Chapter 121: Marriage??, Again??.
Lily’s POV
“I’d starve to death if it meant all I could taste was you, I’d never eat anything else again”. He rasped, sounding absolutely drunk out of his mind as his breath fanned against me.
This man was about to kill me with his words and his hands.
I did not know what this feeling wad, and I’ve had orgasms before, the reality warping ones Alex had given me the all the times we had done anything together but it was nothing like this. It was foreign and I looked to him with my brows creased and my face contorted in worry and pleasure at the same time.
“Alex”. I gasp “What… What is, I don’t know what’s … oh fuck” I squeezed my eyes shut, as it became more violent inside me and look back to him for some kind of help.
He pressed his hand down further against my abdomen as he picked up the pace of his deliberate fingers further while he watched my expression. He then pulled his face back further to lean up on his knees more.
“Don’t worry baby, just go with it, it’s okay, you’re okay” He purred, urging me on as he flicked his eyes down to watch his fingers shove into me and sinked his teeth into his lip.
All I could hear was the sound of him making my soul leave my body with those fingers of his, mixed with my mindless cries and moans filling the room.
“I can’t wait till you’re drenching my cock just like my fingers baby, you feel so fucking good’ He moaned as he continued to watch what he was doing and the sound pulled the pin on the grenade that felt like it was lodged in my abdomen as it ticked down to explode. My muscles constricted as I began to tremble.
My body felt like i was having a seizure and couldn’t fight it any more, while Alex’s chest was heaving and his face contorted in pleasure as he watched and coaxed me on. “Most beautiful sight I’ve ever seen, be my good girl and come for me”
“Alex! Oh my-Ah!” I threw my head back, ripping at the sheets as I arch off the bed and scream loudly. You would swear I sound like I’m in excruciating pain as the sound ripped through my throat till it felt raw as that. The pressure exploded and ripped through me like nothing I’ve felt before.
Alex did not stop the rhythm of his fingers, he pinned me down with his hand and he cursed under his breath while I had some kind of outer body experience.
The euphoria that radiated through me shot like lighting bolts to every limb in my body, as the pressure felt like it was being flooded out of me between my legs, and I couldn’t even tell if i was still screaming, moaning or if I’m making any noise at all, all I could hear was the ringing in my ears.
I don’t even remember when Alex stilled his hand against me, I couldn’t even piece together my own
name right now.
As suddenly and as furiously as it crashed into me, by the time it dissipated every single part of my
body felt like it was weighted by cement as I collapsed limped on the bed with my chest heaving while I tried to suck in any oxygen I can.
I’ve never had something feel like so much pleasure that it hurt, it was the only way to describe it, I don’t even know how to explain it properly, how it was such an intense pressure that was like a euphoric pain release that didn’t even feel like pain at all, I can’t
make sense of it.
Alex slipped his fingers from me as he crawled up to hover over me, I could only look at him through the lashes of my heavy eyes as I continued to catch my breath and he leaned down to leave a long sensual kiss to my lips, lapping his tongue against mine and I can’t seem to care about the taste of me still in his mouth.
He kept his lips close to mine as he whispered against my lips. His voice sounded gentle and affectionate, but I could still hear the frustration and lust in his voice from what just happened.
“How you’re feeling right now, that bliss … like you’re floating and falling at the same time, like nothing else matters and everything else in the world goes away”.
He pressed another quick kiss to my lips before he finished. “That’s how you make me feel whenever I’m with you”.
I closed my eyes as I swallowed, trying to figure out how to cope with my heart swelling so fiercely with my body so exhausted.
What the fuck was he doing to me. I swear he was trying to kill me.
When he said he wanted to show me how he felt I didn’t think this is what he meant. I don’t have the brain capacity to even have coherent thoughts about everything he said right.
He noticed my almost comatose state, how I could barely move and chuckled to himself. “I’ll give you a minute, and then I’ll have to help you get up.”
I struggled for a minute to help myself but to no avail. He watched over my face, giving me one more reassuring smile before climbing off of me and
shuffling off the bed, and my eyes snap wider when he leaned over to scoop me up with his arm under my back and knees.
He pressed a kiss to the top of my head and turned to walk towards the bathroom. “Let’s get cleaned up, I’ll help you in the shower”
I peered up at him, still exhausted but getting my bearings back. “You know I don’t need help showering don’t you?”
He grinned to himself as we walked through the bathroom doorway “Yeah I do, but I’ll use any excuse to stay close to you I can get”.
I buried my face against his chest, wishing I could reach into his chest and kiss his heart, but then he spoke again.
“Plus, I have something that desperately needs attention before it gets too painful and watching you in the shower is going to have me coming faster than you can blink.”
I sigh out a laugh and shook my head.
God dammit Harry.
*****
I got out of the shower wearing a robe, with a towel in my hand drying my hair. Alex had gotten out of the shower before me. The shower to ‘clean up’ as he put it, I still had the urge to cross my legs over the memory of him touching
himself while he watched me shower, to only have me pinned against the wall again kissing me as he finished himself off, panting out all the things he wants to do to me.
