LUCIANO
I was nervous, more nervous than I had ever been in my life. My heart was beating so loudly against my rib cages. A part of me told me to take the big step and knock on her door while another part of me urged me to leave her doorway and go back to my room because I know she probably hates me now.
God! Fuck! Ever since Jade had helped me tend to my injuries, I had not seen her again throughout the entire day. It seems like she just locked herself in her room.
Even for dinner, her maids took her food to her room. She has not stepped her feet outside and it is getting me so worried.
I have messed up. I know I have. I just did not want Jade to see me and feel pity for me or see me as weak or defenceless because of my injuries. I did not want her to think her husband was weak and he demanded pity. I doubt she would understand me.
Even watching her cry yesterday as I was getting whipped filled me with a greater rage than before for Raffaele.
I also did not want her to cry in front of Arturo and Matteo. I did not want them to see my outspoken and bold queen fall like a pitiful lady because of me.
I heaved in a deep breath before exhaling. Fighting back my anxiety, I proceeded to give a rapid knock on the door.
“Who is it?” Her dull tone asked from the inside.
“It is Luciano, your husband” I replied. Silence interluded the atmosphere before Jade spoke up again.
“I do not want to see you. Leave” I could tell she had been sobbing just by listening to the tone of her voice.
“But Jade–” I attempted to protest.
“I said go! You do not want me around and I also do not want you around me! Leave me alone!” She yelled back.
I drew in sharp breaths, giving her time to cool off from her well deserved anger before speaking. “Okay” I simply said and pushed open the door to her greatest surprise.
“I thought I said you should leave Luciano!” Jade ordered with her forefinger pointed at the opened door.
“I will once I talk to you” I replied back calmly, locking the door.
“And I do not want to talk to you! Fucking get out of my room” Jade began throwing pillows at me.
Her amusing and adorable fury almost got me chuckling. “Will you stop throwing this dang pillows at me?”
“Not until you get out!” She shouted back until she had exhausted all the pillows on her bed.
“You see…” I smiled with my arms outstretched, “Now you have no more pillows left”.
Jade glared at me and flopped her head back on the bed, her dull rimmed eyes centred on th ceiling of her room. “What do you want Luciano?” Her voice was barely even audible.
“To speak to you Jade” I slowly replied, coming over to sit on the bed.
“Why? What do you want to tell me? That you are sorry for yelling at me yesterday, you promise not to do it again and you want me to forgive you? I told you life is not like a movie or a simple romance novel that…” Jade began speaking With out even letting me talk.
I am the one supposed to tender the apology but she is the one talking.
“Jade allow me talk will you?” I chimed in cutting her short.
Jade stared at me for a while before sitting up and straightening her spine. “Fine talk. Go on and say the usual stereotypical words I have heard and read a million times” she mocked me.
I chuckled softly before extending my fingers to tuck in strands of her brown hair behind her ear. Jade watched my every movement carefully. “Relax Jade, I will not hurt you I promise”
She stared at me, anxiety and anticipation building up for what I wanted to say to her.
” Jade first and foremost yes I did come here to apologise to you for my inappropriate behaviour yesterday. It was uncalled for. I am honestly deeply sorry from the depth of my heart for behaving like that. I know whatever I say can not suffix for what I did to you yesterday. You were only trying to help me but I was acting like a dick. I am really sorry. Find it in your heart to forgive me please” I tendered what could be my most sincere and heartfelt apology to my wife, Jade.
She did not say a word in return, instead she just stared at me like I was speaking a foreign language.
“Will you not say something?” I urged her to speak.
Jade adjusted herself on the bed and folded her legs. “What I can never understand is why did you get so mad at me in the first place? What wrong did I do that got you so angered that you even had to show it physically? I mean I was only trying to be a helpful wife to you. That is what a good partner does isn’t it? Why are you trying to make this marraige more difficult than it is for me already?” She bemoaned, her voice hinting the pain she felt yesterday.
I feel so ashamed of myself. I am beating myself on the inside for how I behaved to Jade. I wish I could erase some things about myself, things that caused her pain.
“Jade, you did nothing wrong to me. You did what every normal and good wife would do when they see their husband in pain”
“Then why did you order me to leave your room?!”
“Because I did not want you to feel pity for my situation. I did not want you to see me as weak. I just wanted to be alone…” I confessed to Jade.
