed. I can’t bring you on that journey, Mark, I won’t dig your grave.”
He closed his eyes for a moment then looked at me. “Then what is this?”
“Tonight is you keeping me going for tomorrow. Tonight is going to be one night where we forget what is happening out there and just live a little. Tonight I need to make memories that will get me through the tough times ahead.” I moved forward until I was straddling him. His hands ran up my sides until they cupped my aching boobs, it felt so good when he touched them. He leaned forward, taking one nipple into his mouth, sucking and licking it until it was erect, then moving to the other. My good arm was around his neck as he caused delightful sensations to travel down my body. I reached down and positioned him at my entrance. “You’re still the first I’ve given myself to.”
We kissed deeply as I sank down on him, groaning our pleasure into each other’s mouths. I stilled for a moment, letting the pain and memories flee before I started to squeeze him inside of me. Our tongues explored each other as I rose up, enjoying the feeling before I dropped down again. The fire built quickly inside of me, and I shattered as he painted my walls with his seed.
We woke in a tangle of limbs and sheets late the next morning. The room smelled of sex and champagne, which I found out I liked a lot. I could actually get tipsy now that my werewolf metabolism wasn’t around to burn it off so fast. We made love slowly, both knowing it was the last time.
We didn’t say much to each other on the remaining trip to Miles City. I knew he was thinking of how he could change my mind, that I should return with him to school and make a life together with him.
I knew that we would never be safe.
We made it to dinner early. Marge and Mabel had caught a ride with my parent’s Beta, Darryl. The three were going to go with me to the Johnson Pack; the others had found family elsewhere to stay with. When I asked Darryl why, he just said “because you’re my Alpha and my place is by your side.”
“I’m not an Alpha, Darryl, I’m not even a wolf anymore.”
“My wolf doesn’t care. You are my Alpha, and I will serve you.”
I couldn’t dissuade him. I was right about Mark, he tried his best but I wouldn’t listen. He left disappointed, and I cried a little watching him go.
We stayed overnight there, and got on the road in the morning. By mid-afternoon, we were driving down a dirt road near the Shoshone National Forest. The Johnson Pack land was a large cattle ranch that butted up to the forest and the mountains. Before long we reached a gate; a man came forward, sniffing the cab. His eyes widened when he took in my scent. “I’m sorry about what happened to you, Ella. The Alphas are expecting you at the Manor.”
“Thank you, William. Tell Sally I said hello, I hope to see her soon.” I smiled back at him, hiding the hurt that his comment made. Every wolf who came across me would recognize me, but immediately know what I had lost.
We drove on for a few more miles before the road opened up to a large, open field. At the top of a small rise lay the Johnson Pack Manor. It was an imposing structure of lodgepole pine and glass with a steep metal roof in a dark green color. Three stories high, it contained common Pack rooms such as kitchens and dining, offices, and quarters for the Alphas and high ranking wolves of the Pack. Smaller structures were dormitories, homes and workshops. The Johnson Pack was large and prosperous, with over five hundred members.
Darryl drove around the circular driveway and stopped in front of the stairs leading to the long porch and entryway. I started to get excited, it looked like the Alphas and their families were all waiting.
“Ella!” Renee ran forward as I got down from the passenger seat of my truck, almost knocking me over in her youthful exuberance. I grabbed her with my good arm, protecting my other thumb, and spun her around.
“Renee, you’ve grown so much!” I gave her one more hug then she led me up the steps, her mother glaring at her for her breach of protocol. “Hello, Alphas. Thank you for letting us come to your pack.”
Both Doug and Remi embraced me, both of them holding back tears. “You are always welcome here, Ella,” said Doug.
“We are so sorry about your parents and what you’ve been through. We will help in any way we can.” Remi looked me over carefully, like a mother to her pup coming back from the woods.
“I know, and thank you. You know Beta Darryl, Mabel and Marge? They are with me for now, it is too dangerous for any of us to be on our Pack lands right now.” We moved down to greet the boys; all of them were bigger than I remembered. Dave was standing with his mate Alice, his hand kept moving to her belly where their first child was in its fourth month of pregnancy. Nathan was filling out his form, he would be as big as his Dad soon, and was still looking for his mate. I saw Derek holding hands with his long-time girlfriend Amanda; they would be turning sixteen soon and were sure they were mates. They would be devastated if that wasn’t the case.