I felt like I needed to shower all over again just to cleanse myself afterwards. I keep wondering in my mind why he was putting off having sex, why he was taking things so slow when his words make it apparent that it was the last thing he wants to do.
I can’t say I ever thought of Alex as someone to avoid sex, but I don’t want to go making too many assumptions and sending myself down a rabbit role of theories.
I had a feeling he was treading lightly with me and he just wanted to start afresh again carefully, without hurting me or giving me any reason to doubt him.
I felt so great and happy that things were finally coming together for me and Alex.
I had decided to try to forget about the past no matter how much it hurt me and move on with my life with my family.
“Alex”. I called out as I looked around but there was no sign of him. I moved to the sitting room then to the kitchen but still there was no sign of him. I was beginning to panic until I heard his deep voice call out to me.
“I’m back here baby.!” I heard him call out from the back of the house and instantly I relaxed.
As i pushed open the sliding glass door, a warm breeze carried the sweet scent of blooming flowers into the house. I stepped out into the backyard, my eyes adjusting to the soft twilight. The sun had dipped below the horizon, casting a gentle glow over the lush green grass.
At first, i noticed the eerie silence. No music, no chatter, just the distant chirping of crickets. Then, my gaze fell upon the breathtaking sight before me.
The entire backyard was transformed into a magical oasis. Thousands of twinkling string lights crisscrossed the lawn, weaving a spell of enchantment. The soft glow of fairy lights wrapped around the trees, casting dappled shadows on the ground.
My eyes widened as i took in the spectacle. A winding path of candles led to a beautifully set table, adorned with fine china, crystal glasses, and a stunning floral arrangement. The centerpiece featured a gorgeous bouquet of my favorite flowers… lilies and roses.
As i followed the candlelit path, my heart began to flutter. Something was amiss, something special. The air was electric with anticipation.
Suddenly, my gaze landed on a stunning sight: a sleek, elegant sign positioned beneath a majestic oak tree. The words “Will you marry me, Lily… again?” were beautifully handwritten in calligraphy, surrounded by delicate floral patterns. I chuckled softly at the humor.
My breath caught in my throat. Tears pricked at the corners of my r eyes as i realized this was no ordinary evening.
“Alex!”. I gasped as I turned around to see Alex standing beside me. His eyes were shining with love and adoration. “What’s going on?”. I asked with surprise written all over my face.
“It’s alright baby come.” He said gesturing to me to come closer and held my hands with his voice trembling with emotion.
“I know this is crazy.” He chuckled softly. “But I don’t mince because I’m crazy for you too.” He laughed and I joined in.
“We’re already married but we both know the circumstances surrounding our marriage all we’ve both had to go through.” He said in a broken tone.
I didn’t respond, it didn’t seem like he wanted me to say anything until he was done.
“I want us to start afresh again, this time both willing to come together and share ourselves. That is if you’re willing to have me.” He continued.
“From the moment I met you, I knew you were the one, I was just too stupid to accept it.” He whispered, his words barely audible over the pounding of my heart.
My eyes widened again as he went on his knees and pulled a block of a ring. “Lily Dankworth.” He said with a chuckle. “Will you do me the honor and spend the rest of your life with me?”
“I promise to love you until the day I die, but I think even in death my soul is bound to yours hence I shall love you forever.” He added teary eyed.
“So what do you say?.” He pressed again.
“Yes!. I say yes!.” I said without hesitation. I wanted to spend the rest of my life loving Alex.
Tears streamed from my eyes as , Alex slid the stunning diamond ring onto my finger. He stood up swearing the brightest smile and embraced. “Thank you much Lily, I promise to be the best man for you.” He said softly.
“I know.” I responded softly as we pulled away staring at the each other’s eyes. The lights, the flowers, the candles, everything faded into the background as we shared a kiss under the starry sky.
In this magical moment, time stood still. The world narrowed to just the two of us , lost in the beauty of our love.
Who would have thought that this young man I saw all those years ago in school would be my husband, the father of my beautiful children and the absolute love of my life.
Who would have thought that selling me to my crush was the starting point of the change in my life.
Who would have thought that he would love me back this way.
Who would have that I conquered Chase’s traumatizing sins. I wasn’t completely healed but I wasn’t where I was then.
My life had taken a completely different turn these past few months and it brought tears to my eyes whenever I think about it, but still I had come to accept that it was just life.
Life throws things at us at every stage, if there were no problems to conquer, life would have no meaning. Everything depends on how we move from that situation.
I’m glad at the end, I can say I am one of the many people who have conquered their problems but obviously not all because this new journey with Alex wouldn’t be easy. We still had a lot to learn about ourselves, families and our children.
But I had a open heart, and a will to pull through. I was Lily Dankworth after all, I am my mother’s daughter and I know I can cross any hurdle life throws at me.
In the mean time, I guess I had a wedding to plan. I finally had my long time crush, his heart, soul and body, all to myself.