She breathed rapidly, her lips slightly ajar at my words. “Why would I ever think you are weak? You are not weak Lucaino. I would have never thought that. Luciano you are a human, you have blood running through you like every other human and so am I. I thought you needed my emotional support at that time”
I smiled at Jade, her words really touched my heart. I guess all we just needed was a better communication from the start. “I did. But at the same time, I just did not want you to feel I am incapable of defending myself or that I needed pity. Seeing you cry so heavily when I was getting whipped made me so angered but not at you, at Raffaele. And it made me think you felt I was absolutely helpless”
Jade choked back on a sob and took my hands, placing hers ontop mine. “I would never think that about you. You are not helpless or defenceless or weak. From what I have observed about, you are nothing close to that. Please can you just communicate more and stop assuming?” She was literally pleading with me at this point.
I chortled, ” I promise you this time Jade. I will really work on communicating more with you ok”
I used a hand to caress her cheeks which had dried tears patterned on them.
“Let me see your injury” she requested.
“Ok. As my wife wishes” I teased her a bit, creating an air of laughter in the melancholic atmosphere.
With steady eyes, Jade watched me as I slowly pulled off my T-shirt. Her eyes never left mine for a second. She observed my movement with keen interest.
Turning my back against her, Jade let out a gasp. “It has not been bandaged”
“I know. I did not want it bandaged” I simply replied, pivoting to stare at her.
“Why? In fact I will get a bandage right away” she decided, attempting to stand up when I pulled her back to the bed, our bodies now in a closer proximity.
“Luciano…” she drew in breath.
“Stay here for a while will you please?” I requested.
Tears welled up in her eyes, a tear drop then streaked down one of her cheek
“Why are you crying?” I was surprised.
“Why did you have to fight with Raffaele? Now look. You are badly injured. I do not like seeing your body like this” she whimpered.
No woman has genuinely cared for me like this apart from my mother. But then she is late.
“I will fight to death if I have to but I can not stand and watch somebody try to take you away from me” I held on to her and intertwined our fingers together, my tone now very soft.
Jade was shocked at my statement. “What? Did Raffaele really say that he would do that?”
“My brother can be very stupid at times” I pulled Jade further towards me, my one hand hungrily wandering towards her waist.
“Wait Luciano what are you doing?” She asked in apprehension noticing how close we were.
“I should be asking you? What are you doing to me?”
Honestly what was Jade doing to me? I can not stand to see her mad at me nor in tears and I literally did not mind getting whipped for her.
Before she could give a reply, my hand had already gripped onto her waist, our bodies now perfectly aligned with her engorged breasts pressing on my chest.
She was tongue tied and her breathing became heavy. Not minding her shocked state, my eyes hungrily scanned the nape of her neck.
It felt like her milk skin was calling out to me. I just could not resist. I leaned my lips right underneath her ear and softly nibbled on her earlobe causing a suppressed moan to escape her lips.
God. She felt so fucking soft. My lips skimmed along her neck and she tilted her head further. Her reaction beckoned me to continue.
Rolling my tongue across her honey skin, I sucked on her skin, stroking my tongue at the spot and planting kisses on wherever my tongue touched.
Jade let out an airy moan again and wrapped her arms around my neck.
Fuck.
I could feel myself getting hard already and I had not even started.
I planted kisses downwards, hungrily kissing from her neck towards her heaving chest.
“Jade you are so beautiful” I murmured, my lips settling inbetween her breast.
“Luciano..” Jade gasped out my name before digging her nails into my injured back.
I hissed in pain but continued littering her neck and chest with love bites and kisses.
Suddenly Jade unwrapped her hands from me and pushed me away softly.
“You are injured and I think I just made it worse” she shyly said.
“I do not mind. It will heal later” the urge to just have my way with her was so much. I did not even care about my injury.
I pressed my lips against her neck once more, my hand greedily trailing towards the zip of her gown.
“Luciano..” Jade groaned my name, trying to softly push me away.
“Let me have you please…” I held down her hand and began suckling on her neck.
“Not yet.. not now….”she whispered back.
Fuck. I had to suppress my urges and let go off her.
“Fine. Don’t worry moglie. You look so shy. I will not force myself on you alright” it took every bit of retraining cell in me to not tear off her gown and just fuck her.
I did not want to scare her.
She was so alluring. From her plump red lips, to her skin, to her engorged breasts with its nipples that poked out of her gown, beckoning me to suck on them and… fuck! I got to stop thinking before I act on my thoughts.
I stood up and quickly wore my cloth back on.
“Where are you going?” She asked.
My eyes landed on her reddened neck and lips and I know she noticed as she quickly used her brown hairs to cover her neck.
“I am going to work Jade. I am already running late. I will talk to you later ok” I lied to cover up the urges which were so tempting to act on.
Jade simply nodded and flashed me a doting smile to which I returned before exiting her room.
If I had stayed there for a second longer, I probably would not have been able to control myself.
What is this woman doing to me?